Trapped.
Sometimes, I just feel trapped. No reason, I just.
This mortal dilemma, cannot be solved.
I could feel my inner demons trying to come out, take over my mind. But I can't let them do that, I can't...
...To protect those whom I care, and love.
The demons won. I hurt those I cared for, I loved, and said somethings that I regret. Everyone knew I was a proud girl, and I'm a bully. I couldn't apologise, they knew I wouldn't. But... the guilt weighs my heart down no matter what. I broke it. I just broke his heart.
I looked into his beautiful, fearful eyes, drowning me in the deep green sea. My words couldn't find its way out, lost in my throat. I could see the hurt behind those layers of his eyes. I've gone too far.
"Why, Helga?"
"What did I ever do to you?"
I watched him walked away, finally enough of my bullying. I bit my lip, trying to hold back the tears that were threatening to pour down. He's the one who stood by me when I'm down. He's the one who helped me up. But.. But I didn't accept any of his care and concern, just because I don't want anyone to tease me, saying that I'm weak.
However, I can't let him walk out of my life forever, I can't let him go.
I love him.
His eyes widened, having said what I wouldn't have to other people.
"I... I'm sorry."
He stopped.
I approached him cautiously, afraid that any sudden movements would sent him running for the hills, leaving me forever.
"I love you, Arnold. I'm sorry.."
I gripped onto his checkered, red button up shirt. Tears starting to overflow as I felt his strong arms around me.
"I love you too."