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You can expect a lot from this story. It will contain more than just Tragedy and Angst. There will be Hurt/Comfort, Horror, Suspense and so much more. I will throw in what I feel fit and will make a good story. But there will be a lot of violence and blood and character death. Maybe one or more... You will just have to read to find out! ^^

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A Great Lost

Chapter 1: Seeing the City of New York

Seeing the city with this state of mind made me wonder how little humans really do know. They walk the world as they are the only living thing in it. They know of everything that happen on the surface, all the deaths and all the born. Every little change that the world makes. But if it doesn't concern them, they don't take it to attention. So do they really care a shit? Hell no! How many times have we saved this world and it gone unnoticed? Plenty I tell ya! They don't even know abou it. What would they've done if we hadn't make the sewers of one of the biggest city in the world our home a little over nineteen years ago? I've always cursed the humans for making us hide in the sewers like disgusting cockroaches.

Watching the humans walk around like they own the place has always pressed the anger deep within me. But standing on the rooftops, looking down on them made me feel powerful. Important. Like they had the world but I had the sky. A feeling the green mutant hotheaded turtle which I am just love. But I can't say all the humans is the same dog shit. No, in fact two of my very best friends are humans, and there is a few more. Without them it would be pretty hard to live. I can't even remember how our lives was before we met them, or how it would be like if we hadn't. Especially when the most terrible thing ya could think of, happened.

Three years may seem like a long time to grieve, but it's hard to move one when a piece of ya is missing. I admit, I can be real stubborn at times, but if I could let it go don't ya that I would? Who the hell would want to feel this way if they could stop it? But I can't control my mind and it does what it wants. The memory haunts me more than I will ever admit to my family. Though I can't really recall the event that clearly anymore as my mind had decided to oppress it. I still remember the pain, the guilt and the knowledge that my family would never be the same. But the worst thing which will certainly break me in the end is; it should've been me. It was my fault. My down fall. But no. He had to play the hero as always and put himself in between just to save me. I wasn't even worth it! All would've been better if he had just let me have taken it.

Rage took control of my body and made it move on its' own. I pulled my sais up from my belt, turning my body around and releasing them in a powerful throw at the box on the other side of the roof. It shatter by the impact and wooden splinters flew everywhere. Feeling that my pulse had quicken and my body move on its own without me realizing it, made the anger resurface once again. Rage and anger had always been simple for me, it just came naturally to me. It hadn't been a surprise to anyone when that had been the way for me to grieve. Fighting, arguing and violence. Not a single tear. Not since that day. Believe me, I know it isn't normal. Even to me it seems alienated.

After collecting my precious weapons, I returned to the same spot I had just left. My eyes fell down on the city once more. Funny... I just realized how the city hadn't noticed the changes from that night. Three long years and no one never even noticed. Sure they knew about the horrible death of Oroku Saki. It had been on the news for weeks afterwards. He had even gotten a statue. He had almost destroyed the city a dozen times and almost the world if it hadn't been for us! And he got a freaking statue in his honor! He didn't even know what honor was! Oroku Saki was the Shredder. The leader of the Foot. He did more criminal stuff than all the gangs in the city combined! How could the humans have miss that? I sure hope he's burning in hell.

Before I could stop in, another fit of grief came crushing down. The sound of the city submerged by the screams and cries from the fateful night. In a try to regain the control of my mind, my eyes was drawn to the clear view of the roof about just one block away. So close, yet not far enough. I can't explain why I keep returning to this place when all it does is to bring back the torment. I have no idea why. Every day I found myself returning to that roof. Doesn't matter if I go the other direction or do everything in my power no to come here. Though never have I put a single foot back on that building, nor will I ever. Still I ask every time; why do I return? Am I seeking forgiveness? Revelation maybe? Can it be in the back of my mind I hope he would somehow appear? Or perhaps I just don't want to accept that he's truly gone?

A heavy cry of thunder brought me out of my line of thoughts and my eyes turned up to the dark sky which was filled with even darker clouds. I hadn't noticed the clouds which had rolled in and covered the starry sky. Usually I was good at noticing the shift in the weather, but I had completely missed the shift in the temperature. With just second thunder as a warning, the sky opened up and a curtain of rain drowned the city. For a moment I just stood there and let the rain pour down on me. It felt so smooth as it touched my skin, cooling it down from the anger. It felt good, like the pressure of grief and guilt was be fading away. I closed my eyes.

Sometime I wish I could flee-

The last image of him crossed my mind. I shot them open and they stung as the rain hit them. Turning my eyes down to the streets, I watched the humans began to flee from the cooling-purifying rain.

-but know I cannot.

There we had the very first chapter...

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I will update the second chapter soon.

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TBC...