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Hi just a short little piece on the moments before the Doctor dies in The Impossible Astronaut. Slight River/Doctor.
I don't know if all the names are right, I found them on the internet, if they are not, tell me and I will change them. Or if you know of any better ones, I can change some for them.
Oh the quote right out the end doesn't really fit but I like it and it's from River.
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The Doctor was sorry, so sorry for all the destruction and heartache he had left in his wake. He was sorry for all of the people who had sacrificed themselves for him, to save the world. Sorry for the friends he had left and lost. He had been giving many names throughout his life, 'The Oncoming Storm', 'The Destroyer of worlds', 'The Dark Lord', 'The Traveller from Beyond Time,' and 'Great Worrier' all of which seemed to fit him perfectly. For this is what he had become. He had given himself the name the Doctor, because that's what he wanted to be. He wanted to go around saving people and planets. But what had that cost him, and more importantly his friends. He was now so feared that someone would risk everything to go to the length of stealing his best friends' child and turning her into a weapon, just to bring him down. The only good thing about the whole thing is that she would grow up to be an amazing, brilliant women, who he had fallen deeply in love with. He had never fought that he would ever feel this way again, after he had lost his family, his wife and his children. But he had and it felt wonderful and amazing, that he was finally not alone. But now it was her turn to feel alone and he hated the thought of her feeling such. Hated the thought that he could have, no should have tried harder to stop this from happening but he didn't, he hadn't been amazing enough, and that was all she ever wanted him to be.
As he turned and looked at the three of them starring at him in horror, his three Ponds. He had only three words to say that he hoped would somehow make them understand how he felt. How bad he felt for what was happening to Amy right now and the loss Rory will feel. Yet there was more suffering to come for them both. He was sorry to River, for not being there to save her all those years ago in the Library, for destroying her childhood and for making her feel so lonely.
'I am sorry'
As he begins to regenerate, he knows what is about to come next, the next shot will kill him. Time can be rewritten, he keeps telling himself. All the mistakes he had made can be redone. He just hoped that this time round he would make the right chooses. As the last shot hits him, his last thoughts return to a conversation he once had with Sarah Jane.
'It's daft though because well we where both saying we had this theory that if you ever died... we'd feel it somehow, we'd just know, but that's just silly isn't it?'
'I don't know maybe, cause between you and me, if that day ever comes...I think the whole universe might just shiver'
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And what the Doctor will never know is that the whole universe did exactly that.
'Everyone knows that everyone dies. And nobody knows it like the doctor. But I do think that all the skies in all the worlds might just turn dark, if he ever accepts it.'
'Everybody knows that everybody dies. But not every day. Not... today'
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