He made me switch it off. My humanity. I mean I understand of the reasons why he made me. Jeremy is dead. Everyone is dead. Because of me. Mom, Dad, Jenna, John even John I care about. Isobel, Kol even, every supernatural creature is dead because of me. My brother was the last straw, without Damon I would have never flicked the switch. I'm a vampire without humanity. And I am going to have fun with it.

Elena Gilbert had nothing in her hands as she left the burning house. Her brother in there, her journal, everything she wanted to leave behind. She didn't want to show her hurt so she turned off her humanity. She heard Stefan stop and turn around to look at the house, she couldn't bring herself to look back out so she continued walking away, leaving her human life behind. She followed Damon into his car and sat in there as he drove to the Salvatore Boarding House. She kept her eyes straight as she breathed in and out as her love drove. She felt Damon move a hand from the steering wheel and grab her hand. He clasped his fingers tightly around her hand almost as if to give her some form of hope. It was all gone though, her emotions, her caring, her hope, any little part of her being anything close to human was gone.

"Elena" Damon whispered as they pulled up to the Boarding House. She flicked her head to the side quickly and looked at him in the eyes. Damon was shocked, she was acting like Katherine. Her eyes lost the love they held. The emotion. They were plain, held nothing; just big and brown eyes stared back at him. The only little bit of emotion was a speck of love that cared for Damon that is all she wanted.

"I'm fine Damon, no questions" She spoke harshly. Her tone mimicking Katherine's. She was back as well, they had two Petrova's running around, both without humanity and a care in the world for violence. Elena was hungry but she would deal with that in the morning. She ripped her hand away from Damon's grasp and pulled she opened the door to the car and sped out.

Once inside she walked through the halls of the library and spotted Damon's whiskey. Not bothering with a glass she helped herself and drank until she felt Damon wrap his fingers around the base of the whiskey glass and held it. He drank from it and placed it down. The love radiating off them was outstanding. Stefan was in the room and he saw the way they looked at each other. He was upset. He lost his love but he went up to his room to mourn Jeremy – someone had to and it wouldn't be just Matt – and leave the two vampires to themselves.

Damon placed the whiskey down and led Elena to the couch. There they sat, Elena nuzzling her head into the crook of his neck. Their hands intertwined as they linked and sat in front of the blazing fire. Elena moved her left hand onto Damon's thigh and looked up at him. There wasn't anything else either of them wanted to do. It was the passion from both of them. Their choices weren't the best at this kind of time but in the moment it felt like it was the best thing for the both of them.

Elena reached her hand behind Damon's head and pulled his head towards her. She loved him. She would never say it without humanity but he knew. He could feel it. Their lips finally met after what felt like forever. Elena moved to straddle Damon and pushed her face closer to Damon's tilting it slightly to the side to make the kiss even deeper. She felt Damon's tongue sweep at her bottom lip, more than the one time, practically begging for entrance, to which she allowed.

He lifted her up and pushed her against a wall, moving his head lower to nip at her neck. He could sense where this was going but he couldn't not at this point in time. He placed her down and placed a soft kiss on her lips. He grabbed her hand and pulled her softly along with her to his room.

He placed her on the bed and went to get the clothes she had left here when she was living here. She didn't have any other clothes. He turned around to just Elena in her underwear and had to contain himself. He couldn't stop staring.

"It's nothing you haven't seen before Damon" She spoke walking up to him slowly and grabbed the pajamas from his hands and put only the top on and got into the bed. The blood red pillows and black comforter covered Elena as she sunk into them. She didn't feel their warmth though, or Damon's comforting arms, she felt hollow, no emotion.

Damon was there, next to her under the covers pulling her so her head lay on his chest. He kissed the head of brown straight hair that lay on his chest. He smoothed out her hair and held in his tears, he already heavily missed Jeremy. His gaming buddy and his drinking buddy were both dead. His girl owned no humanity because he made her switch it off. It would be easier for her. He knew that, and in the back of her mind she knew it to.

Elena knew nothing else anymore, no one was there, she had her friends but no family anymore. She kept repeating their names through her head and every once in a while the word blood ran through her head but she kept her hunger down. She still didn't want to kill but if she had to she would and she would relish in the joy of it. She moved her head from Damon's chest and started nipping at his neck, she wanted him but she knew he wouldn't tonight. Maybe later but no, not tonight.

She felt his hand snake to her ass and then to her thigh to pull her closer, he moved his head and started kissing her on her lips. He knew he shouldn't but his hand reached underneath her shirt to play with her stomach and straps of her bra. He wouldn't go further tonight and he thanked the Lord that Stefan had walked into the door and coughed to make him noticed.

"Sorry to interrupt but I believe we all need sleep" Stefan spoke to Elena and Damon in a compromising position bundled up in sheets.

"We do Elena" Damon said rolling off her and as Stefan sped out of the room he shut off the light hearing Elena huff. She moved her hand underneath Damon's shirt feeling every muscle of his perfectly sculpted abs. She moved her lips to his ear and licked it and bit on the lobe of his ear moving her body so one of his legs pressed against the insides of her thighs.

"Soon 'Lena, not tonight" He spoke his voice husky, as he ducked underneath the sheets and closed his eyes attempting at sleep for a night, one without little Gilbert alive. The first night back in Mystic Falls with only one Gilbert alive, if you could even say Elena was like that at the moment. They said their goodnights and attempted sleep.

Elena tossed and turned the whole night. She wanted Damon, she needed him but for now she would have to deal with just one night away from his perfect body. She closed her eyes and fell into a dreamless sleep.