A/N - New story. It's gonna be kinda depressing... Sorry. Review if you want me to continue.

"I'm just.. Not ready for a relationship." he lied through his teeth over the phone. "O-Oh." I stuttered quietly knowing I just lost the one thing I thought I loved.

"I'm sorry.." he mumbled before hanging up on me. I tried so hard to fight back tears. But I just couldn't stop them. I ran across the street, through the backyards and pounded on my best friends window.

"What the hell, Clare?"

"He hates me!" I broke down and started telling her everything that happened between my boyfrien- ex boyfriend and I.

"I'm so sorry Clare." Alli, the one person I could trust, hugged me.

"No it won't. I'll NEVER forget him Alli. Never." I cried softly but finally stopped after hours of my tears hitting the floor of Alli's bedroom.

He never actually loved me.

"Clare are you okay?" Alli asked as we entered through the doors of Degrassi. "I'm fine." i replied softly.

But i wasn't.

I knew that in a few seconds, my day would be ruined and I'd have to cry myself to sleep tonight. As was every night. A usual day.

And sure enough, i was right.

"Oh look who's coming down the hall. The school SLUT." Elijah Goldsworthy, the guy i thought loved me, sang as he passed us, circling me just to glare at me.

"Get out of here, WHORE." he growled when he got me to look him in the eye.

His amazing deep green eyes held nothing but anger and annoyance towards me.

I nodded silently and tried to walk around him, but he had a different idea.

I was slammed up against the nearest locker and my books were thrown down the hallway.

Laughter filled the long stretched dull hallway.

"Look at the loser!" Drew, one of Eli's best friend's laughed at me.

Eli joined in the laughing and him and his 'posse' strutted down the hallway and around the corner, finally out of sight.

I looked down and Alli came to my rescue with my books, grabbing my hand and helping me up.

"I'm so sorry Clare.." she started but i cut her off.

"It's not the worst he's done. Just leave it."

On the inside i just wanted to die.

My heart has been ripped out and stabbed enough. Can't i just leave all of this?

The day went by quicker then i thought. I didn't have any contact with Eli for the rest of the day.. Until the English.

Eli strutted in 10 minutes late, with Jenna Middleton, the ACTUAL school whore, trailing behind him.

He had his usual smirk plastered on his face and Jenna looked at him lustfully.

"Mr. Goldsworthy, Mrs. Middelton. You are late." Mrs. Dawes declared.

"So i am. What are you gonna do about it?" Eli sneered, as he passed me, giving my shoulder a rough shove before sliding into the seat in front of me.

Mrs. Dawes raised one of her light brown thin eyebrows at him and snorted.

"Detention for 2 weeks Goldsworthy. Mrs. Middelton, 1 week." she stomped back to her desk.

The whole class errupted in giggles and Eli glared at them.

The teacher smiled and started the lesson but not before Eli managed to turn around and smack my arm.

"Ow.." i looked down trying to fight back more tears.

I just wanted to get out of here.

Dead or Alive.

So... What'd you think? I need atleast 10 reviews to continue the story.