"Yuna, I love you."
They were just four simple words, but they meant so much more to me - and hopefully to her as well. The only problem was I hadn't told her yet. Don't get me wrong. I did love her.
I still do.
But it was hard, and it was terrifying. It was definately more difficult than facing any of the fiends. What if she didn't feel the same way? Though, another question rang in my head.
What if she died before I got the chance to tell her?
"The first time I saw you, Yuna, I knew I would fall for you. This whole time I knew I would love you."
But one thing I didn't know this whole time was that she'd die. What if I couldn't save her? What if Rikku and I never thought of anything? What if the entire world unraveled around me, leaving me all alone? As if it hadn't happened already, but this time it would be different. I would be left alone, without her. What if they took her from me?
There were to many questions and not enough answers. And it frustrated me.
I was stubborn and head strong. If there were no answers, I was determined to find them. But in the end, i realize that they were never there. There were no answers.
All questions worth asking will go unanswered, and when it's over she is all that matters.
---
"I love you Tidus."
Did I really? Or was a so wrapped up in the endless spiral of death that I just wanted something else to be lost in?
No. I loved him. I truly, honestly loved him with all my heart. But at the same time I was torn. It broke my spirits to see him struggle with the unevitible. To fight my death. It would have been easier if we hadn't fallen in love.
Lulu knew that. Even Wakka knew. Was I so blind? Did I not see it? No. I chose not to see it. I chose to ignore it.
I chose love over death. Who, when given that very same choice, wouldn't?
I was still in self denial. I didn't want to die. I wanted to live - I wanted to love.
Why else would I have let us share that kiss? Why else would I have surrendered my heart?
Someone once told me that all questions that were wort asking would go without answers. I believe them now, but in the end Spira is all that matters.
They were just four simple words, but they meant so much more to me - and hopefully to her as well. The only problem was I hadn't told her yet. Don't get me wrong. I did love her.
I still do.
But it was hard, and it was terrifying. It was definately more difficult than facing any of the fiends. What if she didn't feel the same way? Though, another question rang in my head.
What if she died before I got the chance to tell her?
"The first time I saw you, Yuna, I knew I would fall for you. This whole time I knew I would love you."
But one thing I didn't know this whole time was that she'd die. What if I couldn't save her? What if Rikku and I never thought of anything? What if the entire world unraveled around me, leaving me all alone? As if it hadn't happened already, but this time it would be different. I would be left alone, without her. What if they took her from me?
There were to many questions and not enough answers. And it frustrated me.
I was stubborn and head strong. If there were no answers, I was determined to find them. But in the end, i realize that they were never there. There were no answers.
All questions worth asking will go unanswered, and when it's over she is all that matters.
---
"I love you Tidus."
Did I really? Or was a so wrapped up in the endless spiral of death that I just wanted something else to be lost in?
No. I loved him. I truly, honestly loved him with all my heart. But at the same time I was torn. It broke my spirits to see him struggle with the unevitible. To fight my death. It would have been easier if we hadn't fallen in love.
Lulu knew that. Even Wakka knew. Was I so blind? Did I not see it? No. I chose not to see it. I chose to ignore it.
I chose love over death. Who, when given that very same choice, wouldn't?
I was still in self denial. I didn't want to die. I wanted to live - I wanted to love.
Why else would I have let us share that kiss? Why else would I have surrendered my heart?
Someone once told me that all questions that were wort asking would go without answers. I believe them now, but in the end Spira is all that matters.