It was bound to happen…
Not like I wasn't expecting it.
So why dose it hurt so much?
I guess that its good that I'm leaving
Because I can't forget what happened…
It was the day before I left Konoha. Saying goodbye is always hard, but telling someone you love them is way harder. And just the thought of trying to do both had my nerves tied in knots. Just for him I heald my breath and dressed myself up. I looked like a porcelain doll wearing the makeup I bought for the off chance I ever get a date and the silk kimono I had never worn. He was hard to find, but sometime around midnight, I finally did, sitting by a tree with pink-haired someone asleep on his chest. A dazed dreamy look on his face, the same one Sakura wore when ever she was around Sasuke way back when. I have never been good with determination, so with that I told myself he was busy and I could send him a letter when I had time. My stomach flipped as I pondered the reason for his blissful expression.
Maybe I didn't turn away like I thought I had. Maybe I was just staring at him teary-eyed and awestruck. But something had announced my presence, because as soon as I began to leave he sat up.
"Ah? Hinata?" He called, slowly standing so he didn't disturb Sakura.
By then I didn't care, I was leaving anyways, wasn't I? I turned to face him, looking right into his clear blue eyes.
I can do this, I can do this… I stayed quiet and stared, I can do this, I can...
"Hello?" He had moved towards me, and was now waving a hand in front of my face.
I can't do this! I broke down and looked away, aware of the all too familiar feeling of heat making its way to my cheeks.
"I... I… Have something I need to… to tell you Naruto-kun" Now or never, I told myself, swallowing my fear and looking back into his eyes.
"What?" He was trying to listen, I'll give him that. But he kept looking at the sleeping girl behind him. I disserved more respect than that! I looked down and regained composure.
"Please look at me! I need to tell you this!"
I have to admit, the shocked look on his face was slightly comical. But I was too angry to laugh.
"Im sorry, Hinata, its just-"
"Naruto-kun! Listen to me! I'm leaving on a mission tomorrow, and if anything happens…" I couldn't say that out loud! I was still trying to convince myself it wasn't true! I wiped the tears out of the corners of my eyes, forgetting about the makeup I was wearing, or the fact that I was running my kimono.
"If anything bad happens… and I don't come back…"
"Oh." He was quiet; I could tell he would still rather be with Sakura. But something in his eyes told me he was worried.
"S-so all I wanted to tell you was…I…I um…" Saying goodbye is hard, but telling someone you love them is way harder.
He was beginning to get distracted again. Now or never I repeated, now or never. "I love you Uzumaki Naruto."
He was staring at me. Shock etched on every feature. I was strong when I had to be, so I freely let my shyness take me back, and it did. I began to feel light headed and the world closed in around me, until all I could see was Naruto.
"Im sorry" I mumbled, as I fell forward into his arms.
It may have been a hallucination, or I may just be making this up to make myself feel better, but I could have sworn that he had whispered: "Hinata, you look really pretty tonight."