Title: Fallen Angel
Rating: PG-13 (for a sexual scene and language use, and some violence)
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters of Touched By An Angel or The Survivors Club. All copyrights belong to CBS and Moonwater, and to Martha Williams for the wonderful tv series of all time.
Author to this fan fic: CodyKit
Cast of characters: Roma Downey as Monica/Monique, James Remar as Roan Griffin, Abigail Breslin as Sarah Griffin, Della Reese as Tess, John Dye as Andrew, Valerie Bertinelli as Gloria, Maggie Smith as Mrs. Kathy Parker, Mea Witeman as Julia Heart, Paul Winfield as Sam, Amy Adams as the new angel Jenny, Chris Potter as Chris Heart, Catherine Bell as Kristin Heart, Wynonna Judd as Audrey, Randy Travis as Wayne, Paul Wittenburg as Joey, Kim Delaney as Kerry Sanford, Adair Tishler as Emmalin Heart, Elaine Hendrix as Sandy Chapmen, Dominic Monaghan as Lenny Griffin, Ralph Waite as Mac Burnston, Kurt Russell as Kurt Griffin, Kevin Spacy as Charles Norman, Edward Asner as Seth Griffin, Brian McNamara as Brian Sanford, Alexis Cruz as RafaelChapter 1
Monica clasped in the hot desert sand, as she rocks herself back and forth of her broken heart. Monica felt some heavy object around her neck, as she reaches the circular object around her. As Monica holds the necklace that Griffin gave her for Christmas, all the tears started to flow once more out of Monica's eyes. "Griffin…..I…..Love….You….Why do I have to be a damn angel?" Monica shouted to the empty air.
"Monica….your back! Why are you crying?" A woman's voice squeaked.
Monica turned her head slightly and looked at her case worker assigned angel. Monica tried to hind her hurt feelings but they showed through to Jenny. "It's nothing that you will never understand. I don't even understand myself." Monica said bitterly.
"Monica…are you okay….you don't sound like yourself." Jenny asked, as she came closer to Monica.
"No I'm not alright….I just…..I lost a man that I love okay." Monica confessed.
"You what?" Jenny asked in shock.
"I fell in love with my assignment." Monica admitted.
"What does that mean…. That you can't be my supervisor anymore?" Jenny asked being concern about the situation.
"Honestly Jenny….I don't know if I am or not." Monica said. Then her face came into a shock look to find Sam appearing in the white abyss along with Gloria.
"Monica….I believe you know why I'm here." Sam said not sounding please at the situation.
"Yes…." Monica slowly looks down at the ground not meeting Sam's or Gloria's eyes.
"Gloria…you will carry on with Monica's training of Jenny…Monica come the Angels are waiting at the council." Sam said.
"Monica….what did you do?" Jenny screamed.
Monica looked at Jenny and then at Gloria. Gloria knew from Monica's eyes that she had falling in love with a human. As Sam led her into the abyss, the image of Gloria and Jenny disappeared in white light.
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Griffin left the spot where he last held Monica and went to his secrete place. As he clasped on the bench and more tears came out. He knew he had fallen for Monica, and now he wish he hadn't. Because once someone enters his heart, they leave a permanent mark in his soul. It has been an hour since Monica revealed herself as an angel, but in Griffin's eyes it felt like a lifetime ago. Griffin slowly walks back to the house, where his daughter is sound asleep in her bed, unaware that Monica is gone. Griffin had no idea on how tell his daughter that Monica is gone forever.
As soon as Griffin walks in the pain of heartache begins to set in. Everywhere he went he sees Monica's burning brown eyes as they burn through his soul. Griffin walks slowly to his daughter's room to check on his little girl. Sarah was sleeping with an arm around her stuff dog Wishbone that Chris gave to her when she had ammonia. Griffin closes the door and then went to his own room where he looked at Monica's red scarf and held it into his hands. Then the tears fell out of Griffin's eyes and landed on the cotton fabric. Griffin started to cry for the lost of his love for Monica and he could stop crying. He places the red fabric to his chest and sob continuously in his pillow.
"Monica….is it true that you are romantically involved with your assignment." The man angel announced.
Monica squared her shoulders as she was being trailed for her behavior as a human. She looked at each one of the angels before her and very boldly she replied, "Yes. I am romantically involved with my assignment."
"You do know the consequence punishment for your actions." The angel stated. Monica looks down at her hands and silently nods in agreement. Then the angel stated, "You are heaven bound until farther notice, your wings are clipped and there should be no coming into contact with Roan Griffin and his daughter or any other part of the town Gracie, Do you understand your punishment…Monica?" The angel gave Monica a disgraceful look.
"Yes…" Monica slowly answered, as the tears stung her eyes.
"Good…you are dismissed." The angel stated, and Monica slowly rose and walks out of the glass doors. Everything around Monica became a blur as the tears welled up in her eyes. Once Monica was alone in the court yard away from all of the other angels, she uses her only angel power within her to connect to Griffin and Sarah. Monica closes her eyes as she reaches into the minds of the two of them. She wanted to reach more to Griffin, but instead she got to Sarah.
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Sarah was sound asleep but something in her dream world seemed off. She was awake in the middle of her favorite spot…her secret spot, but everything around her seem fuzzy and hazy. "Sarah." Sarah wipes around at the call of her name. To her surprise she finds Monica standing there with gold light surrounding her.
"Monica…..is this, a dream or real life. And why are you glowing?" Sarah asked.
"This is a dream….it's the only way I can speak to you. There's something you should know about me. I'm an angel from heaven." Monica confessed.
"You're a what?" Sarah asked in shock.
"It's true….I….I was the angel you prayed for in your letter. You prayed to God that you wanted an angel to help your father to fall in love again." Monica said now sitting beside Sarah.
"Yeah…" Sarah said remained clam.
"I was the one that fell for your dad, and he fell in love with me too." Monica sadly replied.
Sarah light up at the truth that her dad finally fell for someone, but her smile faded when Monica didn't look happy. "Aren't you happy that you are in love?"
"Yes….I had always wanted to fall in love with someone and share a life with a husband and a family. And I wanted so much to be your mother. But I can't….Angels can never mingle in with humans. Which is why I'm heaven bound right now." Monica stated, as she looks at Sarah hurt soul. "I know how much you wanted me there with you, and I wish I could."
"I never truly had a mother, and you came into my life and everything changed. I…I love you….I wanted you to be my mother." Sarah cried.
Monica now in tears too, "I know sweetheart, believe me I know." And Sarah embraces Monica and holds her tight. Monica lets out her mother instinct and holds Sarah as she holds Sarah for the last time. "I got to go…I'm not even suppose to be doing this..but I had to say goodbye. Just do me one thing Sarah."
"What's that?" Sarah cries.
"Look out for your father for me, and if he chooses someone else I won't be offended. I love you both so very much, and I wish I was part of your family." Monica cries even more.
"No Monica don't go…don't…." Sarah cries louder.
"Bye bye baby…." Monica says.
Then with one blink of an eye, Monica disappears from Sarah's dream. Sarah awoke at that and found she too had been crying out loud. She pulls back her covers and goes to the window where the sun was just coming through the morning sky.
Sarah image fades and Monica opens her eyes to find herself back in the court yard. Monica's heart is broken between heaven and earth as the love for Griffin and Sarah grows more in her heart. She knew Sarah will be crushed considered that her birth mother abandon her without a goodbye. Monica didn't want to repeat that, so she said her goodbye to Sarah. Monica looks off into the distance unaware that Andrew was approaching her.
"Hey Mon, nice to see you." Andrew stated.
Monica gave him a half smile as she looks down at the ground, "hey yourself."
"Got you your favorite. Coffee with cream, and a coffee cake. Thought you might be hungry." Andrew slides the plate to her as he tries to make her smile like before.
"Thanks, but I'm not really hungry or thirsty." Monica said refusing to take a sip of her addiction.
"Monica…it's your favorite." Andrew looked slightly confused at his friend.
"Thanks…but no. Nothing personal Andrew but I feel like being alone right now." Monica looked at Andrew with hurtful eyes, as she gets up from the table and wonders to a bench that was in the shade under a beautiful pink blossom cherry tree.
Andrew knew Monica will hate him for what he had done but he had to tell her the truth sooner or later. Andrew walks over to her, and Monica looks up at him through her tears that she had been crying. "Monica…what's wrong?"
"You already know…every angel thinks that I betray our race because of my love for a human." Monica angrily shouted.
"Yeah I do….Rafael told me just a few minutes ago. But Monica, you know why we can't mingle in with humans." Andrew said as he puts his arm around her shoulders. But Monica shrugs his arm away and moves away from him a bit.
"Andrew…I just want to be alone for right now okay. I'm heartbroken right now, and in no mood for your advice. I had just lost the love of my life, and I probably never see him or Sarah again, so just leave me be." Monica said as she walks away from him and goes to room.
Monica left the court yard, and she goes to her room where she lives in heaven. Monica opens the door, and travels to the living room where there are pictures of her life as an angel. Looking at them made her heart feel so empty and cold. Thank goodness her roommate wasn't here to see her like this. Monica abandons the living room as she makes her way straight to her bedroom. As soon as Monica closes the door to her room behind her she heads to her bed, and there she starts to cry for the love that she leaves behind with Griffin. As each tear feel out of her eyes, Monica clutches a pillow in her chest and sobs.
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Griffin wakes up by his alarm clock, he been tossing and turning all night and he still held Monica's scarf in his chest. Feeling like lead, Griffin slowly pulls out of bed, and tries to live life as before. The life before Monica entered his life and changed it forever. Griffin walks to the bathroom and places his navy blue robe on the hook of the door. He turns on the faucet of the shower and then pulls the blue curtain of the shower closed. Griffin stands under the water for a long time drowning his heart with all the memories of her. Just even thinking about her, made Griffin tear up in the shower, and then without warning the tears came as he continued to cry for his love for Monica.
It was 7:00 AM by the time Griffin got dress and goes down to the kitchen to make coffee. He looks at his work case and was thinking of calling in for a personal day. But he had to go to work to keep his mind off of Monica. Sarah comes out of her room and heads down to the kitchen with her pj's still on her.
"Morning daddy." Sarah said not her usual cheerful self.
"Morning to you too, Sarah baby what's wrong." Griffin said as he looked at his daughter.
"She's never coming back is she?" Sarah asked.
Griffin looked confused as his daughter sits down across from him. "Who are you talking about?"
"Monica…." Sarah said eyeing her father.
Griffin closes his file and strolls over to his daughter. "Listen sweetheart, about Monica, she is not who she is…." Griffin tries to explain but Sarah already knows.
"I know daddy, she's an angel. She came to me in my dream. Are you in love with her?" Sarah ask as she studies her father.
Griffin looks down, then back at his daughter, "yes."
Sarah bits her lips as her tears came out and flowing down her cheeks, "I miss her daddy, I really love her."
"Oh baby….I do too." Griffin said and he too was in tears, as he pulled his daughter into his arms, and together they both cried over Monica.
An hour later, Griffin found himself at his desk while all the other police detectives looked at him with gleaming hopes on their faces. The whole town knows that Griffin has found love again, and they are all so happy for him. But toady Griffin is not in the mood to talk about his love life.
"Hey Griffin buddy, you wanna go to the club tonight with your new girlfriend what was her name oh yeah Monica…" Chris said nudging Griffin's arm.
"Chris I'm not really in the mood right now." Griffin said trying to keep his anger down.
"Oh come on Griff…this is Monica we are talking about, the hot sexy Irish woman that I saw you and her kissing the other night. Man that was one hot smoking kiss. So tell me how did it felt when her lips crashed onto yours." Chris said all hyped up about Griffin's new love life.
Griffin turned to look at him, and this time Chris saw the hurt in his best friend's eyes and all the joking stopped. "Chris…I'm in no mood right now to talk about her okay so just do yourself a favor and just let it go." Griffin pulls a file from his desk and turns his attention on the case.
"Griffin….what is wrong?" Chris said now in a serious tone.
"Nothing is." Griffin said trying to deny his hurt feelings.
"Griff…I have known you since high school, and I know what nothing is bothering you, but this time it is so tell me what is wrong." Chris said looking into Griffin's blue eyes.
"Even if I did tell you, you won't understand. No one in this damn town will understand." Griffin said as he turned to leave to head for the squad cars. Chris knows something is defiantly wrong and he goes and follows his best friend to the squad cars.
"Griffin….Griffin.. I know you don't think that I will understand but I know you, and you had this same attitude when Crystal left you. So talk to me Damn it!" Chris shouted.
Griffin slams the door shut, and looks eye to eye with his best friend, "If I tell you, will you drop it, and let it go?"
"Depends on what it is." Chris stated folding his arms across his chest.
Griffin took a deep breath and then refocus his attention to Chris, "Promise me you won't tell anyone about this and don't laugh."
"I promise I won't, now tell me." Chris said.
Griffin took a moment before he told Chris who Monica is. "I fell in love with an angel, Chris. Monica, she is a freaking angel. And now she is gone and she may never come back."
Chris just looked at Griffin and a little laugh was about to come out, but he kept it in. "Your serious?"
"I wish I wasn't." Griffin looked down at the ground as his heart felt so vulnerable like a window that was about to shatter into millions of pieces.
"Griffin, are you sure you're not imagining it or something?" Chris said in shocked.
"Chris why would I be making this up, when the woman that I love is not even human," Griffin said.
Chris put all joking aside and for once said nothing. He never had seen his friend look so angry and hurt all at once. Plus Griffin had no joking in is voice and he was telling the truth. "I never knew angels existed. She really is an angel?"
Griffin nodded, "You can't tell anyone about this, not even your wife. The whole town thinks she is human and I want it to stay like that. This way they don't think I'm crazy. Now as said I don't want to discuss about it." And Griffin opens the car door and starts the engine to the car. Two minutes later Griffin was on his way to question the family in his file.
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Monica cried herself to sleep, and each time she awakens she feels more heartache then she had felt before she closes her eyes. Monica took off Griffin's necklace of Ireland, and held it in her hand as the tears flowed down onto the white pillow. In the white jewel of her necklace she can see Griffin's soft blue eyes looking right at her. Monica closes her eyes as she remembers all the memories of him and Sarah.
The way Griffin held her hand as they watch a movie in the dim lit room. The way he smiled at her at Christmas time, as his eyes light up when he saw her true beauty as a woman in a sexy dress the night he danced with her. And then New Years Eve the way his lips crashed onto her own, and loving her so tender that it made Monica feel so happy to be loved by someone. She wanted to be in Griffin's life forever, but his life was not up to her. It was up to God, weather he planned it or not. Monica had fell in love with one of God's children and she wanted to spend her life with him.
Suddenly there was a knock on her door, which jerked Monica's memories of Griffin out of her mind. Monica quickly puts the necklace back around her neck before the door opens up. Monica looks up to find Gloria at the foot of her bed. Monica gave a sad smile to her, as she sits down next to her best friend. "Hey, you look like crap."
Monica gave a short chuckle to that, "I feel like crap. I feel like my heart has just been stabbed by a dagger."
Gloria came closer to Monica, and puts her hand with hers, "You were really in love with him."
Monica nods to that, "Is that a crime?"
"No it's not, people fall in love all the time, but it's different for us. We aren't allow to mingle.." Gloria started but didn't finish her sentence because she could tell Monica is getting aggravated by it. "Do you want to talk about?"
Monica sits up and stares out the window, "No. If I do I will end up crying again."
"I heard that you are band from returning to earth." Gloria looked at Monica, and for the first time she saw her once mentor/friend look so weak and vulnerable. "Monica…." Gloria looked at Monica and again Monica cried for her heartache. Gloria did the next best thing and held Monica in her arms as she cried over losing her love.
"I….love him..Gloria…I never thought I could fall…but now…I can't see myself as an angel anymore, all I want is to be in his arms….Why is my heart so broken? Why am I so angry at God, for taking me away to the place that I'm need most?" Monica sobs even harder.
Gloria didn't want to bring this up, but she knows why Monica was here instead of down there. "Monica….there's something I need to tell you. And please don't get mad. I know that you are in a great deal of pain right now, but as your friend you need to here this."
Monica looks up at Gloria and moves a bit to look into Gloria's brown eyes."Okay."
"The reason you were pulled from your assignment, was because….someone was spying on you." Gloria said.
Monica eyes flickered from one side to the other, "What?! Who…Who was spying on me?"
Gloria was hesitant to say his name, but looking at Monica she was about to blow a fuse, "Andrew. After Rafeal saw you dancing with Griffin, he was afraid that you had falling in love with a human, so he told Andrew, and I guess Andrew got jealous, and told the highest of angels what you had done."
Monica's heartache vanished and now she was extremely pissed off. Her eyes were a fiery pit of hot anger, and she felt like a volcano inside of her starting to erupt. "Why….Why would he do this?"
"You don't know…..Monica….Andrew has been in love with you for eight years, and after he saw you passionately kiss a human, he went off the walls." Gloria stated.
"You knew about this!" Monica raised her voice.
"Don't get mad. I told you I didn't want to tell you it." Gloria said as she looked into Monica's fury eyes.
Monica felt so much anger she had to leave the room, she wanted answers, she heard Gloria call out to her, but Monica paid no attention to her, she left the apartment and slam the door behind her, as she makes her way towards Andrew.
About ten minutes away she found Andrew at his favorite spot skipping rocks in the pound, no one else was around so it made it easier for Monica to let go of her fury. She can't believe her one good friend for 8 years would betray her like this. Andrew looked up and saw her approach. He dropped the rocks he been hold on to and made his way towards her.
"Hey feeling better…" Andrew asks, as he smiled but looking at Monica's face she didn't look to happy to see him.
"What the hell did you do?!" Monica scowled.
"What are you talking about?" Andrew asked.
"You know what….you turned me in….why?" Monica yelled.
Andrew's face dropped great she knows guess he has to tell her, "I had to."
"Why?!" Monica presses on again.
"Because you broke the rules of an angel that's why." Andrew said, now beginning the feel the anger going inside of him.
Monica looked at him, and she pace back and forth trying so very hard not to beat the crap out of her best friend. "I want answers Andrew….why did you followed me?"
"Because I was hurt by your actions….Monica…look at me…we are the same species…he isn't he will never understand your life." Andrew said now getting angry.
"So…that fact that I love him and he loves me back is enough. I know he loves me, I felt it, and I know it." Monica said.
"Really?! And how did he reacted to finding the truth about your life as an angel….he freaked…Monica angels CAN'T BE TOGETHER with humans! You wanted to know the reason why I turned you in, because I'm madly in love with you, I've been in love with you for eight years, I know you…and Griffin….he is a human…and he is not for you…..I wanted to put an end to your little romance and that you are never allowed to see him again. Because we are suppose to be together." Andrew said out of jealously.
Monica had hot tears running down her face, and as soon as Andrew said that Monica swung her hand at him so hard that it left a huge red mark across his face, "You Son of a Bitch!...You are not going to tell me who I can and cannot love! I'm sorry that I didn't fell in love with you and that my heart chose Griffin….But what you had done is far worse than what I did to our species. The man I fell for had a daughter whom lost her mother and felt totally alone. Congratulations Andrew… you just crushed Griffin's daughter's heart again." Monica said bitterly and storms off into the woods.
As soon as Monica was alone she sank down beside a bolder by a small river and begins to pour out her emotions as she sobs….Monica cried so hard that she threw up her soup that she eaten for lunch that afternoon. Monica curls herself up into a ball by a rock near the river and cries for her betrayal in heaven. She wishes she could take it all back…back to before she ever came into contact with Griffin and Sarah. She just slapped Andrew in the face because she was so pissed at him for making her leave. "I don't know what to do anymore…..Help me father…..why do I love Griffin so much?" Monica scrams out her pain. "I'm so sorry….for everything….." Monica cries harder as the tears fell to the ground. Then Monica looks through her tears as she was surrounded by the warm white light that had been with her since the day she was created out of lilac blossoms in Ireland. Monica closes her eyes to feel God's presence like she had done for 10 years as an angel.
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The strange angel steps forward to testify for Monica's name in heaven. "I know my Monica very well….and the Father sent her down for a purpose, so that Monica can fulfill her density. Her life as an angel had lead her to her new life which is to live her life as a human, and to restore lost love in a families heart…so please let her go back."
The angels of angels looked at the angel, and said, "Are you sure she is ready to do this….because she was already planned to spend her life with Andrew."
"I know that Andrew loves her, but Monica is needed more down on earth than her…just look at my baby's broken heart….how can she continue to be an angel when her heart is not in it anymore."
The angels of angels looked at the pleading angel, and stated…."We will look into Monica's case…as for right now….she is suspended from returning to earth."
It has been 7 weeks since Monica left Griffin's life, every now again, he thought he saw her on the street, but when he got near, it was a different woman. The town was decorated for Valentine's Day, with hearts everywhere, but Griffin was in no mood to deal with love right now. His love went with the woman who is in heaven. Each day felt like hell for him, but he had to move on with his life even if it means to move on from Monica. As Griffin picked up some flowers for Sarah, just to say I love you when he runs into Sandy Chapmen.
"Griffin? What a surprise to see you here." Sandy said in shock.
"Sandy…hi, just picking up flowers." Griffin stated.
"Oh…for Monica right, the strange Irish lady? I was told now that you two are an item." Sandy said feeling down.
"Well we were….it's complicated…anyways these flowers are for my daughter. I got to go…nice to see you Sandy." Griffin said not wanting to engage into a conversation with her.
"Oh…Griff…I'm sorry…but you know what they say here, outsiders never stick around. She must have treated you and Sarah really bad…with her loving you for one moment then pack the bags like Crystal. Guess she couldn't handle it." Sandy pressed on.
"Monica is nothing like that….and she adores Sarah, it's just hard to explain." Griffin said once on the snowy streets.
"I'm sure she wasn't but why isn't she around…look if you want I can come by sometime and maybe you and I could have a heart to heart moment. I'll be over tomorrow." Sandy said offering her number to him.
"Sandy….I just want to be alone with my daughter, pardon me but I'm late." Griffin said as he tries to get away. But Sandy caught his arm, and plants the card in his breast pocket of his trench coat.
"Just think about it." Sandy said, and then she walks off to go into her cherry red convertible.
Griffin shrugs off Sandy's move on him, and goes home. He made lasagna for Sarah's special dinner for Valentine's Day, and gave her a small bouquet of flowers. Griffin tried his best to keep his relationship strong with his baby girl, but it was hard to manage a job, and heartache. Monica had taught Griffin how to be a father again, and he didn't want to slip back into his old habits of leaving his daughter someplace else while he worked.
"Hope you like it sweetie." Griffin said as he sits next to his daughter on the sofa.
"I do. Thanks. Monica made this family real again. I just wish she was here with us." Sarah pointed out.
"I know honey…I do too. But we got to move on with our lives, Monica will want that." Griffin said stroking his daughter's soft brown hair.
"I know….but you were so happy with her here." Sarah pointed out. "I know that you two tend to hide your little romance feelings, but I watched the way you looked at her and she looked at you, you two fit like one, and she had changed you, daddy. She made you a more loving dad, and you need her."
"Sarah….where is this coming from? You mean you spied on us?" Griffin looked into his daughter's eyes.
"Dad, face it, I'm almost 11, and I'm not stupid. I see the way your face lights up whenever Monica was in the same room as you." Sarah stated.
"I guess I'm that transparent huh…." Griffin said.
"Just a little, but it was worth it, because you truly love her and she loves you. Even though she is an angel, but she told me that she hasn't loved anyone like that in her whole life." Sarah smiled.
Griffin smiled at his daughter, "She really said that?"
"When she came to see me in my dreams, yes." Sarah smiled.
Griffin looked at his watch, "Okay munchkin, it's time for you to go to sleep, you have school tomorrow."
"Ugh…Dad, do I really have to." Sarah looked at her father.
"Yes, sweetie you do." Griffin said.
"okay…can you read me a story then?" Sarah asked.
"You really like to push it don't you?" Griffin asked and slightly joked.
"Well you spoiled me to do that." Sarah teased back.
"I guess I did didn't I…" Griffin looked down at his daughter, and then in one swift motion, he scooped her up in his arms, and carried her to her bedroom. Sarah giggled all the way, as he plopped his daughter on her bed. Then Sarah jumped on her father and they started to tickle one another until the both were laughing hard.
As soon as the laughter stopped, Sarah embraces her dad as she mummers into his chest, "I love you daddy, you are the best father in the world, and I thank God that you love me."
Griffin looked at his daughter and kissed her forehead, and then he lay her down by the pillows, "I love you too….baby cakes. So what story do you want to read?"
"Can you read Cloudy with A Chance of Meatballs?" Sarah asked. Griffin smiled and picks up the book and started to read out loud to his daughter, as soon as he finishes the last sentence Sarah was out. Griffin turns on the small fish aquarium light and turns the lights off as Sarah peacefully slept with her stuff dog.
Griffin stayed up until past midnight then he turns off all the lights and heads for his lonely empty bed. And for the first time in a long time he prayed to God. God, I know I sound stupid right now doing this, but I really am asking you to send Monica to me….I…..I don't know what to do anymore….I'm so lost without her and I just need to see her one more time…Why am I still in love with one of your angels. Everywhere I look I see her face….. Just tell her that I still love her, and that she is my world. Amen.