Prologue:
As my eyes closed once again, all around me had turned into a dark abyss of nothing. Then as though someone had struck a match, I see the two blinding lights. It was sudden and fast, but the next thing I see is the darkness of the abyss enclosing my vision into nothing. But all I remember hearing was the sound of the breaks squealing, then nothing. I don't remember the collision, except for those sounds of the screams and the blinding lights. The doctor said that it was normal to not remember. But eventually my memory would have to heal and I'd be able to remember the whole story, but maybe that's what im afraid of, because I know I had let my best friend down.
"Rose" I heard this familiar voice call my name.
"Rose!… Rose you need to wake up. You have to" I had heard it again. But the pain in her voice said it all. I knew I had to wake up, and not because I was told to. It was because this voice. The pain in it. It was Lissa, and that's when I knew I had to get up.
As I try to open my eyes, I couldn't tell wether or not I was alive. But that was before I felt the sharp jabbing pains; from then on I knew I was alive. I had once heard a saying about pain. 'Pain is your friend, pain is good, pain is your good friend because it lets you know you are not dead yet.' I sighed….. "Pains a bitch. Just like karma."
I don't know for sure but I think that's what I had manage to say out loud because right then, at that second I heard Lissa's voice again. She was holding back tears as she chocked a little laugh. I felt her hug my shoulders as I finally managed the ability to open my eyes from a darkened haze that had once filled my eyes.
"Lissa, wwh, what happened? Where, how, where are the others? I can't remember" I began to slowly choke out a bunch of words. Questions. Something, I don't know exactly, I had tried to take control of my own body and mind, but everything hadn't seemed to make sense. But as I tried to regain the total lack of control, Lissa interrupted and her voice quivering slightly "they're dead Rose. All dead. My mother, father and brother, there gone." I heard her voice trail away. Or maybe it was the fact my sanity had Ran away from me.
I tried to keep awake. I tried so hard. But I failed again. I couldn't even tell her it would be alright, I couldn't even comprehend the words to say im sorry. I was hit with a hundred strange emotions and thoughts, but they weren't mine. At this point in time Im angry and frustrated and I hate myself because this time I know, I just know that I failed her, as a friend and as a person of my existence.
The abyss of darkness had reappeared once more, only this time I couldn't wake up.