I won't say it
She's in my thoughts all the time, it's like a lead weight on my mind. I see her every day, I can never avoid her. Although she wants to avoid me a lot of the time. I'd like to think she has feelings for me, but that's unlikely. I am on the verge of going insane, she's one of the only things that keeps me going. I want to be with her, it's so hard to escape it, I need her.
I-
No! I won't say it, I can't say it!
That's not right though is it? I know damn well I can say it, but I know if I do it will make things worse. I have told her how I feel anyway, it doesn't make any difference for her. I mean, what the hell am I supposed to do? Beg? She's so difficult! So cold hearted, every time I think we might be getting some where she freezes up. I am falling for the biggest ice queen in the universe.
Sometimes she wants me, but then plays me for an idiot, half the time I don't know whether she wants to kiss me or kick my sorry ass! No matter what I do, it's never good enough. How the hell do I cope? What do I do now?
I shouldn't say it.
Oh what the hell...
I love her.
And God, it hurts.