Echoes In My Mind
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Disclaimer- Not mine! Not fair!
Note- I just finished season 10 yesterday. Sob
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Life's too short. Life's too short. Life's too short. Life's too short. Life's too short.
Tooshorttooshottooshorttoosthort.
The words echo in his mind. They race through his brain and consume his thoughts. There is something so familiar about them and yet…
It means more than a feeble platitude that is bandied about far too often.
It feels like it should mean something to him; something important, something just out of reach.
Perhaps it is a result of realizing they had escaped death and imprisonment again, an imprisonment of their own making. Fifty years trapped on board the Odyssey. It is almost inconceivable. Watching that energy beam grow ever closer over the long years. To spend all that time with only five other people in an enclosed space.
Fifty years studying the knowledge of the Asgard. Oh, the things he would have known.
Teal'c could be wrong about them not remembering anything from their time trapped in the time dilation field. Perhaps it was there, just trapped in his subconscious.
That could explain why the phrase remained with him. Why it consumed him.
Why he looked at Vala and a strange feeling in his stomach. Why it hurt to think of her leaving and never coming back.
Why she looked at him and he melted a bit inside.
It could be a trick of the light, but her eyes had changed. She had changed. Even before the Odyssey she was a trusted member of the team. He trusted her with his life, but not his heart.
It had taken him years to realize Sha're wasn't coming back. Sha're would not be miraculously revived. There was no second chance for her, despite the multitude of chances for the villains of the piece. It seemed one woman from a primitive planet wasn't important enough in the grand scheme of things.
Despite what the others thought, Daniel had been bitter over those long years. Dreams of a normal life with the woman he loved would plague him and the bitterness would grow with each dream. He hid it well. Jack and Teal'c were the only ones who noticed, but then it is easy to recognize when you've experienced it too.
It was only when he ascended that he let the bitterness go. He could not remember his time with the Ancients, but when he returned the bitterness and guilt hadn't. But still, he was not ready.
Now he felt ready. He love again, most importantly he could let himself love again.
Life's too short.
It really was.
Daniel took a deep breath and forced himself to pick up the phone. His fingers shook as he punched in the numbers.
"Hi, Vala. I was wondering if you were free tonight. We never did get to reschedule our date."
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