Hello everyone! It's Melody again. I felt like writing from Stella's POV today. This is dedicated to lily moonlight (who wanted me to try prose, and I promise one day I'll figure out how XD), fan5sm (who I'd love to PM. *wink wink*), Foepsie, afrozenheart412, Andorian Ice Princess-AIP (a great inspiration for me to start writing a few months ago), csi kane, CSI-Miami DuCaine freak, Hazmatt, RaiN-n-Rizzlesgal, and everyone else who I've missed. Sorry if I didn't put your name, but it doesn't mean that I don't love you. :D I love the reviews, guys. You're my inspiration. :) *heart*
Okay, so here's the poem. :) Hope it's okay and that you'll read and review. ;D
Never Should Have Strayed
Look at the clock
Tells me to go home
But where is that?
I don't know anymore
He's not around
So there's no real point
Might as well just stay here
Get some work done
Tomorrow I'll start all over
Yet again
Rub my tired eyes
Sore and bloodshot
Wow, I need some sleep
When did I turn into him?
It used to be me
Come into his office at night
Say, "You need some rest"
He'd smile and listen to me
My heart would skip a beat
I'd forget to breathe
He always made me feel that way
It wasn't often he'd be happy
Why was it when I was around
He always seemed to be?
I think it, question it
But I know the answer
Because it's the same for me
Don't know why I'm here
No, not in my office
But back home
Thirteen-hundred miles away
Why'd I come here?
I said to make a difference
But am I really?
So many questions
The only one I can answer
Is why we were happy
I miss him
I miss us
I miss everything back home
Every night anymore
The same thoughts come to me
Should just resign
They'd want me back…
Wouldn't they?
Yes, I was replaced
But Mac said I never could be
Did that mean something more,
Or am I just imagining things?
Lean back against my chair
Feel it tipping backwards
Funny, it's like my life
Keep trying to fall
Stop myself, then start again
But is it worth it?
No, I guess not
It's not running away
If you're going back home
It's being where you belong
I've made up my mind
Get out that paper
It's been in my desk
For some time
Write the date and freeze
Do I want to do this?
A voice in my mind says, "Yes"
Put the pen back to paper
See the ink flow
Not even thinking as I do
I explain the circumstances
Try to be professional
But a tear falls on the page
Didn't know I was crying
Guess I'm just happy
This stage of my life inert
Move to better things
Even if it's not this
Old NYC, I'm coming back
Can't do this anymore
I'll find a way
Maybe help kids like me
Start anew, all of us
And Mac, who brought this on
I'll muster the courage
Finally tell him the truth
My deepest feelings
He can move on, too
If he allows it
But I know I can convince him
He'll do anything for me
As I would for him
Besides,
It's for our own good
Turn off my light,
For the last time
Leave the office with a smile
It won't leave tonight,
I am sure of it
Don't look back
The letter's on my desk
My belongings in my arms
I think I'm on the right track
Never should have strayed before.
Well? Hopefully it was okay. I tried. I've done stuff similar, but it was always in my own POV and on FictionPress. Thanks again for all my reviewers. I love you guys. :D Every favorite story, favorite author, alert, and review I get is great. Keep up the good work everyone. ;) You're my inspiration. *heart*