Girl:
Darkness surrounds you once again
it's inevitable and you start to pretend
pretend that you're okay,
pretend, and you'll make it through another day
but then, you close your eyes and what do you see?
flashing lights and a vivid memory
it haunts you like the never ending night
maybe it's easier to just give up the fight
the nightmares come and you wake alone
a cruel reminder as you let out a moan
you can't help the tears that stream down your face,
from the memories and the hurt you can't replace.
the night is long now that you're afraid to sleep
afraid of the emptiness and you can't help but weep.
you're terrified of losing, so that's what your dreams describe
taunting you and teasing you, an endless, painful jibe.
You go about your day trying to fight the throbbing hole
as you try to hold yourself together and keep away the cold
where is the air to breathe? an end to this pain?
but no, the feeling only increases as your tears fall down like rain
you're not sure what brought about this,
as so many things can bring the pain back
from flashing lights and sirens, and cold dark icy nights
to car accidents and aneurysms, there are so many things you have to fight
but the fear that haunts you day and night
is not of death and the darkest night
it's the constant fear of painful loss,
the loss of someone you love
you're afraid to get too close, close to someone else
to depend on them and need them, only to fall apart again.
but you can't stay alone forever and eventually you let them in
hoping it will be different, hoping it won't end
but there it is again, the idea of leaving you
you close your eyes and count to three, hoping it won't come true
but it hits you like a hurricane, pulling you back under
and you can't breathe and you can't see, all you can do is wonder
wonder why the tears won't leave and why the nightmares never cease
wonder how many times your heart can break and if you'll ever have some peace
and you wonder why the one thing you fear the most,
is always the thing that gets too close.