the first star i see
The first time he sees Massie Block walking down the hallway, he stares.
Her jeans, the kind of jeans you pay hundreds of dollars for it to look like it's been scraped to bits with a very jagged knife encase her thighs the way only expensive jeans do, and her hair's so shiny if she gets right up to it and smiles, he's sure he'll see his happy smiling face reflected right back at him.
He's always alone, sitting in the back of the bus, the furthest corner of the cafeteria; running around the edges of the field trying to avoid a ball being passed his way. Massie's a force to be reckoned with, while he disappears into the shadows, and he can't help but wonder why he, the darkest of clouds, couldn't shine the way she did, the brightest of stars.
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The first time Massie Block turns to him in Ethics class, he smiles.
She's nice, with her white square teeth practically glowing from the force of the smile she was giving him, but it's not perfect because it's a little crooked when she asks to borrow a pen. He hands her the very pen he's using, which happens to be his favourite.
After class he waits and hovers outside the door to wait for her, and she stumbles over his name and forgets to say thank you when she returns it, but it's okay because the next time he sees her she's using the exact same pen and wearing the exact same smile.
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The first time Massie Block writes his name down, he's taken aback.
Granted, she's not the greatest speller in the world, but even Olivia shakes her head when Massie spells his name with two M's and tries to make it better by doodling stars next to it. He kicks himself when he remembers that Massie had chosen him as her partner for English, but he decides to be cool with it because he's pretty patient and Massie catches up quick.
And when she attempts on writing a two-page essay her nails always end up chipped and stained with pen markings, but it's alright because she writes his name down in her loopy handwriting perfectly this time when he spells it out for her.
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The first time Massie Block says his name, he laughs.
She's trying to be serious and taking as many notes as she can for their English Literature joint presentation, but she doesn't get too far and decides to watch a rerun of The Kardashians while he tries to explain in black and white what the tone of Act Two of An Inspector Calls is. Now she's begging him to sit beside her and watch the episode with her but he shakes his head no, they still have a lot to do.
She's frustrated now and she calls out his name with a huff and a puff, but the lilt of her voice gives away just how amusing she finds the situation before her, two strangers who can barely pronounce each other's middle names yet somehow becoming friends.
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The first time Massie Block cries, he screams.
She's sitting there dripping salty tears on her paper and smudging the large, red A+ they got for their presentation, and he tries his best to pat her back, put a hand on her arm but she shakes it off, and he doesn't know what to do because it's awkward for the both of them.
He tries multiple times to stop her from calling Derrick but she screams and yells at him to stay out of her business he complies because he's so freaked out by her jagged nails and how close they were to his face.
By the time she's decided to head up to Derrick's house and beg him to take her back he yells at her and tells her she's stupid and needy and things he can't really remember and Massie's looking scandalized and he's looking guilty so he just backs up and leaves.
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The first time Massie Block ignores him, he breaks.
He's waiting by her locker, nervously scuffing his shoes against the polished floor and she's right beside him, taking out her books one by one and he's starting to feel like a dumbass, waiting for the most popular girl in school while even his Math teacher can't tell him apart from the Asian kid in class.
He says he's sorry, he buys her a Twizzler; he even takes the blame when they forget to bring their assignment to class. She looks a bit puzzled at times when he catches her off guard, but she puts a nose up in the air and swishes her hair side to side as she glides down the hallway, and he feels a strange feeling of emptiness and it's enough to make him step back and blend into the wallpaper to let the world pass him by.
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She's not a star after all, but she sure shines like one.
He tries to remember clearly the first time he met Massie and tries to paint an ugly picture of her in his head, try to break her down in every possible way, tries to make himself hate her. Then he remembers her shiny hair, her crooked smile, her inability to spell and falls in love with her all over again and that's when he leans out his window and stands on the tips of his toes because he wants to be where all the light is, but he can never quite reach.
so i thought i was over and done with the clique, but not quite. props to syd for the song, and soph for the challenge. you guys suck. and i mean that in the most loving way possible.
disclaimer: i don't own the clique and all that cheesecake