~ Connected ~
How was it that Heaven
Sent you to come save me?
A raven haired angel-
Charged with
Setting me free.
.
You left a handprint on my skin-
A reminder of power.
But also a signature. Branding me
As yours
In that hour.
.
Although I cannot hear your true voice,
Merely the voice of your vessel,
Your grace speaks to my soul.
Intertwined
When you raised me from Hell.
.
And even though I've lost before,
Family, friends, and loved ones,
I've never worried the way I do now.
For you
Claim my attention.
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I'm scared of telling you the truth.
I'm scared to want it all.
I'm afraid I don't deserve anything.
And I don't want to make
You fall.
.
I don't want you
To lose your place
In Heaven, with the rest.
Please, I'm begging,
Keep your grace.
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Remember how I voiced my fear?
Remember how I cringed?
The truth is I won't even admit,
For being scared
Is my end.
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The person I am-
Who I've become-
Keeps an iron face
To mask my pain.
Otherwise, the fear has won.
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I'll be strong for you.
Even you wouldn't like me weak.
You say you'll take me as I am.
But I can't lose you now,
It's not what you seek.
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My strength is brittle,
My shout is hollow.
But they don't know
So please pretend,
That you can't see through it.
.
What's an act?
What is that supposed to mean?
Don't try to force me out,
Stop pushing my defense.
I can't just give in!
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Yes, I have feelings for you.
Yes, that turns me on.
No, I never want to tell you this.
I know if I do,
You'll soon be gone.
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Every good thing I've ever had
Was taken away or lost.
I can't take the chance,
There's too great a risk,
And you are all I've got.
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My brother's trapped-
First with a cage, then with a haunt.
A wicked whispering voice.
The same one that
Reminds me of my want.
.
You and he are everything,
I've never loved anyone more.
But it's a different kind of love for each of you,
Definitely.
Of the difference
I am sure.
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For one, I never call out to Sam
In the nightmares or fantasies.
Two, life doesn't lose all meaning
Every time
He leaves.
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But, for you, my angel,
I'd give it all.
I only wish that I knew
What would happen if I broke
Through this wall.
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The gentle face you give expression,
The eyes that reveal your innocence,
The jet black hair I love so much...
Signifies all that I believe in.
But also awful my sin.
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Your voice is trembling.
Why do you seem so scared?
You can tell me anything, you know.
Don't think
That I won't care.
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You feel something for me...
Something beyond friendship.
You're sorry that you put me through this,
You hope that I
Can take it.
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Hush, stop talking.
Don't you dare move.
Feel my lips against yours
And tell me if this feeling
Means anything to you.
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I love you.
And you say that you love me.
I could walk on clouds right now
Or sprout wings of my own.
This what I've always dreamed.
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You make me feel complete,
And, although I don't understand why,
I don't hate myself anymore.
All I know is that I love you
And I get to call you mine.
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The rest of the world
Seems unaffected.
But at the same time, it's brighter.
Almost as if it knows,
We are connected.
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I could never love anyone more,
I will do all I can to deserve you.
The light in my life, the love of a lifetime,
Everything that's too good for me,
But lets me start over new.
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My beloved angel, my heart's sole desire,
I'll love you forever, I know I've been blessed.
You mean everything to me.
We're all we've got left.
And you are the only angel to whom I'll say 'yes'.