A/N: I was listening to Mayday Parade's Miserable at Best, when I got the idea to write a story. It's kinda going to go through out the story so I'm sure I'll keep referencing back to it. It's one of my favorite songs and it's a high-quality song you should check it out.

Edward POV

The cafeteria was buzzing when I sat down at the table. A million thoughts hitting me at once.

Why is Cullen back? Newton.

Oh no, Bella is going to be so upset. Angela.

Oh look who's back. Now that Bella's doing that kid from La Push, maybe he'll date me! Jessica.

God look at Jessica drooling over Cullen, she has no chance. She's so pathetic. Lauren.

I wanted to make a run for it, why did I ever let Carlisle talk me into coming back.

"Edward, Victoria is still out there looking for Bella, the only way to protect her is to go back. I don't think Charlie would hesitant to give you a restraining order if he sees you outside their house every night." Carlisle told me on the drive back to Forks. He was right, but still I would prefer stalking her without her knowledge, then interfering with her life even more.

I can't do this. I couldn't just sit here while every single person in the school felt the need to remind me that I made a huge mistake. I didn't want Bella to make a scene when she saw that we were back. I didn't know if she would scream at me, or cry, both made me cringe.

Don't worry Edward, I don't see anything bad happening when Bella walks in. Alice.

I've been hearing the same things all day. Every single person in the school despised me, for what I did to Bella.

Unknowingly half of them have been torturing me by throwing pictures of Bella while I was gone. She's looked so thin, fragile, sick.

The other half was thinking about a very drunk Bella at various parties. Jacob Black on her arm. I wasn't sure which one disturbed me more. I sighed and stiffened when I smelled Bella entering the cafeteria talking to Tyler.

"Bella, my parents are out of town and I'm throwing another party. You in girl? Bring that boy of your's too. We kicked Mike and Erik's ass's last time at beer pong." Tyler said nudging Bella's shoulders.

"Tyler I don't know. Charlie was pretty pissed last week when I didn't come home and when he found out that I crashed with Jake, he was even more made. I mean he's a cop and all, he does worry."

"Aw come on Hells Bells, it's gonna be fun. Remember how much fun you had last time?"

Suddenly imagines filled Tyler's mind. Bella drinking, smoking, dancing in a provocative way. She was doing things that I would never imagine my Bella to do. I closed my eyes willing the images away.

What has happened to her. Has she really changed that much since I've been gone? I won't believe it.

When I opened my golden eyes back up, I was staring into the most stunning chocolate brown ones.

"Well, well look who's back from his distractions, Edward Cullen." She said sitting next to Alice at our old lunch table.

You could cut the tension with a knife it was so thick. Angela kept clearing her throat and Alice kept rambling on about life in L.A. I'm pretty sure she's never been to LA in her life. Maybe a shopping trip at night, but that's basically it. She must of did her research before we came back.

"…..Esme decided that she didn't like the big city, so she finally put her foot down and told Carlisle that if we didn't move back, that she was coming back without him! Of course I took her side and so did Jasper and Edward. So Carlisle caved in and we moved back. I know that he missed working in the hospital and he missed the forest and the people. I mean who wouldn't!" God how could she be so cheery, it irritated me to no end.

"Did you like L.A. too Edward?" Angela asked trying to bring me into the conversation.

"No, like Esme I missed Forks very much. I almost came back on my own, but I didn't want to upset my parents, so I toughed it out. I'm satisfied to be back." I looked over to Bella to make sure she understood that I meant I missed her, that I wanted to come back to her.

She was glancing out the windows, her mind on other things. Oh I wish I could hear her thoughts. What was she thinking about? Was it this Jacob kid everyone keeps picturing in their minds.

Edward why don't you try talking to her? Alice asked in her thoughts.

I looked up the right corner of the cafeteria then the left. A human wouldn't of noticed but Alice noticed that I was shaking my head no.

Bella sighed and looked over at Alice. "Alice I'm so happy to have you back. I want to go shopping tonight and get an outfit for this weekend. Angela want to come?"

Alice was bouncing up and down so much, I thought the floor was going to cave in. Angela nodded her head yes, which made Alice bounce even more.

Alice didn't need to ask because she already knew the answer but she asked her mind anyways. Mind if I asked what the dress is for, maybe I can get more info out of her since I know you wont be invited to the party?

One again I looked to the right then the left. Yes I did mind, but I wouldn't let Alice know.

"What's this weekend Bella? Oh shopping we're going to have so much fun!" Bounce up, bounce down, repeat very fast and about a hundred more times a minute.

Bella tried smiling and said, "A party at Tyler's. I think he's going to ask if you want to come too Alice. It's Friday and I want something special." Special? Special for who? Jacob? I growled. I actually growled but only Bella and Alice caught it.

"I'm going to head to class a little early guys. I wanted to ask a question about the math homework from last night. I'll see you guys later. Alice call me when you get home ok? Or just come over I'm sure Charlie will be happy to see you." Without even a glance at me, she picked up her tray of untouched food and headed for the exit.

Without even realizing what I was doing I shot up and jogged over to her.

"Bella, I want to talk to you." I said grabbing onto her elbow. Until she shook it off and walked out to the hall way

"What do you want? Did your distractions grow boring too? It seems that nothing can keep your attention these days." She said bitterly.

"I want you to know that I couldn't stay away from you, I had to come back. I don't want to disturb your life Isabella, but I can't stay away from you. I want to find Victoria and keep you safe." I said dragging my cold fingers along her jaw line. She just jerked her head away.

"Leave me alone Edward. I'm serious too. I want nothing to do with you. You hurt me once, I'm not going to let you do it again." And she ran down the hall into the Woman's bathroom.

No matter how hard I tried, I don't think I could ever leave her alone. I love her too much. The bell signaled me to get to class.

And I got the point that I should leave you alone

But we both know that I'm not that strong

And I miss the lips that made me fly

-miserable at best.

A/N: what do you guys think? If it sucks let me know, I wont continue. Please review though. Pretty, pretty please with Edward Cullen on top. Oh if you guess what song this chapter was named after you get a special cookie or something i haven't figured out what yet.