Your Sugar Sits Untouched
Always Look On the Bright Side of Life
Summary: Hitsugi and Kyo meet when their bands attempt a collaboration album. But the album is quickly pushed to the side when Hitsugi quickly discovers Kyo's well hidden secrets. He's already too deep to run away. As Hitsugi discovers Kyo's pain and scars he falls for the small warumono. But can Hitsugi save Kyo before the darkness of depression consumes him? Inspired by Emilie Autumn songs.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: *This is inspired completely by Emilie Autumn songs. You should listen to Always Look On the Bright Side of Life by Emilie Autumn while reading, although I doubt you will. It's the song I listened to while writing this, so the story reads better if you listen to it.*
It was the day Nightmare was going to meet up with Dir En Grey. Hitsugi had been looking forward to it but at the same time he was dreading it. After everything he had heard about the band he definitely had reason to be at least a little nervous. Their music was beautiful in Hitsugi's ears even if it was a little grotesque at times but the ban's reputation was not something you could easily miss. Dir En Grey was going to attempt a collaboration album with Nightmare, and idea presented to the bands by some rocks for brains producers who harassed the two bands into submission. Hitsugi wondered how two completely different bands would be able to create music that reflected both bands simultaneously. It wasn't Hitsugi's idea of a perfect match but then again, it wasn't his idea...
Even so he still looked forward to working with Dir En Grey but Hitsugi was beyond shy. This was exactly the reason he was sitting in the corner of the mens' room at the restaurant when the rest of the band was meeting up with Dir En Grey for the first time. He curled up resting his chin on his knees and wrapping his arms around his legs. He felt slightly embarrassed that his shyness prevented him from even entering the same room as Dir En Grey. Hitsugi sighed, hoping the other band wouldn't think any less of him for his shyness. There was always next time...
...
The members of Dir En Grey sat silently staring at the shortest member of Nightmare as he babbled endlessly. Toshiya's eyes widened after several minutes when Yomi still had not taken a breath.
"He just doesn't shut up, does he?" Shinya whispered into Toshiya's ear after several more minutes. Toshiya suppressed a giggle at Shinya's tone of voice and nodded in agreement.
Yomi talked so much and so fast that Kaoru didn't even have room to interrupt him. And most of the things he was talking about were completely unrelated to any business the band had together. Really, Yomi was trying to buy time until Hitsugi showed up. Finally after what seemed like hours Yomi took a breath. As short as it was, it was long enough for Kaoru to jump in and say something.
"There are only four of you," Kaoru pointed out.
Yomi stared at Kaoru silently. In all his talking he'd nearly forgotten about Hitsugi disappearing.
Sakito answered for Yomi who was blushing slightly. "Please excuse our guitarist Hitsugi... He's a bit nervous..."
"Where is he?" Kaoru asked, hoping to use Hitsugi's absence to prevent Yomi from another hour long rant.
"Ehm... He's in the men's room..." Sakito replied.
"Kyo, why don't you go look for him?" Kaoru asked. No one noticed Kyo wince slightly at the sound of his name uttered from Kaoru. He nodded and quietly walked away. Once Kyo had left Yomi opened his mouth to speak when Kaoru interrupted him again. "I think we should wait till they get back to continue this conversation." Yomi's mouth snapped shut and Die let out a sigh of relief, silently praying his thanks.
...
Hitsugi nearly jumped at the sound of his name. He was so lost in thought he hadn't noticed the short, blonde man enter the room. He stared up at Kyo, blushing red hot.
"Are you one of Dir En Grey?" Hitsugi asked in a voice barely above a whisper. Kyo nodded.
"Are you going to continue sitting on the dirty floor, Hitsugi?" Kyo asked in a rather sarcastic voice. Hitsugi looked away and stayed silent. Kyo stood for a moment. "Well if you aren't going to go out there..." Hitsugi looked up at Kyo with wide eyes. "Then do you mind if I sit with you?" Hitsugi shook his head and Kyo sat next to him. Hitsugi uncurled and sat cross-legged. Kyo sat quietly glancing over at Hitsugi a few times.
"Why don't you want to go back out there?" Hitsugi asked quietly after a few moments.
Kyo shrugged. "Your bandmates seem bored and I don't feel like talking to everyone out there. Although Yomi likes to talk, doesn't he? And you should see the way he looks at Kaoru."
Hitsugi listened, entranced by the sound of Kyo's voice. Hitsugi had never even seen a picture of the band that he remembered and he'd only listened to Uroboros on the car ride there. Sakito had told him that none of the members were particularly good looking or very interesting. But Hitsugi thought that Kyo was absolutely stunning. Hitsugi bit down on one of his lip piercings. He wanted Kyo to say something else. Finally Hitsugi gathered the courage to say something.
"Then would you prefer to sit on this dirty floor and talk to me?" Hitsugi asked, his voice sounding a lot more confident than he really was. Something close to a smile flashed over Kyo's features but it was gone quickly. Kyo hadn't smiled in years.
"I suppose I would." Kyo replied, amusement filling his voice.
And so the two talked for a short time. Kyo made Hitsugi laugh by making very loud and obnoxious comments on the penis size of every male who took a piss in front of them. Kyo didn't laugh or smile himself but a little part of him enjoyed seeing Hitsugi's smile.
After a while Hitsugi suggested that he and Kyo go out for drinks instead of sitting in the bathroom. They knew one of the other band members would come looking for them soon enough. And neither was ready to give up the fun they were sharing for boring but necessary business talk.
Kyo hadn't had so much fun in the last few years that Dir En Grey had been together. He never went out, never dated, and never had friends the whole time Dir En Grey had been together.
Kyo proudly paraded Hitsugi through the parking lot to Hitsugi's car as they walked arm in arm. Fortunately, the pair had managed to sneak out of the building unnoticedby the other band members.
Once Hitsugi and Kyo had gone to a rather upscale bar and Hitsugi had a few drinks, He begun to flirt with Kyo. Of course, Kyo brushed off every attempt at flirting Hitsugi made. Hitsugi was simply too innocent minded and drunk to really flirt with the older vocalist. Hitsugi didn't know Kyo very well but for some reason, unknown to him, he really liked the other man.
The two continued to talk and drink, enjoying each other's company, until the time came for them to leave. As they separated Hitsugi went home to his house and his cats, his body still filled with happiness leftover from his time spent with his new friend, and Kyo went home in fear.