chapter 1

(Disclaimer: i don't own TMM, which might I add totally sucks. that honor of ownership belongs to Mia Ikumi)

A/N: This is my first fanfic so bear with me if its not the greatest thing in the world. Please r&r. I'd really appreciate it.

'Who am I?Where am I?Will this never stop'she wondered walking through this undergound passage that was not known to Earth. ' I can't remeber what last happened or how i got here. I remember running in the rain. I turn around and I hear this blast, then nothing 'til I found myself here. Will I find anyone here , will I remember what happened?I have nothing to gain and nothing to lose, I feel no pain here except the pain of knowing that something has gone terribly wrong but I cant remember what happened that night.Sometimes when I strain my mind I can picture blurred figures, who are they? We're standing in the rain but nothings clear to me yet.'

'Now I feel this hatred for someone surging through my viens as i try yet again to remember. I hear someone calling,"Ichigo, Ichigo? Where are you?"

'Who is Ichigo? Is she me? I cant help but wonder this as I continue to here this voice calling. Who is it? Who's calling?'

' And now a day has gone by and I'm still wondering who I am. I'm straining to remember, to remember any thing at all that my give me a clue as to who I am, what happened, and where I am. Then the images in my head get sharper. Five men are surrounding me. Someone's running towards me. One man shouts,

" I told you to stay where you were!" Then he holds up a gun,...BANG!!!! The boy running falls to the ground , unconcious, but not dead....yet. I hear myself shouting, " NO... MAS---" Then all goes blank, sending my mind into an eternal blackness, not showing anything else...for now. I want to know what happens next but my memory won't reveal anything else. Then a small voice inside my head says,' Why do you want to know? You seem to be getting along just fine without it.'Then the louder stronger voice reasoned with the smaller one, ' You need to know the truth, you know you need to. Sure it may hurt but you still need to know.'

' More days go by, how many i don't know, but I'm still wandering around this stone passage seeking a way out, wondering about all of this, and listening as the voice grows fainter and fainter. It's fading away yet never completely gone.'

I still strain my mind, trying to recall anything else about that night, but nothing else comes to me right now. Will it remain in the back of my mind, locked away forever, never to be opened again. Then I realize that I might be destined for this eternal darkness, locked away inside my head , speaking to no one and finding no one in this passage way.

'A few hours later , the voice that i keep hearing faintly becomes strong and clear. Actually so strong and clear its as if the person who's saying it is standing right beside me. Then when the voice dies away everything about that comes back.

flashback

I'm standing in the rain, soaking wet, with five men surrounding me. I see a dark figure runnig towards me, passing through shadows to where I cant see his face. Then one man,the leader says, " I thought I told you to stay where you were!" Then he holds up a gun...BANG!!!!! The figure running towards me falls heavily to the ground, and comes into light. I see his face and then I hear myself screaming," NO...MASAYA!!!!!!" I fall to my knees not daring to move. Silent tears are streaming down my face, I don't know what to do. Then the man raises the gun again, this time going for the kill. I scream. Then without thinking I start running towards Masaya, More silent tears falling, harder than the rain itself, down my face. I jump on masaya right as the man shoots. I'm not dead, I don't think, but unconcious, falling into a completely world. Then I wake up and find myself in this stone passage.

end of flashback

'Now I think I have left my body behind and am in the demension between time, space, and reality. I feel nothing here except the pain of losing Masaya...at least I think I've lost him. I don't know for sure.

'All I really want to do now is hold Masaya and tell him that I love him and

say,"Please forgive me for betraying you 7 years ago. I'm sorry I didn't trust you with the knowledge of me being a mew mew. I know icould've trusted you but I didn't and I'm sorry for that. Will you ever forgive me even though I'm no longer a mew mew and that there is nothing to hide, will you forgive me?" I long to just hold him, and to be with him again. I love him I realize that now, but I can't tell him that... at least not til I find a way out of here. So for now my heart is just gonna continue breaking 'til I'm almost a souless husk void of any emotion, feeling, and of everthing thats ever meant something to me won't really matter any more. It's now been days since everything came flooding back to me, and I'm still wandering helplessly about in this stone passage. HA!!! I see a light ! I star running towards it but it seems to be getting farther away. By now silent tears are streaming down my face, and I stop breathless. Then I fall to my knees. In a fruitless attempt to reach the light I start running again. I stop gasping for air then I take step desperate to keep going, but just as I'm about to put my foot down I start falling into the mystic, swirling light. All the sudden I land hard on a dirty stone floor. Then I feel terrible pain unlike any that I've ever felt before. I draw in a sharp breath of air from the sudden pain. I try to scream but nothing comes out. I'm momentarily paralyzed 'til I tempt a movement of my arm. I feel an explosion of pain shoot up my arm then down the rest of me. an hour later, despite the pain, I lift myself up against the wall. Then I take in my surroundings, I'm sitting on a cold, dusty floor of what looks like a cellar. Then I see the dim outline of a person lying about 2 ft away. I painfully crawl over to that person and who I find there is not who I expected to find there. The person I find therei s Masaya the onr who I've been longing to hold. I forget my pain and pick his head up off the floor. I set his head in my lap and try to wake him up, just to see if he's alive. I can't wake him up and silent tears stream down my face once again,and not for the last time either. I sob and choke out,"Ma...saya!" Then I hear him say faintly,"Ichigo?" Then he goes limp, lying dead to me, unconcious of everything now. I cry, more silent tears fall down my face, and I wonder,' Why?!?'

so what do ya think? this is only my first story so any helpful criticism would be nice. will update as soon as possible but with school, who knows how often that will be.

Lil Cat Ichigo