Just a short little leaving two-parter for you all, a little sad but happy at the same time :) Part two is typed up (well almost done, at least) for you all, you can have it... Monday, I hope, depending on how moving out/going to uni goes :S

This is for you, you know who you are, spot the all the lyrics/references :P

Disclaimer: I own nada. The BBC own Silent Witness and all recognisable characters.

Harry

I don't know how to start this. I'm so sorry. It's so hard to say goodbye to you, I don't even know why. Maybe it's because for 8 years I haven't told myself the truth. I haven't told you the truth either my Nikki. My best friend.

Leo spoke to me, he told me to talk to you, before I left, to tell you the truth. I'm not sure whether I will or not, that's why I'm writing this letter. I wrote it just after my conversation with Leo, just in case I chickened out. I really hope I haven't chickened out.

I don't know where I end and you begin, Nikki. You are so much a part of me now. We soul mates through and through, completely and utterly one. Time flies so fast when you are having fun. And the last 8 years have gone so, so quickly, it seems like yesterday you invaded the lab. You got under my skin from day one. Leo could see it; I kept insisting you should stay. And finally he offered you that job. I was ecstatic, I knew you were special, even then. I didn't know where it would end up but I knew it was the start of something, something new, something special. And I was right.

I grew to love you, inside and out. You are so damn beautiful, Nikki. Even if you don't think so, I know it's the truth. You are the kindest, warmest, most trusting, most loyal friend I could have ever asked for. And maybe that's why I never pushed our friendship further. Because I truly love you, in every sense of the word.

This is so hard to write, to say goodbye like this. And I am truly sorry because I've put you through so much shit since we met. Penny, Anna, Rebecca, Pubs, conferences... and then Anton, Ryan, now this. So when I disappear, don't question my motives. I'm letting you go Nikki, setting you fee. It may not be what you want, but I need to do this, I need the peace of mind.

Don't visit, Nikki, not for a while at least. We both need to settle down, get on with our lives. Live a little. I'll miss you like crazy but it's the right thing to do, for the both of us.

Thank you for everything.

I love you.

Goodbye, my Nikki.

Tah-dah! My trusty notebook now comes everywhere with me and this and half of part 2 were written on the tube :) So I hope there are no mistakes.

I really hope you liked it, please drop me a review, they always always make my day.

Lizzi
xxx