I woke up and hopped out of bed quickly. What is wrong with me? I...I love Edward. We are getting married in two weeks. Is this what they call cold feet?I need to talk to Alice. Now. Just as I thought this my phone rang. Alice. As I expected.
"Hello!," Her voice rang through the speaker.
"Alice can you come over I want to talk to you privately?"I begged. Not like I even needed to but I did it anyway.
"Of course I'm on my way,"She says in her singsong voice before hanging up.
I stuff my phone in my pocket and head down stairs to wait. All the while I'm thinking about my dream. What the hell? That dream seemed so real like it was memories but it was so weird the vampires in the dream were very different to say the least and the devil being involved...really? In my dream he was...cool. Someone you'd want to hang around just because of their personality. But my god Jasper looked SO hot. Making me come by just kissing me. What makes it worst it doesn't have to be a super passionate one either. Just a simple tender kiss and I'd be jelly in his arms. Edward doesn't do that...Edward can't do that.
Lost in my thoughts I didn't notice the pixie walk in the front door. Then I realize that I was saying my thoughts out loud. She clears her throat and I swear I jump out of my seat so fast it was almost as fast as a vampire. She laughs and I just glare at her my cheeks flaming.
"So Bella, you wanted to talk," she says smirking.
"This is SO not funny," I say glaring at her.
"Okay but I did see your dream and honestly I don't know," She sits on the couch next to me and crosses her legs and holds her hands together on her knee.
I sigh. Great I'm suddenly lusting after her mate and husband and she just shrugs. Just yesterday I was looking up at Edward wondering what I did to deserve such a wonderful man to be my husband and just over night I'm having second thoughts and having feelings for another man. I don't know either. I feel like I just all of a sudden my brain didn't want to love Edward anymore. Like it was saying okay we've had enough can we move on now? But to Jasper? He's taken. He has his own mate that he loves. IS Edward my mate?
"I just had a vision of your future your a vampire but your not with Edward your with Jasper," Alice says startling me once again. I really need to stop getting lost in my thoughts.
"But you guys are mated," I say shaking my head. It must be wrong I can't have feelings for a married man.
"Bella it will be fine it's just him you put in the dream it could have been Mike for all I know," She pats my knee reassuringly.
"Yeah, I love Edward," I say but as I say it I don't feel the familiar butterflies in my stomach at the mention of Edward. I don't feel in love anymore. It sounded unsure.
"DO you still love him?" She asks.
"I...I'm not sure," I stutter out just as I have a sudden urge to be near Jasper.
"Bella just follow your heart,"
"But my heart is telling me to be near Jasper and my brain is agreeing," it was true my brain was shaking its head vicariously while my heart is yelling Jasper over and over.
"Okay Bella I'll just tell you. Jasper and I aren't mates. We also got divorced when we were away,"
"Why didn't you say so," I punch her lightly in her rock hard arm and regret it. I bruised my hand badly and all I did was lightly punch her. She laughs and I just glare at her. She laughs harder. SO not funny.
"if you payed attention more you would have figured it out,"
"maybe, but I was feeling guilty for lusting after a married man I feel better knowing that," I laugh a breath a sigh of relief totally forgetting that I'm about to be a married women in just two short weeks.
"Did you forget your about to be married in two weeks," A hurt voice says. I look up and see Edward his eyes carry hurt and sadness.
"Edward...