MY Desire

Chapter one ~ The Proposal

Jacob POV

I sped down the highway going 95 in a 60 mile speed zone. I did not care that I might get a ticket. The only thing I cared about was going to see Nessie. Today was our one year anniversary since we started dating. Renesmee Cullen was part human part vampire, I was in love with her, and I really didn't care about what other people thought about our relationship. It was just me and her.

I slowed down as their house came into view, went around the bend, and pulled into their driveway. I had to admit I was nervous and I had no idea why, well okay I had a hunch, tonight I am going to propose to Nessie and I was hoping to get Edward's permission.

I turned off the engine and unbuckled my seatbelt. After taking a few breaths to try and calm my nerves I walked out of the car and up to the house. I took another deep breath and knocked. There was a slight movement coming from behind the door.

"It's just Jacob!" Edward called back. 'Shit' I thought. I wanted the proposal to be a surprise, but Edward was probably already picking my brain. The door opened. "Jacob," he acknowledged and let me in. He led the way into the sitting room, Bella was there looking as beautiful as ever. Edward snarled at me. "Sorry, sorry." I whispered. Geesh a man can't have one private thought with him around. I really don't know how Bella stands him. Another low snarl. Ugh crap. I better cool it or Edward will say no.

"Jacob!" Bella shouted as she looked up from her book. "Bella," I greeted. "Is Nessie here?" I asked as I looked around not seeing her. She nodded her head. "Yes, Renesmee is still getting ready."

Bella still hated the nickname Nessie, I smiled to myself. I thought it was pretty. "Please have a seat." She offered. I sat down to be polite. I hadn't even sat down for two minutes when Nessie came down the stairs. I looked at her.

'Oh my god she is so beautiful.' I thought to myself. Nessie walked gracefully towards me, stopped, threw her arms around me and kissed me. Someone cleared their throat in the background. Shit I did it again. 'Sorry' I thought to Edward. He nodded his head.

"Edward." I started." Bella, I have s-something I want wanted to ask you." I stammered, "Just spit it out Jacob." Bella interrupted. I took a deep breath. Well here goes. "I was wondering if I could have your permission to marry your daughter." I breathed.

Edward had a torn expression on his face as he looked from Nessie to me. Then his face relaxed some. "Edward please say something!" I shouted. Edward opened his mouth. "I knew this would happen." He said shaking his head with a slight grin across his face. "Well, it won't do any good if I say no. You two will probably sneak off anyway." I held my breath. "Alright you have my permission. Bella?" he asked. Bella was smiling. "Of course Jake." She nodded. "Though I'm not happy about being your mother-in-law, but I know you love Nessie more than anything. You have my permission as well.

There was an excited squeal that came from beside me. I smiled at her. I decided I was going to propose to her right there. I knelt on the floor in front of her and took a small black box out of my pocket. Nessie inhaled. I gently opened the box and took out the ring.

"Renesmee Carlie Cullen. I love you so much. Will you do me the honors of being my wife?" I asked as I slipped the ring on her tiny finger. "Yes, of course Jake." She all but shouted as she threw her arms around me and kissed me. "Ahem, you'll want to be careful, I might change my mind." Edward said. "I stood up and pulled Nessie to her feet.

"Is it okay if I take Nessie outside for awhile?" I asked. Bella answered, "yes Jake, go!" I took Nessie's hand, we ran to the door and walked outside.

Nessies POV

I was upstairs finishing getting ready. Jake was coming over and he said he was bringing a surprise. I was so excited. Almost too excited to do my hair, so I called Alice. "Alice!" I said in a panicky voice."Nessie?" she asked, "what's wrong?" Jake's coming over and I can't get my hair the way I want it. Help!" I shouted. "Nessie relax. I'm on my way." She told me as I hung up the phone.

A minute later there was a knock on the bedroom window. I jumped and ran to open the glass. "Oh thank god!" I shouted as I threw my arms around her. "There there Nessie." She said trying to calm me. "Now what's the problem?" she asked

"I told you Jakes coming, I can't get my hair right and I look terrible." I cried. "Nonsense. Come here." She said as she pulled me to the dressing table. She pulled out several hair supplies and started working. Five minutes later she was done.

"There!" she said. "What do you think?" I looked nervously in the mirror and gasped. "Oh Alice!" I exclaimed. "Thank you thank you thank you. You're a life saver. It's perfect." I told her as I went to hug her. "Stop!" she shouted. "You'll ruin your hair. "Oops." I giggled nervously. Instead she patted my shoulder. "You look beautiful. Jakes almost here." She whispered.

"Oh no, oh no, oh no." I panicked "Nessie relax, everything is going to be fine. Trust me." She said. Outside the window a car door closed. "That'll be Jake." Said Alice smiling. "What's going on?" I asked knowing something was up. "You know something. What did you see?" I asked ready to pounce on her if she didn't tell me. She just shook her head. "Nope, sorry Nessie I can't say one word." I groaned. "Please please please tell me!" I asked "nope now go Jakes here." She said quietly and jumped back out the window.

I took a deep breath and walked out the room and stood at the top of the stairs. Jake was sitting on the sofa looking radiant. 'God he was so handsome.' I thought to myself as I walked down the stairs towards him, stopped threw my arms around him and started kissing him.

Daddy cleared his throat behind me. I grinned up at Jacob and sat down next to him. Jacob looked over to daddy and opened his mouth and said, "Edward, Bella, I have s-something I want wanted to ask you."

He was so cute when he stammered. But oh my gosh he isn't, no! I thought to myself excitedly. Mom interrupted him. "Just spit it out Jacob." He went on. "I was wondering if I had your permission to marry your daughter." He finished. I was right. I smiled widely. "Edward please say something." He begged. Again it was so cute, him begging.

I looked at daddy nervously his expression scared me, and then it turned into a smile. I held my breath.

"I knew this would happen." Daddy started to say. "Well, it won't do any good if I say no. You two probably will just sneak off anyway if I refuse. Alright you have my permission Bella?" he asked Mama was smiling "Of course Jake." She nodded. "Though I'm not happy about being your mother-in-law, but I know you love Nessie more than anything. You have my permission as well." I let out a loud squeal. Jacob looked at me and smiled as he pulled something out of his pocket.

It was a small black velvet box. 'oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh." I thought to myself. Jacob pulled the ring out of the box and placed it gently on my finger. "Renesmee Carlie Cullen." He started. "I love you so much. Will you do me the honors of being my wife?" I nodded my head. "Yes, of course!" I shouted as I threw my hands around Jacob's neck yet once again.

Again daddy cleared his throat. "You want to be careful or I might just have to change my mind."

Jacob stood up and pulled me to my feet. "Is it okay if I take Nessie out for awhile?" he asked. Was Jacob actually asking daddy's permission? So unlike him. I thought to myself. But I like it. Mama was the first to reply. "Yes Jake go!" she shouted. He grabbed my hand again and we ran to the door and walked outside.

Jacobs POV

We stepped outside and embraced each other like we never had before. I couldn't stop kissing my girl.

"Jacob Black!" Edward shouted from in the house. "That's incredibly disgusting! Go think those thoughts somewhere else where I won't hear them." I laughed quietly.

"What?" Nessie asked." "Nothing." I said as I brushed my hand across her cheek. It was so soft and it felt so good to my touch. "Come on let's go somewhere." I murmured as I pulled her gently down the steps. I swooped Nessie into my arms and we ran into the woods.

"Where are we going?" she asked. "away from the house where Edward can't hear our thoughts." I answered. "What were you thinking back there to make daddy so mad?" she wondered. "Nothing really." I told her. "I was just thinking about how it would be if I could kiss you on every single place on your body." She blushed a deep red. "Oh." Was her response. "That would most defiantly make daddy mad." She laughed.

God I loved her laugh. It was like the most beautiful song I ever heard. I could listen to her laugh all day and never get tired of it. Nessie smiled, the smile reaching the tips of her eyes, making them sparkle.

I finally stopped running when I thought we were far enough that Edward couldn't hear us. I stared at Nessie lovingly, and I went to kiss her; still holding her. I didn't want to put her down; her body fit perfectly in my arms.

I bent my head down to kiss her and she wrapped her arms around my neck. I kissed her gently at first, then I remembered about her beautiful hair. It must have taken her hours to do it. I backed off. Nessie frowned.

"You'll ruin your hair and make up." Nessie let out a loud laugh. "You stop kissing me because you're afraid of messing up my hair and makeup?" she asked. "Ha ha ha." She laughed again. "I don't give a damn about my hair Jacob Black. All I care about is you. Now dammit kiss me Jacob!"

I let out a laugh. 'that's my girl.' I thought to myself. I sat us down so we would be more comfortable and I leaned into kiss her yet again. She let out a soft moan as she entwined her fingers in my hair. God that felt so good.

Nessie paused for a brief moment. "What's wrong?" I asked her, afraid that I had hurt her somehow, though I was trying my hardest to be careful. She said nothing as her hands reached for the fringe of my shirt and tried to lift it over my head. My heart skidded to a stop. God what is she thinking. I wondered. We're going to far.

Nessies POV

My heart was pounding as Jacob sat us down on the ground. I couldn't believe I had him all to myself. Jacob leaned in to kiss me. It was the most amazing kiss in my entire life. Jacob stopped kissing me. I frowned at him.

"You'll ruin your hair and makeup." I laughed. "You stop kissing me because you're afraid of messing up my hair and makeup?" I laughed again. "ha ha ha. I don't give a damn about my hair Jacob Black! All I care about is you. And dammit kiss me Jacob." I said greedly as he bent down to kiss me yet again. I let out a soft moan and gently entwined my fingers in Jacob's hair. His hair felt like silk as I gently caressed his head. He moaned.

I stopped kissing Jacob. It looked like a thousand questions were going through Jacob's head. "What's wrong?" he asked. I didn't answer him. I couldn't. my mind just kept saying one word over and over again. "Jacob."

Jacobs POV

"No." I told her. She frowned slightly. "Why?" she asked. Her eyes were sad. "Dammit Nessie no!" I didn't mean to go this far. "please." She begged again. "No, not until we are married."

That was my rule. I would not make love to Nessie until we were married. And besides if I did Edward would probably rip my head off. She was still frowning.

"But I want you now. We're actually alone. We're never alone."

She had a good point there. It seemed like there was always someone trailing our every move. If it wasn't Edward or Bella watching Nessie it was Sam or Embry or Quil watching me.

"Please Nessie. You have to understand me." She frowned once more and stood up. "Goodbye Jacob." She whispered.

"Awe Nessie come on. Don't be like that." I quickly jumped to my feet and grabbed her arm before she could get very far. I didn't want to hurt her. "Dammit Nessie you'll be the death of me." I whispered as I leaned in to kiss her.

Nessie kissed back and her hands went down to the fringe of my shirt once more and she lifted it up. I didn't stop her this time. She smiled and leaned in to kiss my chest; her fingers rubbing gently up and down over my chest. All of a sudden it got extremely hot. I wondered if Nessie could feel the heat coming from inside me