My name is Anastasia Steele i am 15 years old and i am from Seattle Washington, I have a nice life i have my best friend Kate, who is everything you could ever want in a Best Friend she has been my rock these past few months when all my so called friends turned their backs on me. Then we have my Favorite person ever my boyfriend of two year's Christian, We have been together since i was 13 and him 14 but last year we took it to far and had sex for the first time, I don't think either of us were really ready to take it there but everyone was giving us a hard time because we haven't had sex yet peer pressure is not a good reason to do something you are not ready for.

I love Christian with all my heart but because of a careless decision on our parts we are Expecting a baby boy in a few month's.

I am not ready to be a mom i love my son so much and i am doing what is best for him and i have met with An Adoption Counselor who is going to help me find the perfect home for my Teddy i wish i could take care of him i really want to keep him he's apart of me apart of Christian but were not ready to be parents i just don't know how i am going to get through the next 4 months and labor and delivery and not keep him i am going to basically be giving him to strangers and that kills me.

Christian is coming over to pick me up he just got his license and were getting ready to go meet our adoption counselor Christian supports my Decision but i think he wants to keep the baby and i feel this decision is going to tear us apart i love him and losing him will kill me, but i can't be a mom at 15 what do i know about babies..

Christian pov

I Love Ana i really do and i am trying to support her through this it's just as hard on me as it is her i want to parent my son i want to give him a good life my parents and Anna's parents agree with her they feel him being placed with two adult parents will help him become a better man as he gets older what do two teens know about parenting that's what they said to me and drives me crazy that no one sees it my way i love this little boy and he isn't hear yet and i am not the one Carrying him .

"Hi are you ready for this i need you to be 100% with my decision or this is going to be harder than it already is"?

"Anna i won't lie to you i don't want to give him up we have four months we can make it work we will work together are parents said they'd help us if we wanted to keep him but you're just so ready to hand something that is ours over to complete strangers and you want me to be okay with this i am sorry but i am not okay with this but it is your body and i have no say so i will stand by you but i do not and i will not agree with you on this i want my son.."

'Do you think this decision came to me over night is that how little you think of me i have dreamt about what he would look like what he would be like i want to cuddle him and count his toes and sing to him at night and i want to be the one that gives him the attention he deserves but he is my son Christian and i love him more than life itself and i haven't even met him yet this will be the biggest sacrifice i ever make but my son deserves the world and i can not give that to him at this age and he should not have to suffer because we want him that isn't fair to him as a parent it is our job to give them life to give them everything they want and more and losing this baby is going to change who i am as a person but at least at the end of the day i will sleep at night knowing he is safe and healthy and happy with a real family so don't undermine my feelings on this situation"

'I didn't know you felt that way i thought you just didn't want to be a mom, I am sorry i made you feel bad that wasn't my intention i just wanted you to know i want him and i love him"

"I know i want him to i love him more then you will ever know when ever i am sad thinking about what i am doing and maybe i should keep him he will do somersaults inside me and that solidifies my choice of giving him parents real parents not a couple teenagers."

a/n

Next chapter they will meet their adoption counselor and get folios on some of the people who want to be parents..

I got this idea from teen mom lol i am obsessed with cate and Tyler story. My story is a little different but it's based off them no bdsm obviously Ana and christian are teenagers i don't think it will be a long story maybe 10 chapters and an epilogue and i will be completing fifty meets big bang in 3 chapters hoping to finish them all this weekend and post them at