The cool sand was almost comforting against my highly temperatured skin. It wasn't a bad night. The sky was clear of clouds, making the scene of a billion stars exploding across the vast darkness even more beautiful. Staring out over the almost stagnant water, I couldn't help my mind's gears from twisting and turning uncomfortably.

'Leelee...I'll always care for you..'

'Then why are you leaving me?! Where did you disappear to for all that time Sam?! I deserve a fucking explanation!'

A loud, rumbling growl ripped through my chest as I clenched the sand between my fists. It wasn't fair. None of this was. I didn't ask for this life.

'I can't...we can't...I'm sorry but I just don't love you anymore..'

'4 years...your'e willing to throw away 4 years for what?! Why won't you tell me?!'

Tears stung my eyes as vicious vibrations racked through my very being.

'Leah! Oh I was so worried when I heard all that yelling! Are you okay?'

'Yeah Em, I'm fine...uh...Sam, this is my cousin Emily.'

I wish I never introduced them. I wish Emily had never come over that day. I wish I never saw that look in Sam's eyes. The complete look of admiration and passion...the way he looked at HER.

'Emily...that's a beautiful name for a beautiful woman..'

Flinching, I jolted up and let out another angry snarl, exploding into the freak that I was. I tore down the beach, like a bat out of hell. Bolting into the forest, I bobbed and weaved effortlessly throughout the trees, deeply rooted with time. Jumping over fallen logs, my cruel thoughts kept rolling on.

'What the hell Sam?! That's my cousin! I'm your girlfriend!'

'Leah I just told you...we can't be together anymore...'

Whimpering, I quickened my pace, my movements getting sloppy as I was barely able to dodge the trees anymore. I kept my pace, and before I knew it there was a sudden break in the foliage. Yelping loudly, I dropped off the small ledge and plummeted into the seemingly black water.

'I don't love you...I'm sorry Leah..'

He left me. He left me for my cousin. At first I didn't understand it. I constantly thought 'What did she have that I didn't?' After months of being barred up in my room, only coming out really to eat and use the bathroom, I finally came downstairs to spend a night with my family. My stupid little brother just had to go and make a quick jab about me being 'out of hiding' finally and I just lost it. I attacked him, throwing punches and kicks, then before I knew it I was sinking my elongated canines into his furry shoulder. We had phased into giant wolves, and now all of a sudden, the legends came off the papers, to life.

Sitting up in the water, I crawled over to the riverbank and laid there, not even fully removing myself from its nearly frozen clutches. Whimpering louder, I shoved my face into my paws as I continued to remember everything.

'And now you two know everything...'

'THIS IS AWESOME!'

'Shut up Seth! This is not awesome! Sam! Get the fuck out of my head!'

Suddenly, images of Emily and himself flashed into my mind, along with the word imprinting. I've heard it before, so when all those memories flashed, I lost it.

'Leah! STOP!"

I sank my teeth deep into Sam's throat and cried, refusing to let go. Paul had rushed up and yanked me off by my hind leg, throwing me down and standing over me with a cautious yet uncertain expression. His shoulders were tense, like he was waiting for me to attack again and by god I nearly did. I glanced over to Seth, seeing that he was watching with a near terrified expression on his face. Looking back to Sam, I saw the pity and pain well up in the eyes I've come to love so much.

'LeeLee...I'm sorry...'

'...Just leave me alone...'

Shaking my head, I stood finally after what seemed like an eternity. Looking up at the sky, the sun had slowly started to rise above the horizon again. This was my third month as the only she-wolf, I was no wear near being able to control my phasing and I hated it. I hated La Push and it's never ending barrage of rainy weather. I hated how I was now a fucking walking freak that if triggered, would emerge as a giant dog that could kill her loved ones with an easy shake. I hated how my beloved father was dead and long gone. I hated how I have to have everyone in my fucking head all the fucking time. I hated being the only female, and being so I was the bitter harpy that couldn't let shit go. But, most of all?

'Leah...I'll always love you..'

I hated how I'd always be in love with him. My alpha. The man who broke my heart after 4 years of dating,7 months of being engaged and 1 year away from getting married. The man that turned into a giant wolf, imprinted on my sister-like-cousin, and turned me away forever.

Sam Uley was my everything.

"And I'm his nothing.."

And that, was reality.