If you haven't read "When you were gone" you will not understand what is going on in "Now you are back" I advise you do read it, but you read this if you want without reading when you were gone.

Prolougue

Kians POV

"Leave Kian." Rain had said "You've gone to far this time. Nyx will disapprove of your actons."

Rain stod there, looking stern with the "I'm a professor here, Kian." look on her face.

"Its full moon ritual!" Esther protested.

"Is there a problem, Rain?" Aelia walked in. She looked curious. Oh great, Now Aelia was involved.

"There is. You know Bella's story? Not only did Kian bring it up, he decided to be harsh about it. I chucked him out, and he's refusing to go..."

I thought of my last hour at the Olympic house of night a lot. Tonight was not an exception.

"Leave Kian." she said "And take the cause of your upset with you..."

It was rare for a vampyre to be expelled from the house of night. I was the one that was expelled, not Esther. Esther was my guest and she had to leave with me.

She slept in my arms. I was sat on a branch of a tree, still in the Olympic peninsula. This was what had become of us. Vagabonds. Disgraces. Outcasts.

I bowed my head and let a few tears fall. My human life failed, and now so had my vampyre life. I messed it up, like I messed everything up.

Esther awoke in my arms. "It is evening, Love." I said sadly.

"Kian." she said "Why do we stay in Olympic peninsula?"

"Because it was home." I said, looking away.

She held my head in her hands. "Kian, I am leaving. I cannot live forever in the forests."

"No, Esther. Please." I said "I cannot go, not yet. Maybe if I wait..."

"We have waited to long." she said "Make your choice, Kian...me or home."

Bellas POV

The door opened as I grabbed a bag of blood from the fridge. I turned to see who was coming in. Edward.

"Oh...hey, Edward." I said, cutting open the bag.

"Hi." he said, eyeing the bag "How can you drink blood cold?"

"Its better than drinking blood from humans." I said. "I know you can survive on animal blood, but if we don't get human blood, we go mad."

I quickly drank the blood and threw away the plastic bag. "You want something?" I asked.

"Actually I do." he said, kneeling on one knee. I instantly felt worried.

"Bella Swan." he said. He held out a ring. "Well you marry me?"

I was stunned. I didn't know how to answer.

He was looking at me, hopefully. I knew that I'd never want anyone but Edward but...what would Renee say? It was a silly thought, I was a vampyre, she was a human but...

"I don't know!" I finally shrieked.

Edward looked shocked, maybe a little hurt. "Something's wrong. Bella, do you still not trust me?"

"I trust you, just. I don't know if I can..." I said, bowing my head. Edward was over in a second.

"Can't you?"

I backed away. "I love you Edward but...I don't know...."

I was confused. How could I say no, and yet, how could I say yes?