It's My Life
Chapter One:
Kristina Dawn Saxby-Jones sat at her desk during the middle of a heat way. She stared emotionlessly at the bed just a few feet from her. She knew that she should still be in that bed with her lay of the night but for once, she couldn't make herself. Why couldn't she? She didn't know. After all, usually she enjoyed the male's company because with her job, she never knew when she would be with someone else.
Tonight was the fourth annivarsary of when she had to leave her mother. The fourth year of separation from her siblings. The day that she had never concerned herself with before now..but suddenly she was.
Kristy shook her head and raised a hand to wipe the single tear that fell down her face. Why had this all started? Why? How?
It was almost like a fairy tale.........
*****
Kristy ran around with excitement fresh in her eyes. "I want this one!" Kristy said as she pointed at a puppy. "Can I have this one daddy?" Kristy turned and stared at her father with the most innocent, cute eyes that she could. "Huh? Huh?"
Her father laughed as he leaned down to pet the dog that his nine year old daughter had picked out. "Are you sure? Remember that you can have any puppy here that you want."
Kristy just look at her father like he was crazy. "Of course I'm sure." Kristy grinned. "So can we have him? Can we? Can we? Can we?"
Kristy's father nodded and grinned. "Alright then, we can have this one." He waved to the person that was selling these puppies. "We've decided on one." The person came over and nodded, taking the money as Kristy's father gave it to him. "Thank you. We hope that you sell the rest of them." Again the person nodded and then dismissed Kristy and her father as they left.
"Did you tell mommy that we were going to get a puppy?" Kristy asked as she climbed into the seat and petted her new black lab happily. "Hm?"
"Would you stop calling us by baby names." Kristy's father snapped. "It's mom and dad, or mother and father, not mommy and daddy."
Kristy sighed and looked down at her hands. "Sorry." Kristy swallowed and then looked up again. "Did you tell mom that we're going to get a puppy."
"Yes I did." Kristy's father said with an annoyance and Kristy could tell that he was lying. "You'd better be happy though. Not every girl gets a puppy for her tenth birthday before the big day even happens."
Kristy beamed. "Oh and I thank you so much daddy-i mean dad." Kristy held the puppy close to her. "I promise I'll take care of it and I promise that I'll never make you have to take care of it. And I'll walk it everyday and I'll feed it by myself. It can sleep my room and-"
"Kristy!" Kristy's father snapped. "Just think of a name for it, will you? And be quiet!"
Kristy sighed. "Sorry dad." The rest of the trip home was done in silence.
*****
"Would you just stop whining?" Kristy's mother yelled. "Maybe if you got up off your ass and actually tried to do your work, you would get a promotion. But no one is going to give you a promotion when you don't do anything."
Kristy pulled her blanket up over her face. She hated it when she woke up to hear her parents fighting. Her three brothers were lucky, they could sleep through anything, but unfortunately, she couldn't.
"What does that mean?" Kristy's father came back with. "I do get up off my ass. I'm the one that goes to work at six o'clock in the morning and doesn't come back until four o'clock in the afternoon. Last time I checked, I was the one that worked a whole lot more than you. But unfortunately, there's alway someone like you ready to take credit for my work and get promotions for something that they didn't do."
There was a smack and Kristy winced, knowing that her mother had just slapped her father. "I deserve everything that I have ever gotten. I don't mooch like you do!"
"No? Then how come you only work three hours a day and yet you have all your work done? You either don't get any work or you have someone else do it."
Kristy's mother sounded like she was going to kill her husband. "I DO NOT! I work here! I just don't stay at the office because I have to take care of our four children, incase you don't remember them!"
"I don't remember them-"
The arguement continued into the dark of the night and no matter how hard she tried, Kristy couldn't fall asleep over it.
*****
Kristy was excited, it was her birthday today. She had invited over four of her closest friends, including Daniel Hinil, who people thought she should be going out with. Kristy winced at that thought, why on earth would she be going out with someone like that? She didn't even like boys all that much and to hold hands with them? Ick!
Kristy's mother said that would all change soon and she would want to spend time with them, holding hands and such. Kristy didn't see it happening but her mother was usually right so she would probably be right about this too.
"KRISTY!" Her mother called from down the hallway. "Daniel's here!"
Kristy smiled and ran out of her room and down the stairs to the door. "Hi!"
Daniel was dressed in his best outfit and Kristy just knew that he was only in it because his mom had made him. She grabbed his hand and dragged him into the backyard where they were attacked by all four dogs that lived in this house, including Kristy's own 'Hero'. Daniel patted Hero on the head and then turned to Kristy. "So? When's everyone else going to get here?"
"Soon." Kristy promised him. "Come on, lets go look at the presents that my mom got me and see if we can figure out what they are." Kristy dragged Daniel over to the table that held all the presents and they spent the next fifteen minutes looking at each one and trying to guess what was in it.
Then Daniel got bored and suggested that they run inside and get out Kristy's dog toys so that they could play with the dogs. Kristy liked that idea and they ran inside to do that.
They made it into the kitchen and then heard Kristy's mother and father argueing. Kristy's mother was louder, of course and they could tell that she was really mad. "What do you mean, you don't know?"
Kristy's father growled. "Just like it sounds you idiot! I don't know what happened to that stupid money. How am I supposed to know? I don't cameras everywhere."
Kristy's mother sighed in frusteration. "Sure you don't, but when I borrow so much as ten dollars from you, you know right away. Yet you can't even keep track of fifty dollars when I put it on the counter just five minutes ago and you've been the only one in here all day."
"Are you saying that I'm the one that took it?"
"NO!" Kristy's mother lowered her voice. "I'm just saying that you must know where it is and I need it for Kristy's pizza."
"Maybe you lost it." Kristy's father said simply. "Or maybe you didn't put it there to begin with and you're just trying to mooch off of me because you know that I have money. I mean, seriously, what is the point of this? Huh? Why don't you just go and get some more money out of your purse. I know you have more."
"That's not the point!" Kristy's mother argued. "The point is that my money is gone and I needed it. You make money too."
"But as you so nicely tell me over and over again, not as much as you."
"I never said that!"
Kristy and Daniel looked over at each other and then decided to inch away from the kitchen, not wanting to get caught in this fight. They had done so before and hadn't liked the results and weren't in a hurry to repeat the experience.
They ran into the living room and opened the cupboard and took out the dog toys and then ran back outside and began to play with Hero and Suzy. Max and Titan didn't like them all that much so they didn't play with them. They forgot all about the fight that was going on inside, which was just fine for Kristy and by the time they were aware of anything else, the other kids had arrived and they were ready to start the party.
"Lets play pin the tail on the donkey." Kristy's mother said when everyone was done running around in random circles as little kids did.
Everyone cheered at that and they all went into the backyard and played pin the tail on the donkey. Needless to say, when you're playing any game that involves a tack and children, you're doomed to not be able to finish that game.
"LETS PLAY PIN THE TAIL ON DANIEL!" One of the girls screamed and the next thing anyone knew, about half of the guests were running around, attempting to pin the tail to Daniel while Kristy's mother was trying to keep them from doing Daniel any harm. No one got Daniel, which was a good thing, and soon they all got bored of it and decided that it was time to open presents.
So then they spent fifteen minutes fighting over whose present should be opened first. Eventually Daniel won but only because he was about three inches taller than everyone else and well, yah. So Kristy opened the present and found a necklace in it and grinned, giving Daniel a big hug. Kristy didn't notice how all the other girls were sighing but then again, she was only ten and wouldn't have cared anyways.
Then it was time to eat pizza and Kristy remembered how there had been that arguement in the kitchen about that money. One look at Daniel told her that he remembered that too. But then someone started a food fight and that was all forgotten.
Soon seven children were ushered into the living room, even though they were covered with pizza sauce stains and forced to sit in front of the television and watch a movie. About half way through 'Toy Story' {A/N: which is copyright so i'll say it right now...}, they all decided that they were going to catch their toy's adventures. So they all ran up to Kristy's room and took turns peeking in, trying to catch the toys in action. Needless to say, it didn't work but that didn't keep them from having fun doing so.
By this time, the parents were coming by to pick up their kids and before long, everyone was gone besides Daniel who was going to stay over. Since they had lived next door for so long and had been friends for even longer, they didn't see what was wrong with having a boy sleep over at a girl's house. Personally, their parents didn't really want to give 'that' talk until later on.
"So what movie should we watch before we go to sleep?" Daniel asked as they pulled the blankets into the upstair's tv room and got themselves settled in.
"Something scary." Kristy said with a laugh. "That way mom will let me stay up all night so that I don't have nightmares." Kristy looked through the movies and grinned. "What do you want to watch?"
"Um-" Daniel looked at Kristy with a weird look on his face and then he leaned over and kissed Kristy on the lips.
They immediately pulled apart and looked around sheepishly, not knowing what else to do. Kristy played with her necklace nervously. Then they turned back to say something to each other when suddenly there was a crash from the bedrooms.
"GET OUT!" Kristy's mother yelled.
"Oh I am." Kristy's father promised and the two ten year olds heard him stomping down the stairs and out the door. Daniel and Kristy rushed to the window and watched as Kristy's father drove away faster than Kristy had ever seen him drive.
Daniel and Kristy looked at each other and then sighed, going back and putting in a movie and then sitting down to watch it. They crawled in their blankets without a word between them, not knowing what to say or what to do.
"Goodnight." Daniel said quietly as he turned to look at Kristy. "Sorry about the-"
"It was alright." Kristy said just as quietly as she remembered the kiss. "Just weird."
"Just weird-" Daniel echoed. 'Will your dad be back?"
"I think so."
"That's good."
Kristy nodded and they fell asleep, in the innocence of a person that wasn't grown up yet.
******
Kristy sighed at that memory. She had gone to sleep, thinking that her father would come back but he never did. Now, eight years later, she still didn't know where he was. Or even, who he was. She knew that he had changed his name, but not what to.
Kristy wiped at another tear. Why had he left? Had it been just over money? Or had there been something else there to? Something that she had done without realizing it? How many time had she asked herself that? How many times had she wondered if she had been just a little more angelic, would he had stayed?
And that wasn't even the worst part of her memories.
And why had something so delicated, her first kiss, been stuck being in a memory of something so horrible? Why?
Kristy sighed and let the room, going to the bathroom so she could cry without waking up the person that slept in her bed.
{A/N: Yeah, I know that it was a short chapter but it is just the first one...So what did you think? Good? Bad? Huh Huh HUH? I promise the next chappie will be better...R&R}
Chapter One:
Kristina Dawn Saxby-Jones sat at her desk during the middle of a heat way. She stared emotionlessly at the bed just a few feet from her. She knew that she should still be in that bed with her lay of the night but for once, she couldn't make herself. Why couldn't she? She didn't know. After all, usually she enjoyed the male's company because with her job, she never knew when she would be with someone else.
Tonight was the fourth annivarsary of when she had to leave her mother. The fourth year of separation from her siblings. The day that she had never concerned herself with before now..but suddenly she was.
Kristy shook her head and raised a hand to wipe the single tear that fell down her face. Why had this all started? Why? How?
It was almost like a fairy tale.........
*****
Kristy ran around with excitement fresh in her eyes. "I want this one!" Kristy said as she pointed at a puppy. "Can I have this one daddy?" Kristy turned and stared at her father with the most innocent, cute eyes that she could. "Huh? Huh?"
Her father laughed as he leaned down to pet the dog that his nine year old daughter had picked out. "Are you sure? Remember that you can have any puppy here that you want."
Kristy just look at her father like he was crazy. "Of course I'm sure." Kristy grinned. "So can we have him? Can we? Can we? Can we?"
Kristy's father nodded and grinned. "Alright then, we can have this one." He waved to the person that was selling these puppies. "We've decided on one." The person came over and nodded, taking the money as Kristy's father gave it to him. "Thank you. We hope that you sell the rest of them." Again the person nodded and then dismissed Kristy and her father as they left.
"Did you tell mommy that we were going to get a puppy?" Kristy asked as she climbed into the seat and petted her new black lab happily. "Hm?"
"Would you stop calling us by baby names." Kristy's father snapped. "It's mom and dad, or mother and father, not mommy and daddy."
Kristy sighed and looked down at her hands. "Sorry." Kristy swallowed and then looked up again. "Did you tell mom that we're going to get a puppy."
"Yes I did." Kristy's father said with an annoyance and Kristy could tell that he was lying. "You'd better be happy though. Not every girl gets a puppy for her tenth birthday before the big day even happens."
Kristy beamed. "Oh and I thank you so much daddy-i mean dad." Kristy held the puppy close to her. "I promise I'll take care of it and I promise that I'll never make you have to take care of it. And I'll walk it everyday and I'll feed it by myself. It can sleep my room and-"
"Kristy!" Kristy's father snapped. "Just think of a name for it, will you? And be quiet!"
Kristy sighed. "Sorry dad." The rest of the trip home was done in silence.
*****
"Would you just stop whining?" Kristy's mother yelled. "Maybe if you got up off your ass and actually tried to do your work, you would get a promotion. But no one is going to give you a promotion when you don't do anything."
Kristy pulled her blanket up over her face. She hated it when she woke up to hear her parents fighting. Her three brothers were lucky, they could sleep through anything, but unfortunately, she couldn't.
"What does that mean?" Kristy's father came back with. "I do get up off my ass. I'm the one that goes to work at six o'clock in the morning and doesn't come back until four o'clock in the afternoon. Last time I checked, I was the one that worked a whole lot more than you. But unfortunately, there's alway someone like you ready to take credit for my work and get promotions for something that they didn't do."
There was a smack and Kristy winced, knowing that her mother had just slapped her father. "I deserve everything that I have ever gotten. I don't mooch like you do!"
"No? Then how come you only work three hours a day and yet you have all your work done? You either don't get any work or you have someone else do it."
Kristy's mother sounded like she was going to kill her husband. "I DO NOT! I work here! I just don't stay at the office because I have to take care of our four children, incase you don't remember them!"
"I don't remember them-"
The arguement continued into the dark of the night and no matter how hard she tried, Kristy couldn't fall asleep over it.
*****
Kristy was excited, it was her birthday today. She had invited over four of her closest friends, including Daniel Hinil, who people thought she should be going out with. Kristy winced at that thought, why on earth would she be going out with someone like that? She didn't even like boys all that much and to hold hands with them? Ick!
Kristy's mother said that would all change soon and she would want to spend time with them, holding hands and such. Kristy didn't see it happening but her mother was usually right so she would probably be right about this too.
"KRISTY!" Her mother called from down the hallway. "Daniel's here!"
Kristy smiled and ran out of her room and down the stairs to the door. "Hi!"
Daniel was dressed in his best outfit and Kristy just knew that he was only in it because his mom had made him. She grabbed his hand and dragged him into the backyard where they were attacked by all four dogs that lived in this house, including Kristy's own 'Hero'. Daniel patted Hero on the head and then turned to Kristy. "So? When's everyone else going to get here?"
"Soon." Kristy promised him. "Come on, lets go look at the presents that my mom got me and see if we can figure out what they are." Kristy dragged Daniel over to the table that held all the presents and they spent the next fifteen minutes looking at each one and trying to guess what was in it.
Then Daniel got bored and suggested that they run inside and get out Kristy's dog toys so that they could play with the dogs. Kristy liked that idea and they ran inside to do that.
They made it into the kitchen and then heard Kristy's mother and father argueing. Kristy's mother was louder, of course and they could tell that she was really mad. "What do you mean, you don't know?"
Kristy's father growled. "Just like it sounds you idiot! I don't know what happened to that stupid money. How am I supposed to know? I don't cameras everywhere."
Kristy's mother sighed in frusteration. "Sure you don't, but when I borrow so much as ten dollars from you, you know right away. Yet you can't even keep track of fifty dollars when I put it on the counter just five minutes ago and you've been the only one in here all day."
"Are you saying that I'm the one that took it?"
"NO!" Kristy's mother lowered her voice. "I'm just saying that you must know where it is and I need it for Kristy's pizza."
"Maybe you lost it." Kristy's father said simply. "Or maybe you didn't put it there to begin with and you're just trying to mooch off of me because you know that I have money. I mean, seriously, what is the point of this? Huh? Why don't you just go and get some more money out of your purse. I know you have more."
"That's not the point!" Kristy's mother argued. "The point is that my money is gone and I needed it. You make money too."
"But as you so nicely tell me over and over again, not as much as you."
"I never said that!"
Kristy and Daniel looked over at each other and then decided to inch away from the kitchen, not wanting to get caught in this fight. They had done so before and hadn't liked the results and weren't in a hurry to repeat the experience.
They ran into the living room and opened the cupboard and took out the dog toys and then ran back outside and began to play with Hero and Suzy. Max and Titan didn't like them all that much so they didn't play with them. They forgot all about the fight that was going on inside, which was just fine for Kristy and by the time they were aware of anything else, the other kids had arrived and they were ready to start the party.
"Lets play pin the tail on the donkey." Kristy's mother said when everyone was done running around in random circles as little kids did.
Everyone cheered at that and they all went into the backyard and played pin the tail on the donkey. Needless to say, when you're playing any game that involves a tack and children, you're doomed to not be able to finish that game.
"LETS PLAY PIN THE TAIL ON DANIEL!" One of the girls screamed and the next thing anyone knew, about half of the guests were running around, attempting to pin the tail to Daniel while Kristy's mother was trying to keep them from doing Daniel any harm. No one got Daniel, which was a good thing, and soon they all got bored of it and decided that it was time to open presents.
So then they spent fifteen minutes fighting over whose present should be opened first. Eventually Daniel won but only because he was about three inches taller than everyone else and well, yah. So Kristy opened the present and found a necklace in it and grinned, giving Daniel a big hug. Kristy didn't notice how all the other girls were sighing but then again, she was only ten and wouldn't have cared anyways.
Then it was time to eat pizza and Kristy remembered how there had been that arguement in the kitchen about that money. One look at Daniel told her that he remembered that too. But then someone started a food fight and that was all forgotten.
Soon seven children were ushered into the living room, even though they were covered with pizza sauce stains and forced to sit in front of the television and watch a movie. About half way through 'Toy Story' {A/N: which is copyright so i'll say it right now...}, they all decided that they were going to catch their toy's adventures. So they all ran up to Kristy's room and took turns peeking in, trying to catch the toys in action. Needless to say, it didn't work but that didn't keep them from having fun doing so.
By this time, the parents were coming by to pick up their kids and before long, everyone was gone besides Daniel who was going to stay over. Since they had lived next door for so long and had been friends for even longer, they didn't see what was wrong with having a boy sleep over at a girl's house. Personally, their parents didn't really want to give 'that' talk until later on.
"So what movie should we watch before we go to sleep?" Daniel asked as they pulled the blankets into the upstair's tv room and got themselves settled in.
"Something scary." Kristy said with a laugh. "That way mom will let me stay up all night so that I don't have nightmares." Kristy looked through the movies and grinned. "What do you want to watch?"
"Um-" Daniel looked at Kristy with a weird look on his face and then he leaned over and kissed Kristy on the lips.
They immediately pulled apart and looked around sheepishly, not knowing what else to do. Kristy played with her necklace nervously. Then they turned back to say something to each other when suddenly there was a crash from the bedrooms.
"GET OUT!" Kristy's mother yelled.
"Oh I am." Kristy's father promised and the two ten year olds heard him stomping down the stairs and out the door. Daniel and Kristy rushed to the window and watched as Kristy's father drove away faster than Kristy had ever seen him drive.
Daniel and Kristy looked at each other and then sighed, going back and putting in a movie and then sitting down to watch it. They crawled in their blankets without a word between them, not knowing what to say or what to do.
"Goodnight." Daniel said quietly as he turned to look at Kristy. "Sorry about the-"
"It was alright." Kristy said just as quietly as she remembered the kiss. "Just weird."
"Just weird-" Daniel echoed. 'Will your dad be back?"
"I think so."
"That's good."
Kristy nodded and they fell asleep, in the innocence of a person that wasn't grown up yet.
******
Kristy sighed at that memory. She had gone to sleep, thinking that her father would come back but he never did. Now, eight years later, she still didn't know where he was. Or even, who he was. She knew that he had changed his name, but not what to.
Kristy wiped at another tear. Why had he left? Had it been just over money? Or had there been something else there to? Something that she had done without realizing it? How many time had she asked herself that? How many times had she wondered if she had been just a little more angelic, would he had stayed?
And that wasn't even the worst part of her memories.
And why had something so delicated, her first kiss, been stuck being in a memory of something so horrible? Why?
Kristy sighed and let the room, going to the bathroom so she could cry without waking up the person that slept in her bed.
{A/N: Yeah, I know that it was a short chapter but it is just the first one...So what did you think? Good? Bad? Huh Huh HUH? I promise the next chappie will be better...R&R}