The Betrayal.
*NOTES*: This is my first Divergent Fanfic :D We've read Divergent through Tris's point of view, so I thought it'd be neat to write about what Caleb felt before the Aptitude Test. Now you know :) Hope you like it!
I grasp on the hem of my shirt as I wait. The time has come.
For 16 years I've been trained in the Abnegation to be selfless. Trained not to be curious, for that's the role of the Erudite. Trained to not be neutral, for that is the way of the Amity. Forbidden to be free, and brave for the Dauntless took that. Forced to not speak the truth if it was not for a selfless reason, for that is what the Candor do.
It's all going to change now, Caleb. I think, as I sit down on my bed. I spot one of my books on top of the dresser. I can't resist the urge not to pick it up and read it, cover to cover.
As I pick it up, I remember that my father would never accept it. He was, after all, an Abnegation leader. A lump forms in my throat as I remember him.
I am about to betray him. For years the Abnegation and the Erudite have not gotten along very well. Tomorrow, during the aptitude test, I KNOW I will qualify for Erudite, but it's my decision whether or not I want to leave my Faction, my family- everything I grew up with. And I have decided to leave.
Abnegation… Just doesn't seem right. Nothing feels right. I've acted like I belonged my whole life, just so I don't disappoint my father. Unlike my sister, Beatrice. She can never belong, no matter how hard she tries. For years I've tried to be more selfless and less curious. But I don't think I can live like that anymore…
Tomorrow is the aptitude test. I will have a serum injected in me, and a simulation will begin. I know that a series of situations will appear in my mind. I'll have 5 options in each situation- each representing a Faction. I read it all in a book. Then, in the choosing Ceremony, I'll have to cut a slit through my palm and drop my blood in either a grey stone for the Abnegation, a glass of water for the Erudite, a mound of Earth for the Amity, lit coals for Dauntless or pieces of glass for the Candor.
Three guesses what I'll choose.
I decide to put my book down and just lie on my bed, thinking. I wonder what life would've been like if there were no Factions; if no one was specifically responsible for different tasks around the city.
What if a time like that did exist? How has our society become what it is now? What if there was a time when people could have more than one personality? What if there were no Factions before, and people actually decided to create society the way it is from experiences of conflicts that arose from the previous one? A time where we could stay with our family, and live without our motto "Faction Before Blood".
It's preposterous, but it's a possibility. I make a mental note to do a little research on that when I leave for Erudite the day after tomorrow, after the choosing ceremony… After betraying my family…
I brush off the depressing thoughts and pick up my book, "The Simulation Serum" and start off where I left off. In about an hour or so, I doze off to sleep.
The next morning, the sunlight streaming through my windows nearly blind me. Through the haze of sleep, only one thought registers in my mind.
I am Erudite.