Title: No one ever said love was easy—chapter one: emptiness

Summary:

Starfire loves raven but is afraid to admit it. She's been acting very strange lately….. Rated pg 13 for language and references to sex but nothing graphic….i suck at summaries…r&r

Disclaimers:

No, I do not own teen titans. I just happened to have a lot of time on my hands, and thought, why not?

Violence:

Yes, there is violence, but not a lot. Just maybe one or two slade scenes….

This is my first teen titan story, but I've been reading about them a lot, so I think it'll be good. I'll try not to make too many short chapters. I know how annoying they can be……

On with the story!

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Starfire shot up from her bed, sweating uncontrollably. She ran a shaky hand through her hair as she looked at her clock. 3:30 am. She sighed.

Ever since Raven and Beast Boy had started dating she hadn't been able to get any sleep. A groan escaped her lips. Why hadn't she told Raven that she loved her? It was simple enough. Just three words and that was all it'd take. Yet she couldn't do it.

She loved everything about Raven. The way her face would curl up into a scowl when beast boy would push his limits, the way she would sigh as she took her first sip of herbal tea every morning—everything. But it seemed like she wasn't the only one who looked at Raven that way. A few weeks ago, just when starfire was working up her nerve to ask the dark girl out, Beast Boy sat down with them to meditate.

Starfire wanted to lash out at the changeling for intruding. That was their special time together, when starfire could be close to Raven with out her pushing her away or the others noticing and he was butting in. Beast boy had sat down for about ten minutes, evidently deep in thought before speaking up.

"Raven, will you go out with me?"

Say no! Starfire had urged silently. But Raven didn't hear her. She had given him a small smile before nodding. It was official, Raven and beast boy were going out. Starfire wanted to die. After that, Beast Boy started joining them in meditating, and Raven started watching him play video games with Cyborg. Starfire had given up meditating with Raven when Beast Boy had walked in her room and asked if they could be alone.

One morning she woke up, and noticed that everything seemed darker in an odd way. She no longer woke up every morning with a smile on her face and sprang out of bed. She no longer watched the sunset rise and set or stared at the beautiful scenery from her bedroom window. It was as if someone had dulled her view on things.

Instead of the positive things, she saw the negative. Starfire knew if she kept this attitude up that something bad would happen, but couldn't find the energy to care anymore. So what if she perished into thin air? So what if she never smiled again? It's not like anybody cared. Well, except Robin….

She shuddered at the thought. Robin was her best friend, sure, but she never saw guys that way before and as far as she was concerned, she had no desire to. Boys were…..gross. Gross and competitive. Girls were……different.

Starfire smirked, thinking of Raven. Yes, girls were real different.

Getting out from underneath her covers and shaking her self to alertness, Starfire headed to the kitchen for something to eat. Depressed or not, she still had to keep her strength up to fly and fight villains. She pulled open the small fridge and took a look inside. Nothing to eat except tofu. Her eyes flashed a dangerous green before slamming the door shut.

Her anger quickly disappeared as she sank into the couch and turned on the widescreen television. She couldn't get mad at Beast Boy just because Raven chose him over her. But she was NOT going to eat his tofu! Starfire sighed for the umpteenth time that morning. How long had it been since she felt happiness? One day? Two?

Better yet, how long had it been since she'd felt anything at all? More than two days, that was for sure. Starfire made her way back up into her room without grabbing anything to eat. Flopping herself onto her pillow, she began crying until she was sure she'd dehydrate herself. Sadness was the only thing she felt since Raven became unavailable. And she was pretty sure sadness was going to be the only thing she'd feel at all.

That's the first chapter! How'd ya like it? Please review! Flames are welcomed as well, but please be gentle. Like I said, this is my first tt fan fic—

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