Chapter 1.
She could still remeber how he looked at her when she told him that she will be leaving to go to an university that will be far away from her home,her family and from him. He had asked why but she couldnt possibly say that shes in love with him and he had hurt her so bad that now shes leaving. For gods sake she shouldnt have fallen for him in the first place. Why did she fall in love with him then? How could she still love him afther these five years when she hasnt seen him anymore at all? Those were the questions that she asked from herself all the time. She had visited her family many times but when she did he wasnt never around so how could the love for him still exist. She had absolutley no idea what so ever. He still haunted her in her dreams. Sometimes she couldnt even sleep because of those dreams because they felt so real. Usually she saw in her dreams that they lived toghether. That was great right? No. Those dreams were nightmares for her because them being toghether wasnt acceptable,for their families at least and definitley for his sister. But that wouldnt matter too because he didnt love her. She sometimes even wanted to be that girl with who he would be only for one day and then leave. She shook her head to get those thoughts out of her head though it was very hard. She turned her to her right so she could look the landscape that changed with every kilometer.Why hadnt she gotten herself a car? She had worked when she studied although her family sent her money every month. That money was more than enough but she felt like she should make money herself also. It made her feel much more safer. She put the money she earned in her bank account in case something should happen or maybe when she wanted to buy herself a house or car. Why hadnt she bought herself a car when she hated to ride with a bus? Maybe I should when I get home. Home? Was it still her home? She didnt know. He had bought her family and his family a new house where he also lived. She hadnt been in that hose not once. He had bought it latley-in last year begging. She had been so busy so she hadnt had time to visit her family about a year. But they had. They hadnt forgotten her. She had been so afraid that they would forget her when she went in university. She was so insecure all the time.Insecurity was her big problem since she was a little girl. Thank God that she had learned how to be confident in her university years. She remebered how good it felt when for the first time she had confident. Will he like her now when she is confident? Will she stay confident when he will be there? Again-the thoughts of him. She damned herself. She watched how the bus had reached its destination and her heart started to beat so fast,she felt like it wanted to come out of her body. When the bus opened its doors her hands started to shake. She took her things and started to walk towards her destination. Finally when she had reached her destination she stopped for the first time since she had started to come from the bus station. She took a good look at the house. It was huge but it was understandable. Two families toghether would need a big house afther all. She knew also that he hadnt been difficult for him to buy that house. Afther all he was successful. She took a deep breath and opened the gate. Soon she stood infront the front door. They knew that she was coming but that didnt make her less nervuous. She rang the doorbell. She had seconds thoughts. She could still run away and they wouldnt that she was here. She could tell them that she couldnt make it. She wasnt sure if she could be so strong to see him afther five years without breaking down. Was she ready to face him? Him-Eli. But she couldnt run away anymore because the door opened. There was no turning back.