Okay so this is my first story on my own, I'm co-writer for Beautiful Strangers with lewiecullen. I've been reading fanfics for ages and written a few but haven't posted and thought its about time a posted one :)

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or any of the characters only the plot.

Chapter 1.

Isabella Swan had a secret. A secret that she could easily hide behind fake smiles and laughs. A secret she could keep hidden under bracelets, watches and long sleeves. Winter was her favourite season for one reason; she could hide without fear of getting caught. The only good thing to come out of moving to Forks was the constant cloud and rain that kept the temperature cool even in the summer. She could live more comfortably in Forks than in Phoenix. Her arms could be hidden 7 days a week 365 days a year without suspicion.

Bella didn't expect her new friends to be so caring though. She never expected her secret to be revealed, especially when she had worked so hard to keep it hidden. But that's what happens when you're careless. Bella and her two best friends, Alice and Rosalie had been sitting outside in the one in a million sunny days in Forks. Always prepared, Bella had her arm covered in bracelets but even that wasn't enough.

Always observant, Alice just happened to look at Bella's arm the same time that Bella had lifted it to brush hair away from her face. The movement had caused the bracelets to fall down her arm revealing a fresh lot of deep cuts on Bella's wrist. Alice had gasped and grabbed Bella's arm pulling in towards her.

Knowing she wouldn't be able to lie herself out of this one Bella reluctantly told Alice and Rosalie the truth. She told them why she did it, when she started and how often. The two girls who were shocked at first quickly shook it off and dived straight into action. They were going to help Bella stop.

And they did. At least they did 2 months ago. But self-injurers are smart, once they see a loved ones reaction they will do anything they can to keep it hidden. Even if it means lying, and lying is definitely something Isabella Swan was now exceptionally well at. This is where the story starts.

BPOV

3 more weeks and I'm finally done with this shit. Yay! I can practically here the hallelujah chorus. Except at the moment it's getting drowned out by the stupid Principle's boring speech. Why do they even have these stupid school assemblies anyway? No one listens and I'm pretty sure no one cares.

10 more minutes and I can get out of here. 10 more minutes until I can go home, lock myself in my room and disappoint everyone around me. I know what I do to myself is bad but fuck they don't understand what I feel. The constant struggle to actually get up and live my pathetic life after my traumatic one.

It's how I deal and I'm positive it's currently keeping me alive. But no Alice and Rose just had to be all saintly and come to my rescue. If I wanted help I would have asked for it instead of have it forcefully thrown at me.

I think I've got everyone pretty much fooled again though. Alice and Rose have finally stopped taking it in turns to watch me. God, I felt like a fucking mental patient. Practically never had a moment to myself because I was "too dangerous" for myself.

Rinnngggggggg

It's about time. Now I just have to make it out of here before Alice or Rose sees me. Really need to dodge that bullet before it happens. Especially since they both ditched me tonight. Tonight was suppose to be a girls night out to "celebrate" 2 months of being cut free, except Alice ditched for her pansy ass boyfriend and Rose decided she just wanted to stay in.

Soon as that happened the razor came out to meet my skin again. The relief felt amazing, I know it was bad but I went 2 months without it and they both couldn't even celebrate with me. Although the fight between Alice and Rose had been pretty amusing, I was now stuck in the middle and that just sucks even more.

I reached my car with luck on my side until I opened my door. Then I felt someone grab onto my arm to stop me.

"Bella, wait."

I winced and sighed. Alice.

No POV

As Bella was walking to her car, Alice spotted her and quickly raced after her. She needed to apologize for ditching her. But she hadn't seen Jasper in a while and thought they would understand. Alice finally caught up with Bella just as she was getting into her car. She reached out and grabbed Bella's left wrist tugging on it gently.

"Bella, wait." She said softly. Bella winced which didn't go unnoticed by Alice. Alice looked at her questionably but when Bella didn't look at her she sighed. Alice pulled Bella's arm closer and lifted up her sleeves. Bella didn't even bother fighting, she was caught, again.

Once Alice lifted her sleeve she gently turned Bella's arm over, palm facing up. Tears immediately came to Alice's eyes as she saw the angry red lines across Bella's wrist. She dropped Bella's arm and looked up at her searching Bella's face for an answer.

Finding her voice Alice finally spoke. "Why?"

Bella cringed, she hated that word. Every time someone said that word to her she felt like she was repeating herself. Why was that always the question people asked?

"It doesn't matter," Bella mumbled pulling down her sleeves and turning to get into her car but Alice stopped her again, grabbing higher up on her arm to avoid the cuts.

"Bull shit, Bella. Don't give me this 'it doesn't matter' shit because we both know that it does."

Bella turned to Alice and glared at her. She had ditched her why would anything she did matter to Alice anymore?

"Like you even care," Bella growled.

Hurt and shock immediately graced Alice's face at Bella's words. Hadn't she shown Bella how much she cared for her? She had spent weeks with Bella, helping her and this is how she repays her by forgetting all the progress they made and just hurt again.

"Bella," Alice's voiced croaked, "how can you even think for one second that I don't care about you? I care so much about you; I would do anything for you. It hurts me to see you in so much pain."

Bella sighed and turned again to get into her car. She really didn't want to deal with Alice right now. But Alice yet again stopped her; this time turning her around and closing her car door.

"You're coming with me," Alice stated firmly, all emotion from before gone.

"What? No, I'm going home."

"Get. In. My. Car." Alice said through gritted teeth.

Then it finally dawned on Bella. Alice had threatened that if she and Rosalie couldn't help her then they would take her to the rehab clinic attached to the hospital. The one place Bella did not want to go.

"No way, Alice. I'm not going, you can't make me."

"Bella, I have given you your chances. You need help, get in my car."

"I need you to leave me alone, let me be. I was doing fine before you came and tried to fix me," Bella spat back.

"If I leave you alone Bella you'll kill yourself!"

"I'm not trying to do that and you know that." Bella yelled.

"If you don't get in my car I'll call your dad."

The threat had Bella freeze; the one thing worse than going to the clinic would be her dad finding out. Bella glared at Alice before finally letting Alice push her towards her car. Alice opened the passenger side and pushed Bella in closing the door quickly. She had put the child lock on her door ever since she started to help Bella just in case she needed to take Bella to the clinic. That way Bella wouldn't be able to get out and run.

Alice then quickly got into the driver's side, turning the car on and pulling out of the car park. The drive to the hospital was quiet. Bella was too angry to speak and Alice didn't want to provoke her.

"How long do I have to stay there?" Bella finally broke the silence.

"For as long as it take to get better."

"But that could take years!" Bella said worriedly.

"I know that Bella."

It went quiet again and Bella processed this information.

"What are you going to tell Charlie?" Bella whispered.

"I'll tell him you're staying with me for a while so we can work on our college applications."

"That doesn't take years," Bella mumbled.

Alice sighed and took a deep breath to calm herself.

"If it's going to take years then I'll tell him the truth. I won't lie to him for you for years. I'm only going to cover for you until school is over. Then I'm telling him the truth. Does that sound fair to you?" Alice spat the last sentence.

"He'll know I'm not with you. He'll figure it out when he doesn't hear from me."

"You're allowed to use the phone Bella. You can still call him."

"Well I won't be calling you." Bella mumbled angrily.

"I wouldn't expect you to. I get that you're angry with me but I'm doing this for you. You can be angry with me for as long as you want but I know you need to be there."

Bella mumbled something incoherent and sat in silence the rest of the way. When they arrived at the hospital, Alice opened Bella's door and walked with her to the clinic. Bella turned to her and gave her a small smile that didn't reach her eyes.

"You don't have to stay. I won't run off."

"I'm here now. I'm staying."

Bella sighed and waited for a nurse to come and take her away. When a nurse finally came Bella willingly got up and followed the nurse. She now knew that to get out of this place she needed to do what they say.

Alice stayed seated once she had said good-bye to Bella and waited for the doctor to come out. When he did he walked straight to Alice and hugged her.

"What are you doing here sweetheart?" Dr Cullen asked concerned.

"I brought someone in."

"Bella?" Carlisle asked. Alice just nodded.

"What are you doing in the clinic anyway? Should you be in the main hospital?"

Carlisle smiled and motioned for her to sit. "I was just visiting."

Alice nodded. "How is he?"

"Why don't you go and see for yourself. He said he hasn't seen you in a while. He misses you."

"I know. I've been busy with Bella. Can I go see him now?"

"I think he would like that," Carlisle said as he grabbed her hand.

BPOV

While I was waiting for some nurse to come and take me away I had an idea. I didn't want to stay in this place, it smelt… well like a hospital. It was depressing, how could someone possibly get better in a place like this? I had a plan to get out of here. I'd only been here 10 minutes and already had the place figured out. To get out of here you needed to be better but for me that could take year. For me to get out of here I needed to fool everyone I was better.

Following the nurse down the corridor to my room felt like I was taking a walk of shame in a prison. Patients looked at me with sympathetic smiles, I couldn't help but cringe. I had to get out of here.

Too lost in my thoughts about escaping this place, I didn't notice the nurse stop and ran into her. She laughed and grabbed my arm to steady me. "This will be your room," she said with a smile. I tried to force a small smile but I knew it wouldn't be believable.

"Your scrubs are on the bed, you have 3 pairs, leave them on the floor when you want them washed," she continued, it started to sound more and more like a prison then a rehab clinic. "It's a pretty standard room, nothing sharp or dangerous."

"So in other words, boring," I said with a bored tone. The nurse laughed and smiled, "Yes, you could say that. There's also a time table on the back of your door. It has all your group and individual therapy sessions. Questions? I shook my head no.

"Well then I'll leave you to get settled," she said and smiled sweetly. I shuddered and walked into 'my' room. My plan had to start today, I couldn't stay here. It was a hole, a prison. How could anyone get better here? If anything I'd get worse.

First chapter down, wooo! I'm not gonna spend too much time with Bella in rehab it'll be boring to write and all the action happens out of rehab :) and don't panic Edward is in the story, he'll make he debut in the next chapter.

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