Author's note:I'M SUCH A KLUTZ I DELETED CHAPTER ONE...SUCH AN IDIOT...BUT I JUST THOUGHT THAT I JUST REPLACE THE PROLOGUE RATHER THAN POST THIS ON THE 17TH CHAPTER...SO...THAT'S IT..KEKEKEKE

is the edited chapter not too much change right? But still I hope I have corrected my errors on this chapter. But if you found some errors please tell me and I'd like to edit them for you.

I have been out for a long time.T.T. and I felt very bad about it…so minna-san please be light on me I hope your going to like the story

DISCLAIMER: If I do it have become a vampire love story got it….

Chapter 1

Two Worlds

"Death and grief are little things.

They are transient.

Life must be before death, and joy before grief.

Else there are no such things as death or grief.

These are only negatives. Life is positive.

Death is only the absence of life.

- Frank Norris

Life is what we make it. But our life has a lot of uncertainties; you never know how it is going to end, when, where and how. However, our life is short and you will never know it until you realize that everything's going to end in a short span. But for me, my life's shorter and my destiny's have been decided, my death's going nearer and nearer every single day. Some people say that death is good, you won't feel any pain, there will be no wars, conflicts and problems, all there left is peace, which many people searched for. And that was I always wanted, to have peace, but I don't want death. But no matter how far I am going to run away from this fact in the end I always ended up on its hands.

I am Mikan Sakura, 18 years old and is suffering from a sickness that there's no way of curing and aside from my best friend no one knew about it. I am suffering from this thing called cancer which according to my doctor is on terminal stage and there's no way of curing it. It's horrible isn't it, I can't live my life to the fullest, I can't be the one who I wanted to be and I can't searched for my true happiness. All I want is to grow up get married and have children, become a good wife and mother and die of old age. But that dream is very far away and there's no way I could have it, especially my end is drawing near. As time pass by my death comes closer and closer and it's just a matter of time when I'm going to be gone from this world.

Even though I have everything that everyone wants, I am still miserable, my family owns the majority of hospital in the whole Japan, and we have many more large businesses aside from those hospitals. My family was perfect according to other people, yeah it's somewhat true but sometimes when me and my brother Youichi needs them, they are not here due to their works and as time pass by me and my brother get used to it. Still we were happy, our parents still have time for us and were somewhat contended with it.

But I don't have many real friends and that's what you have to face when you were born like a princess. Everyone thinks high of you and has many expectations on you and that's the thing I hated the most. I was often addressed as the Sakura-princess; living in a life of luxury is what they think of me. And that's the reason I don't have many real friends, they befriend me because of my reputation and all. But I have a one real best friend, Hotaru Imai, she is the only one who did not think me as the Sakura-princess or anything of nobility.

I have been home schooling since I was a kid but now after my persuasion, which I was really good at I will go to a normal high school. It was going to be today where I'm going to go to the normal school but suddenly my asthma attacked which was really bad and that's why I'm going to attend next week.

I stare outside…It have been raining like forever recently the rain's really bad when it's still summer. I'm alone again on my room reading a book as I usually do, it's still Wednesday and starting next I'm going to study at a normal high school, somewhat I'm happy there will be no home schooling. I went back to my book it's a book about a girl falling in love with a vampire and thus their love was forbidden but still they fight for their love. Vampires, I smiled at the thought I believe that they exist, but not my family, they say they are not true and I have to stop believing they exist.

But there is something inside of me that keeps on believing they do exist and that's the very reason I still believe on them, and though it is impossible I wish that I will meet one, which I know was impossible. But there's nothing wrong on believing right?

I was cut off by my thought when I heard the door opened and then I saw Youichi coming in his face looks sad.

"What's wrong You-chan?" I asked in a worried tone, well I'm really worried about him. Youichi's a 15 year old stubborn and prideful kind of toughie young boy. He has silver hair and a pair of mesmerizing gray eyes, we really looked different that's what we get when someone complimented. I have an auburn hair that reached at my waist and I have hazel locks, which were always covered by an eyeglass, and I get most of my traits from my mom, while Youichi get his traits from my father's father or so they have told me.

"Nothing really" he replied his face look down at the floor like something's interesting that's going to happen in there.

"Don't give me that shit," I said, "I know something's up"

"I-I heard that you stop the home schooling and you're going to a normal high school" he said and there's a hint of worrying on his tone. We've been with each other and were very close and thus we can't keep a secret from each other.

"Yeah…I'm sorry I didn't tell you immediately" I reassure him.

"But what if someone hurt you there" his voice still worried.

"I'm going to be fine," I said. He looked at me with a sad gaze "Don't worry You-chan I'm going to be fine there and Hotaru's with me, and I can take care of myself"

"No you can't, you're weak," he yelled at me, his fist clenched.

I stood up he is much taller than me despite our age then I hugged him "Don't worry I'll be fine there and I can take care of myself so don't worry"

"What if someone hurt you there?" his voice now calmed down.

"It's going to be fine….I'll call you if someone hurt me"

"That sound NOT so convincing you won't call for help even if you're hurt, you would rather risk your life than making other people hurt for saving you," he said in an annoyed tone.

"You know me to well and you know there's no way I'll change my mind right?" I said I was still hugging me.

"You're very stubborn," he mumbled.

"And that makes me who I am right….Don't worry everything's going to be alright" I assure him.

Somehow, in my life, I don't want others to worry about me but I am weak and I can't do anything about it.

Still I want a longer life; I don't want to leave the people who care for me…

I want a miracle to happen….

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I stare outside it has been raining like forever and I hate it…Rain reminded me of those things in the past a past that no matter how much I ran away it always finds me back. I wanted death but I couldn't. I wanted to be gone from this world erase my existence, but then there still some things that I have to do and person to searched for. If I did not promised that I should live, I already killed myself before.

Leaving alone for eternity sucks I don't age and my appearance are still the same despite of a hundreds of years of existence, not a single hint of change of appearance happened to me but my powers are far beyond than normal.

I'm Natsume Hyuuga living in a miserable world; I am a pureblood vampire and one of the strongest vampires that existed. I have been living on my own for centuries, I have seen death in any form and seen how those people that have been with them weeps. It's horrible I never understand why people must be miserable when someone important to them died

I am a vampire that lived for centuries and has faced many fights. I become a skilled fighter but then it was not enough to save the person that I cared the most. And her image in my mind has become unclear but still I met her in my dreams but when I woke up I can't remember her face. If I was not weak before I could have save her.

And I hated myself. I hated everything around me, I hate the people around me I hated it…and I'm sick of it… if not for that promise that I made with her….I already ended up my life.

But I would continue to live until I will seek her….

To be continued

Author's note: My prelims are coming I hope can pass it….

I'll update soon

Hasta la vista

Baby

CIAOOO

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