if your reading this for the first time i would recommend reading the first 2 stories i have written as this is a follow on, so it wont make much sense if you dont know what has been going on, as always this is a very over the top dramatic story. it may touch on subjects some may find upsetting.
it is all based very loosly on BTR. i have changed some names, dates, places and locations to fit in to the running of it all. and as i have stated a few times (i know a few of you have moaned on the PM) i apologise for mistakes i make about times, distances and general state facts. im not American, and never set foot on American soil unfortunatly.
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"PAISLEYS STORY

November 1st? how the hell is it November already?
I had just finished a 3 month European tour with boy band Big Time Rush, I was a supporting act, but being the girlfriend of Kendall Schmidt, one of the four who make up the band. I was pretty much going any where they were, we had landed back in the USA,
home was so close yet so far away still. the boys had a couple of concerts to do in Oregon for a Winter Wonderland Ball.

The Wonderland Ball was a mash-up of 15 acts put together by a local radio station. Kendall said they are usually amazing and a good opportunity to rub shoulders with other bands and celebrities. I was new to the fame game and this kind of thing scared the life out of me.

The bus journey to Portland was miserable, it was raining the entire time, you couldn't really see out the windows and the bus was freezing.
I had spent the last few months on board the Big Time Rush tour bus, not strictly meant to be hitching a free ride, but seeing as James Maslow was the front man of the record company I was attached to, he didn't care how I got about to support his band as a warm up act.

James had changed so much on this tour. Just over 6 months ago his long term girlfriend Sheriden Lloyd had just left a note and left. no one had heard a thing from her, or knew where she was. of course it wasnt quite as simple as just doing a runner but James had spent the first few weeks being inconsolable. he looked terrible, would be tearful all the time, he grew a full on beard and chucked himself in to his music. When the tour started 3 months ago it was Logan Henderson that had given james a bit of a kick up the backside to get motivated. James cleaned his act up and got on with things, that was when he went to stage two and resented Sheriden for leaving him.

The resentment stage lasted about 3 weeks, it was a hard time for any of us to put up with. he would obsess by texting her non existent phone number explaining how he feels and how she did him wrong or he would send emails that never got answered. he read some out sometimes if he was really pissed off, I hope Sheriden didnt get to read them as some were not that nice.
he so badly wanted to talk to her, explain that he couldnt give a shit about the problems they would face. but sheriden couldnt be traced.

After the resentment came the 'I dont give a fuck now' stage, which is where we are still at.
James had turned in to a bit of a casanova with wooing the ladies, he wouldnt do it publicly. I dont think he wanted to lose any chance that Sheriden might have of returning. but he had taken a leaf out of the Logan Henderson book of romance.
Unfortunatly James wasnt as caring as Logan, where as Logie would at least spend the night with a girl on the bus and give her the cab money to get back home. James would pretty much just fuck and kick them out of bed.

He hadnt mentioned Sheriden for weeks now, the rest of us didnt in his company either.

"Pais' what are you gonna do while we are there, hang out backstage or watch the show?" Logan asked about the Wonderland Ball from his top bunk bed opposite me. I was tucked up in Kendalls top bunk bed trying to keep warm. it was fucking freezing on this bus.

"Not sure, I will probably just hang out here to be honest. I'm a scaredy cat Logues you know that" I replied with kendalls blanket pulled up to my nose.

"Yeh I know, you need to snap out of it, it will be your downfull. Get out in the spotlight... Least it will be warm in the arena" he added for good measure looking at me shivering with cold.

"Yeah maybe. How long will your set be?" I asked, wondering if I could handle being left on my own for a length of time being harrassed by other celebs.

"Prob bout... half hour, 45 mins?...KENDALL!" Logan shouted across the bus to my boyfriend who was sat with James playing nintendo games.

Kendall walked up and swung in between the two beds. " yeah?" he said to Logan.

"Are we headlining the Wonderland thing?" he asked.

"Yeah I think so" Kendall said looking at me and laughing as all he could see was my brown eyes peeping out from a sheet.

"yeah, so it be about 45 minutes Pais'" Logan concluded.

"You still cold Pais'?" Kendall asked with a cheeky look on his face.

I just nodded, but he could see the smile in my eyes, then jumped up on to his bunk bed, I let out a moan as he uncovered me from my warm blanket as he got in with me.

I noticed Logan shake his head and roll his eyes then turn the other way with the magazine he was reading.

Kendall spoke in whispers to me so only i could hear him "you are cold arent you?" he smirked as he gave me a little kiss on the lips and pulled me in to his body. I was fully clothed with jeans, jumper and socks still on, he wore some old sweat pants and a tee shirt.

He felt warm, I put my hands under his shirt and made a happy grumble sound.

I could feel Kendall undoing the button of my jeans and slip a hand in the opening he had made. His hand made its way to my ass, he gave it a squeeze and pulled me even closer towards him. a little squeel of delight popped out of my mouth.

I then heard Logan groan and the sound of his bed creak as he got out of our ear shot and left us to it.

"we are alone" I whispered in giggles to kendall.

"So we are.." he grinned and moved his hand round from my ass to the front and placed a finger inside me.

Kendall made some satisfying noises to his entry in me. I loved his noises that he made. I kissed his soft lips, his tongue slipped in my mouth but I pulled away and gave his bottom lip a seductive bite.

funnily enough I felt a lot warmer now. Kendall pleased me with his fingers but I wanted to please him too. I pulled up my jumper as best I could in the tiny enclosed bunk bed, I hit my arms on the wall of the bus. it was pretty loud. im sure James and Logan must of heard the bang over the hum of the bus engine.
Kendall laughed at my efforts and I in turn got the giggles. I eventually succeeded in removing my jumper but it accidently fell on to the floor. there was no hiding what we were up to from the others now. I felt my face redden.

"This is nice..." kendall said eyeing up the red brazier I wore. but once again when breasts came in to the equation kendall turned in to... well like the cookie monster, but for tits.

his fingers left from inside me and he had unhooked my bra in seconds. he teased himself looking at them for a bit. i tilted his head away so I could kiss him.

he was such a perv... another laugh popped out of me.

I tried my best to wriggle out of my jeans. Kendall gave me a bit of help with the use of his feet and I did the same for him. The lack of space on this bunk bed was ridiculous. you could only lay down, sitting up would cause me to bang my head, let alone Kendall who was a lot taller than me.

I thought it unfair that seeing as I was the original cold person it seemed ironic that Kendall should be the one to keep his tee shirt on.

He climbed on top of me pulling the blanket over us both, the cold was still very much in the room if it wasnt under here with us.

I ran my hands along Kendalls side, his body moved as it tickled him. His body felt amazing, I loved every part of it. my hands moved lower on to his backside, it was firm and delicious. I gave it a little smack as I could feel his hardness teasing the outside of my clit.

Kendall was still very much stuck on giving my big breast the attention he thought they deserved, he would suck them, lick them, bite them, touch them. pretty much do anything he could and never get bored.

I saw his eyes gleam at me after I gave his bum a second mini slap. he then placed himself inside me.

We had got the art of bunkbed sex down to a tee. Three months of mostly sleeping on this tiny thing with only the occasional break of a semi decent hotel bed makes the imagination stretch, and you can pretty much accomplish anything you put your mind too.

Which for kendall was pleasing the hell out of me.

The only thing I wasnt much good at was keeping my mouth shut.

As I felt Kendalls rhythm inside my body it sent me to new heights of pleasure each time. sometimes he would have to cover my mouth with his hand so the noise that came out of me wouldnt attract unwanted sniggers from the bed opposite me.

As I climaxed now it was too late, and I think Kendall was too far gone to care. he just let me enjoy it.
his eyes met mine as we both caught our breath after. I could feel his chest rise and fall on me. he kissed my forehead.
"love you Pais" he whispered out.

"love you too baby" I replied wiping his hair that was now drenched in sweat away from his face. I pulled him down for a kiss.

He smiled at me "you warmed up yet" he laughed

"Im too hot now" I giggled. Kendall moved off from on top of me and layed to the side, squashed up between me and the wall.

"I cant wait to get home can you?" he whispered

"I'm a bit worried really. James worked my ass off to get my album out before, I hope he gives me time to relax a bit" I whispered back, hoping that James couldnt hear me.

"he will get better" Kendall sighed.

Kendall missed Sheriden loads too, he knew that's what i meant by James working me too hard. I dread to think what james will do next when he is back on familiar ground with still no Sheriden.

Kendall gave my forehead a kiss then pulled his sweats up, before jumping down from the bunk. he picked my jumper up and handed it to me with a wink.

I felt my face go red again as I got dressed.

I got down and went off to the toilet to freshen up. as I came out I sat with the three boys on one of the large padded seats that ran along the side of the bus.

" Reno!... warmed up now?" Logan said with a glint in his eye.
logans nickname for me was Reno, simply because that's where i am from, and it was the first question he asked me when we met.

I shook my head with embarrassment and replied "toasty, thanks" with a smile on my face,

I snuggled in to Kendall who had just slung a tattooed arm over me. Logan still had his nose in his magazine once he had finished taunting me, and james was on his lap top.

i felt tired, it was only about 4 in the afternoon but it had been such a long boring day travelling in this miserable weather.

"so what is everyone up to when we get back to LA" I asked half asleep to break the silence.

Logan put his magazine down. "I'm going to texas for a few day to see my dad actually, should be good" he said.

logan liked these types of conversations, the favorite one he had was the 'what could you eat right now game'. which was usually one we all played late at night on the road, no where near any decent food.

"what bout you Reno, what are you doing?" he said with the raise of an eyebrow and a wink... bloody logan, he was obsessed with sex.

"i am actually house hunting... good old Mr Maslow here has done me justice with some amazing songs and im finally in a position to get out of that hotel and rent somewhere" I boasted with a smile, and gave james a friendly kick with my foot, he looked up and smiled.

Kendall gave me a squeeze, he knew how much it meant to me that I earned my own money after a lifetime of needing people to rely on.

"you not moving in together then?" Logan asked.

I looked at Kendall and laughed. he gave me a smile. " no way! he would seriously do my head in" i replied.

Logan probably didn't get the joke but Kendall did, we had an amazing relationship but we would fight like cat and dog over the stupidest things, mostly because we had been stuck on a stupid bus together for too long.
not one to make a scene. the paisley and Kendall arguments would usually take place over text message whilst in the same part of the bus.

i loved him to bits but i was far too young to move in with him. i lived with my previous boyfriend, Ryan in Reno. that was a disaster.

"what about you james?" Kendall asked.

james looked up from his lap top "im going on holiday" he replied a bit too quickly, like he was dreading his turn to answer the question.

"well that's really good james" i nudged Kendall. least that meant i would get a bit of a break from the studio.
"where are you going?" i added

"England actually" he declared and sat back in his seat waiting for his next question.

"have you found her?" Kendall asked hastily meaning sheriden.

james just shook his head "Carlos gave me the details of her father, where she used to live, that kind of thing... just gonna try this one last chance" he said matter of factly.

Kendall stayed silent for a minute. apart from james, Kendall was the next best thing to knowing everything about sheriden lloyd, and judging by his face he thought that England was a waste of time.

"she wont be there bro" Kendall said after a few moments.

james ignored Kendalls negativity, but i acted on it.

"james im not being funny but its been 6 months now, you've... slept with other girls james. i thought you had moved on" my words came out slightly wrong, but i think he knew what i meant.

"I don't think i will ever move on pais'. but England is the only lead i have left. so once that's done... then its moving on time" he declared then let out a sigh.

I noticed james and Kendall seemed to be having some odd stare off as to who knew sheriden better. im sure it must be james but I couldn't see sheriden returning to her home land of England either. too many bad memories for her.
but saying that the USA didn't turn out much better for her.

after half hour or more we pulled in to a hotel car park, finally a decent nights sleep in a proper bed. we piled out and stretched our legs, then made our way to the hotel.

Carlos and his tour bus companions were already here. the boys were told that they had an hour to get sorted then they had a meet and greet in one of the function rooms of the hotel before the show this evening.

we went up, i crashed out on kendells hotel bed. "oh my god baby... feel this bed" i laughed at the insane comfort our new bed for the night held.

Kendall laughed at me as he saw me roll around on the oversized bed.

we had quick showers and got changed. i made myself look as attractive as i possibly could. the female population of the celebrity world was a complete bitch fest, and I wouldn't stand for anyone trying to nab my man. i loved that guy so much it was unreal.

we walked down to the function room. it was huge, obviously not a small meet and greet with one or two fans then. there was a load of food laid out on a row of tables. from Carlos' sad face I don't think anyone was allowed to touch it yet.

i noticed jess, Carlos' girlfriend was sat on some of the cheap hotel chairs that had been placed at the side of the room... well at least i knew someone, even if it was bitch face jess.

Kendall and i sat down with her, the others soon joined us as we waited for the gabble of screaming and crying girls to enter the room to meet big time rush.

james wouldn't talk to jess. only because his loyalty to sheriden ran that deep, sheriden couldn't stand her so nor could james. the rest of us tolerated her. but Logan and Carlos were her only true friends in the BTR family.

i could see Logan and James exchanging looks. they loved times like these. the onset of a room of pretty girls being released on to them. it was a bizarre sexual game for them, they would flip a coin each time to see who got first dibs on the group of girls. today james had won it.

when james had made his choice of which girl he was going to bang the brains out of he would discreetly put his hand on her shoulder so that logan would know which one was off limits, and vice versa.

i dont think i had ever seen the chosen girl turn either of them down... i know i didnt when kendall first tried it on with me. but that was a lot different to this.

Ally the big time rush co-ordinator, walked in through the double doors with a clip board in her hand and about 30 people filed in after her.

the guys got up and did there thing, smiling away and giving kisses and receiving a multitude of gifts from girls who simply adored them.

jess rolled her eyes as she sat with her legs crossed over. she seemed to find the whole boy band thing a bit boring. i guessed she like to control carlos and hated it when the clip board lady had full control of his actions.

the boys spent about 45 minutes chatting away to everyone, the phrase i heard the most was, "enjoy the show tonight" followed by a kiss on the cheek.

once the food was out it was a bit more relaxed, logan came over and moaned that james had tapped the hottest looking girl in here, i turned to look in the direction of logans eyes to the poor girl that will be happy in james maslows arms for about an hour then get kicked out of bed.
she was indeed very pretty, long brown hair, almost pixie like face with huge eyes. she looked very happy as james stood talking to her, working his magic. from behind she looked a bit like sheriden when she had brown hair.
only a matter of time before she gets her number out for him so he can meet her after the show.
i shook my head.

logan sighed as most of the other girls were clearly too young or too unattractive, he gave him self the option of 3.
"pais which one do you think?" he asked

"err! i dont think so henderson. im not condemning a girl to a week of sleepless nights after you promise to call her and say your worldwide shit to her" i replied. logans parting gift to his overnight sex companions on the tour bus apart from the cab fare home was his catch phrase "i will be thinking of you worldwide". of course the girls loved it, but it never rang true, and he never called them back.

"logan... go with the red head... she looks hot" came a snake like hiss of a reply from jess.

i turned to look at the red head but she had her back to me. she was indeed a red head, her long hair had been dyed a beautiful dark red colour. very un natural looking but stunning all the same. she was currently having her picture taken with carlos. i smiled as i noticed she was having a good squeeze of his bum. jess obviously didnt like that so thought the girl deserved to get her heart broken by serial love rat logan henderson.

logan smiled at jess as i think the red head had slipped his radar then went off to tap the shoulder.

as the evening wore on i did stay back stage with jess and met a load of people, some i didnt even know who they were but they knew exactly who i was... probably due to who my boyfriend is rather than my own music talents, but i enjoyed the experience all the same, and it pissed jess off. no one really approached her, she didnt have the look about her that was friendly enough for strangers to just walk up and chat.

after the concert we went back to the hotel and made a little BTR camp in one of the private bars. kendall had just joined me, he had just showered in his room. he looked so damn hot.
he was gonna get it good in that massive bed tonight. i whispered such things in his ear too, he didnt bother getting a drink.

i noticed james already running his fingers through the sheriden lookey likeys hair. he was like a robot, absolutly no feeling in it for him at all. i wondered why he bothered doing it. he clearly wasnt happy, but everyone has needs i guess, and sheriden did just dump him with zero warning.

carlos and jess looked like a proper couple for once, she was smiling as carlos spoke to her. it was nice to see. she looked so different with a smile on her face instead of the pout she usually wore on it.
carlos looked happy. he was always really buzzed up after a show.

there was a good crowd of BTR people in the bar. there was a load of guys involved in the big time rush concerts. and it looked like they had all crawled out of the woodwork tonight to join us seeing as tomorrow after the last wonderland show we would all be heading back to our homes... bliss

I had my lips firmly attached to kendalls when I got a tap on my shoulder. first of all i thought it was logan pissing about. I detatched from kendall and turned around it was logan and his red head. I gave her a guick glance.

"hey sorry" logan said about interrupting our kiss "i just wanted to introduce this young lady to everyone" logan added. working the charm.

I looked at the girl again

logan continued "guys this is..."

"MACKENZIE DAVIES?" I screamed with delight and gave the girl a hug.

"Paisley?... my word... look at you" Mackenzie said eyeing me over. "I didnt even recognise you!" she added

"Recognise me?... jesus look at you... with the hair" i laughed and hugged mackenzie again.

"shit sorry" I said as the two boys just kind of stared at us grinning.

"kendall, logan... Mackenzie and I used to be such good friends but she moved when I was...shit how old were we?" I asked Mackenzie.

"14...just" Mackenzie confirmed.

"yeah 14. oh my god I can believe your here Kenzie, its nuts... this is my boyfriend" I laughed pointing at kendall, who in return rolled his eyes with a smile.

"my god and your going out with... Logan" my smile slowly faded knowing what was in store for my very good old friend Mackenzie Davies.

I think Logan saw the worry on my face as he gave a sigh and a smile, which I took to be as the 'thanks a bunch Reno, I cant fuck your friend now' look.

I hugged logan. I was very over excited, and dragged mackenzie away a table to catch up with her.