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Kim sat on her bed thinking about Bobby. She felt so bad for this whole day. She did love him as more than a friend, but he deserved better than her. She was bad with relationships and she wasn't over Jimmy yet. She could tell that Jimmy still cared about her. Especially with the way he had reacted when he found out that she had slept with Bobby. She just couldn't be with Bobby when she wasn't over Jimmy. It wouldn't be fair to Bobby. He deserved someone who could love him completely. And even if she did give Bobby a chance everyone in the firehouse would know most of the things went on between them. Bobby had a big mouth. He told everyone that he liked her, except her. But she still couldn't help but think how good she and Bobby would have been together. He was a great person and he loved her for her, not what she could do on bed. Kim was brought out of her thoughts by someone knocking on her door. She slowly got up and answered it. She was surprised to see Jimmy standing there.

"What do you want?" Kim asked softly. Jimmy rarely ever dropped by unless he wanted to sleep with her. Then he'd leave in the morning like nothing had happened between them. She couldn't do that again. She looked up at Jimmy waiting for him to answer. She could tell that he had something on his mind.

"I need to talk to you about something. Can I come in?" Jimmy asked. He's been thinking about her all day hoping that he wasn't too late. He still loved her and he knew that he was the one that ruined things between them and he felt so bad for hurting her. But if she did give them another chance, things would be different. He wouldn't hurt her again. He cared about her too much. He wouldn't want to lose her again. Jimmy walked in after Kim opened the door some more.

"What do you want to talk about?" Kim asked wanting to get this over with. She was exhausted. She looked at Jimmy. He looked nervous. She really wanted to know what this was about now.

"I was thinking a lot today after you told me about what happened between you and Bobby. It made me realize how much I still love you. I never got over you. I know that I screwed up with you in the past, but this time things will be different," jimmy said. He watched Kim look down. She looked overwhelmed. But after what happened between her and Bobby and now him being here telling her that he still love her, maybe he should have waited a few days until everything between her and Bobby settled down.

"I don't know Jimmy. I really don't know right now. I still love you, but I have a lot on my mind. I don't what I want or think about anything right now. I just need some time to think," Kim said and ran her hands through her hair. She looked at Jimmy with an exasperated look on her face. Too much has happened today for her to decide anything about Jimmy or what she wanted. She knew that if she was to go back to Jimmy it would hurt Bobby even more. She wouldn't have given him a fair chance and just gone back to Jimmy. But she still loved Jimmy so much. And he did seem sincere. She did want to be with him again. She's wanted that for a long time. But how would she know if Jimmy wouldn't hurt her again. She's heard him say that things would be different many times.

"You don't have to decide anything tonight. I don't want to rush you on anything and even if you said no I would understand. You've known Bobby a long time and you two are really close," Jimmy replied and was about to get up to leave.

"This doesn't have anything to do with Bobby. I'm just not too sure that things would last that long between us," Kim answered. She looked at Jimmy and saw a hurt look on his face. She didn't mean for what she said to come out that way. But it was true. She really didn't know if things between her and Jimmy would last long if she did give him another chance. She knew how things usually ended between them. It always ended short and painful for her and never seemed to care about losing her. He'd just find someone else to sleep with and then come back to her promising things would be different that time after his relationship didn't work out with whoever he was seeing those times. She was used to it by now. But she didn't want to go through that again. It was too painful.

"That hurt," Jimmy said. Though he couldn't be mad at her for saying that. Every time they did get back together, things did end pretty fast. He always screwed up somehow and ended up hurting her.

"I didn't mean it that way. It's just that you always end up hurting me Jimmy. I don't want o go through all the pain you always put me through again. I want something real this time," Kim said. She sighed softly knowing this wasn't going to end soon. She knew that Jimmy would end up dragging this out for as long as he could and she was too tired for that and really wasn't in the mood for that.

"I know I've hurt you in the past and that I've promised things I couldn't keep, but this time I mean it. I'm not going to hurt you this time. I don't want to lose you Kim. I love you," Jimmy said softly and touched her face.

"I don't know right now Jimmy. I already told you that I need more time to think about things. I need to be sure that you won't hurt me this time. Right now I'm not sure of that. I've heard you say this many times Jimmy. Too many times," Kim replied and leaned her head back against the couch.

"I know you need time to think about this. I just want you to know that no matter what you decide I will always be there for you. You can come to me for anything," Jimmy said. He got up and kissed Kim softly on the forehead then left. He hoped he didn't pressure her into anything. He really didn't want to rush her. He wouldn't mind waiting for her. This time he would screw things up with her.

Kim sat back on the couch and sighed. Why was this so hard? She wanted to be with Jimmy so bad. But she also didn't want to hurt Bobby anymore than she already had. She knew that being with jimmy wouldn't be fair to Bobby. She didn't even give him a chance. Jimmy seemed so sincere. He wasn't rushing her or pressuring her. He really did seem like he changed. But he's said things would be different so many times before and then left her crying. She really didn't want to go through that and it would fracture her and Bobby's relationship even more than it already was. She was so overwhelmed and confused. She had no idea what to do. She loved Bobby, but she loved Jimmy to. Her and Jimmy were married and she had to think about what was best for Joey. Even if she wasn't with anyone. Sometimes she felt that was better for Joey. It doesn't confuse him or make him feel like he has to choose between whom she's seeing and his father. Kim looked at the clock and decided to get some sleep. She knew that tomorrow would be a very long day. Hopefully Bobby wasn't mad at her and she didn't hurt him too bad. She really did love him, but he deserved better. She still wasn't over Jimmy and probably wouldn't be for a long time.

Kim was standing outside the firehouse waiting for Jimmy. She needed to talk to him. She thought a lot about what he said last night and how much she still loved him. He did seem like a changed person. She just couldn't get over him. Kim looked up and saw him walking over and smiled at him softly.

"Hey. Are you waiting for me?" Jimmy asked. He hoped she was. He missed being with her. He knew that she probably hasn't made any decisions yet and he didn't want to rush her or badger her about it. He just wanted to be with her.

"Yeah I was. I wanted to talk to you about last night. I was thinking a lot about what you said after you left," Kim replied. She looked down at the ground and then back at Jimmy. She knew she was making the right decision, even if Bobby would be pissed at her forever. But she had to do what she felt was right, what she wanted for herself.

"You don't have to decide anything right now. You can take as much time as you need. You know that right?" Jimmy said and looked into her eyes. From the look on her face, it seemed like she has already made up her mind.

"I know. I've already decided what I wanted. I want to be with you Jimmy. I miss you and I'm willing to give you another chance. Just don't hurt me again," Kim answered. She saw Jimmy smile and could tell that he was happy about this. That was a good sign, hopefully.

"I promise, I won't hurt you again," Jimmy said. He leaned in and kissed her softly on the lips. He missed being able to do that. Kim looked up at him and touched his face. She knew this was what was right. They both turned to walk inside to get changed and saw bobby standing there looking at them. Kim felt bad. She could tell that he was hurt, but she loved Jimmy. It wouldn't be fair to Bobby if she decided to be with him and wasn't over Jimmy. That would just cause even more problems between them and she didn't need that. Kim watched Bobby walk upstairs and felt even worse.

"I'm going to go talk to him," Kim said.

"I'll be up in a few," Jimmy replied and kissed her again before she went upstairs.

"Are you okay?" Kim asked when she got upstairs. Bobby was looking out the window with a saddened look in his eyes.

"You seem happy to be with Jimmy again. He's just going to hurt you," Bobby said. He turned and looked at Kim. He still loved her, even though she hurt him. But why would she have slept with him if she didn't love him? She wasn't that type of person. And he couldn't believe that she was with Jimmy again. All he was going to do was use her and hurt her. Then he'd have to listen to her cry about it like he had to every other time Jimmy had hurt her. And hurt that she turned him down and is back with Jimmy. He just couldn't stop loving her, no matter how much she hurt him.

"I never meant to hurt you Bobby. I just wasn't over Jimmy and it wouldn't have been fair to you. And Jimmy's changed. He won't hurt me again," Kim said. Bobby looked at her. He knew it was hard for her. And he wasn't making things any easier or making her feel better. But he could also tell that she did love him as more than a friend and he wasn't going to let that go. Bobby moved closer to her and kissed her. He was surprised that she didn't pull away and when she deepened it. Bobby pushed her against the wall and then pulled away. They were both breathless. He knew that this was wrong, but he loved her and he wanted her so bad.

"What if someone comes up here and sees us?" Bobby asked. He knew that Jimmy would probably be coming up soon..

"I'll come to your place later tonight," Kim replied and kissed him again. This was so wrong. She was doing what Jimmy did to him, but when Bobby kissed her, she couldn't pull away. She loved him. She loved him more than Jimmy. But she couldn't hurt Jimmy, and she couldn't hurt Bobby again. This was so hard.

"I'll be waiting then," Bobby said smiling and kissed her one last time before he went back downstairs. A few minutes later Kim saw Jimmy come upstairs.

"Everything okay with you and Bobby now?" Jimmy asked. He hoped so. He knew that Bobby was her best friend and that she hated when he was mad at her.

"Yeah it is," Kim replied. She looked at Jimmy and she felt so bad. She felt bad no matter what she did. She always ended up hurting someone.

TBC…