AN: I am experimenting with writing styles. This whole fanfic will be written in a journal format. It will be written as if it were Kagome's diary posted up onto the internet. (That would be sad if someone actually did that to someone else's diary. Invasion of privacy anyone?) Just to clear it up, this is an alternate universe fanfic.
"...Something just isn't right
I can feel it inside
The truth isn't far behind me
You can't deny
When I turn the lights out
When I close my eyes
Reality overcomes me
I'm living a lie
When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when I'm around you
I don't feel..." - Avril Lavigne, Together
Entry One
February 5th
Dear Diary,
I just don't understand it. Inuyasha has just been drifting away from me. I don't get it. I have been nothing but supportive and encouraging wth him, letting him know I would never hate him, not ever. I am writing this all down, and although the book is rather cute and pink, I would rather be brooding on the bed in my room, listening to Avril Lavigne. Her songs just really reflect how I feel. Sometimes, when I'm really feeling bad, listening to those lyrics make me cry. But that's okay. I really love music. It just feels so good to listen to a song and leave your life behind. People say that about books. But it's always been music that has taken away my worries and woes and all that shit everyone says reading does.
The real reason I am writing in this journal is because I think I will have a mental breakdown if I do not confide in someone soon. I had read in Glamour, that writing in down one's thoughts and emotions and feelings eases stress. Well, the reason I think I may go insane is because Inuyasha's ex has returned from her two-year study abroad. It seems she had broken up with Inuyasha because she felt (and I can see the reasoning behind this) that his jealously and overpossessiveness would just further corrupt a long distance relationship. Thinking of this is causing m to become incredibly depressed. I shall continue tomorrow.