AN: Well hello there! Long time no talk. So here is the first chapter to the new story! I hope that you all will enjoy it. Just for a little teaser, they'll be together before chapter 10 ;D Make sure to follow/favorite/review! I also want to say thank you to my very best friend, Sazyouruplifex for being my beta! Also thank you for everyone that is coming and following this journey with me. Enjoy!
"Take it back, I would take it back for just another minute.
Just another chance with you."
September 6th, 1993
Tara stepped one combat boot out of the car and then the other. Over the summer, she got really comfortable wearing dresses. She wanted her new found style to be seen. Looking around, she let out a sigh as she let the car door slam shut. At least it was legal that she was driving now. Not that Unser had ever taken her permit away when he caught her.
Her dad never drove anymore…barely even worked now. Thank god for welfare and summer jobs. She was worried that he was going to end up hurting himself but she didn't have time to worry.
It's the first day of her junior year. It was only two more years before she can get the hell out of here. The happiest day of her life is the day she gets handed her diploma. That day wasn't going to come soon enough. Pushing the strap of her bag back up, she started to head towards the school.
For the first time, she wasn't going to have anyone to run to. Or talk to for that matter. The closet thing she had was Opie but she can't just walk up to him. There'd be someone else by his side.
Jax.
It's been 5 months since she told him that they needed time apart. It definitely hadn't been that long since they'd seen each other. There was one night that stuck out if particular. It was almost amusing to think about. Almost.
"Hello?" All she could hear was the sound of someone's breathing. It was starting to freak her out. "I can hear you… Who is this." That's when she heard his laugh. She'd know it anywhere. "Jax…."
"Hi Tare." His voice was slurred, though she could still understand him.
"Are you okay? You sound a little strange.."
He laughed. "I'm just drunk with some of the guys."
When things like this happened, she wondered why she even bothered with him at all. She had enough going on that she really, really didn't want to deal with a drunken Jax. "Oh that's lovely.. Did you want something?"
"Just you. Only you."
"Jax…"
"Why don't you get that it's you? You're the person that's going to make me better."
"I don't want you to depend on me that way."
"That's what girlfriends are for."
"Jax, no." Her voice was sterner this time. She just wanted to get this through his head. Or else they would go around in circles forever. "You need to be okay first."
"I want you back."
"We've talked about this…"
"Yeah, well I'm better."
"No, Jax it's obvious that you aren't."
His reply was just barely above a whisper. "You use to call me Jackson."
"Maybe we can talk when you aren't wasted, okay?"
"I don't know if I ever loved you."
Tara bit the inside of her cheek to prevent herself from crying. She wasn't going to sit here and take this from him. "Goodnight Jackson."
Even if hearing that hurt her, she knew it was probably true. Some days she wondered if what she had felt for him was even love. But she knew that he probably didn't love her. Tara was just the first one to show him compassion. And not have it be because of whom he was, who he would be someday. He needed people to show him that it's okay to be happy and love again.
She felt that once. Anna had been her saving grace after her mom had died. Look how well that had turned out for her. Tara didn't want that to be her and Jax in a few years.
Tara looked down at her schedule and smiled. English was still her first class. She was thrilled about that. Start off the day the right way. To her, it was funny that the teacher they had the year before had been replaced. Passing that classroom, it was now a female teacher. Serves him right.
When she walking to her seat, she walked past Opie and sat behind him. Leaning over her desk, she pushed his back and laughed. "I could get used to this."
"Don't be a pest now, Tare." He teased.
"Don't try and take all of my fun away."
"It's no fun for me."
"Oh like you won't find ways to annoy me?"
"Maybe you'll have someone else to bug." He turned and nodded at Jax.
She smiled a little at Jax as he sat next to her. Opie gave him and look which he only responded to with a shrug. They always had conversations by just looking at each other. It was annoying. Though, she was happy that Jax wanted to be beside her.
Just like old times. Only a little different though.
"Jax." She turned and greeted him.
He gave her a tight smile before leaning over and talking to Opie. As that happened she tried to conceal how hurt she was. They hadn't seen each other in weeks and he ignores her? Maybe it was true, he didn't love her. Tara noticed the teacher walk into the room and close the door. As happy as she was to come back to school…it was going to be a long day.
Her next two classes went smoothly. There was really no one in them that she was friendly with. So she'd have some work to do. She was determined to have friends. Even if she wanted to forgive Anna, she knew that, her chapter in her life had come to a halt. Time to start new.
The girl next to her seemed like she was nice enough.
"Tara right?"
"Yeah, that's me. Who are you?"
"Oh, I'm Cassie."
"Nice to meet you."
"You too."
"I have a question though."
"Shoot."
"You haven't had sex with Jax Teller right?"
The girl gave her a confused look before shaking her head. "No…not into that bad boy biker thing."
"Sorry, I shouldn't have asked that."
"No, no. It's okay. I heard about everything that happened last year. I wouldn't want to be friends with another person like that either." She smiled at her and started to turn back to reading the syllabus.
"Yeah…You're right." Tara turned back to hers as well.
"But, you know I'm not like that. Total friend material."
"Thanks, Cassie." She smiled over at her.
"So…please tell me that you'll be good at anatomy?" She gave her a horrified face.
Tara laughed and nodded. "I think I'll do really well."
"Oh good, so hi, best friend!" The blonde gleefully giggled.
"It looks like it's going to be a wonderful friendship!"
Both of them talked back and worth for the rest of the class. It left Tara rather happy. She was glad that she had someone that was willing to be her friend. When the bell rang, the two girls parted in their ways. She was feeling pretty good about this. It was possible that she made a new friend.
With a smile on her face, she walked into her algebra and was met with blue eyes. He pointed to the seat across from him and then at the seating chart that was drawn on the board. "You sit right here."
"Oh wow, I don't know how I'll ever concentrate." She rolled her eyes and sat down and looked at him.
He shrugged and gave her a smile. Tara just glared at him. What the hell? Did he have a multiple personality disorder? "Is everything okay?" she whispered.
"Yeah, why are you whispering?"
"I—I don't really know to be honest."
Jax laughed before they had to turn their attention to the teacher as the class started. It was going to be a long year when she hated math as much as she did. When the bell rang, he waited for her at the door. "Come on, you can eat lunch with Opie and I."
"What if I don't want to?"
"Would you rather eat alone?" He raised a brow.
She opened her mouth to say something before closing it again. Instead she shook her head and followed him outside to where she was almost positive Opie would be. She wanted a friendship like theirs. They were almost always together. It was really unfair.
She tried to sneak up behind Opie but he grabbed her instead. Which he received a squeal from the brunette. For the first time, Jax didn't look like he was jealous of the two of them. Maybe he is starting to become a different person.
"Opie, I was supposed to scare you."
"Well you aren't very sneaky."
She rolled her eyes and sat down. Jax sat down next to her and she smiled as she held her dress down from blowing up. As she pulled out her lunch, she listened to the two guys talk.
"Did you hear about the car Clay's got Tig working on?" Jax asked.
"No, I didn't."
"It's a 65 mustang."
"Oh the red one?" Opie leaned over to get a better look at Jax.
"Yeah, black stripe."
"Such a good lookin' car."
Tara took a bite of her sandwich and started to zone out. This wasn't what she had been expecting but it didn't matter it was better than being alone.
"How's the bike coming along?"
"I realized a few more parts that needed to be bought. So I had Gemma order those."
"Cool, tell me when you want my help."
"It'll probably be when the rest of the parts get here."
"So like a couple of days?"
"Yeah, we need to get back to work."
"Your lazy ass is the one that wanted to stop for a while."
"Yeah, yeah." Jax rolled his eyes.
Tara looked between the two of them confused. "Bike?"
They both looked down at her like they had forgotten that she was there with them too. Jax flushed a bit and looked down at his sandwich. Tara automatically reached for his hand and looked over at Opie.
"Jax and I are rebuilding his old man's bike. It was completely ruined in the accident." He explained.
Tara looked at Jax and smiled. "You are? I think that's great. "
"You do?" He looked a bit surprised.
"Yeah, it'll be a great way to find closure."
"I was hoping it would make me feel better."
"I hope it works. Now tell me all about this bike."
Jax's face lights up as he started to explain it to her. What it will look like, the color, everything. It didn't matter if she didn't understand most of it. She was just happy that she could be with him and listen.
Being without him wasn't as easy as she thought that it would have been. It wasn't even that they didn't see each other because several times they'd meet up with Opie and hang out. A few times she'd break and sneak through his window.
Tara was having a hard time falling asleep. After enough time spent tossing and turning, she decided to go for a little walk. By the time she was standing outside of his house, she knew that she was right where she wanted to be.
There had only been a few times before this that she had climbed through his window. It was only a little difficult that his room was upstairs. Though, she had become really good at climbing the tree by his window. She was lucky that Jax left this window open during the summer. Climbing inside, she noticed Jax sit up alerted by it.
"It's just me Jax."
"I was hoping it would be."
"Do other girls crawl through your window at 2 am?"
"No only you, sweetheart." His eyes flickered with a look of longing. It pained her to know what was going through his mind. But she knew that it was best to keep this a one night thing. Not talk about their feelings. Tara was just really in need of him. She wanted to sleep in his arms.
"I like to hear that."
"I'm surprised Gemma didn't wake up with all the noise."
Tara looked at the door and back him with a playful smirk. "Well we could always make some more noise to wake her."
"I think I like what you're suggesting." His smile grew as her giggling filled his room. "C'mere."
Tara smiled before she cuddled into his side. Before either of them had the chance to say anything, they leaned in, pressing their lips together. Feeling him grab hair at the nape of her neck and hold her in place, she groaned softly into the kiss. He pulled her back to look at her and she felt her need well up inside of her.
"Jax," she whispered.
At that he laid her down and straddled her hips before capturing her lips again. Wrapping her arms around his waist, she reached under his shirt and started to push it up while she ran her hands up his back. Sitting up, he pulled his shirt over his head before leaning back in.
"I need you so badly." He murmured against her lips.
Tara wound her legs around him. "I'm yours, always yours," she mumbled back.
That was the only reassurance he needed to mash their lips together.
Tara couldn't regret that night if she wanted to. Walking out to the cutlass, she looked over her shoulder when she heard a bike. That was a sound that she loved more than anything. When she saw him, she smiled at him and waved.
This was going to be a good year. She could feel it. No one was going to walk over her anymore. Not unless they were up to a fight. Things were looking good with Jax, too. Rebuilding JT's bike might be the best thing for him.
Though she hated what was going on right now. All she wanted was to be in his arms again. Pulling open the door, she got in. She was ready to go home to sleep this off. Tara thought to herself; I would take it back.