A/N: I've been meaning to write this for a while. It's not exaclty how I hoped but I really wanted to post it anyways. And I strongly suggest you look up this song! NOBODY'S HOME by AVRIL LAVIGNE. I heard it on the radio and I had totally forgotten about it but seriously look it up it'll hopefully help you understand this. Also I know Cat is a little OOC but this story is kinda sad and serious so go with me. Please review! Songfics always make me nervous.
Well, I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
Threatened. Paranoid. Insecure.
She felt it every day
Ever since Tori got here, Jade's been different. Maybe it's the little things like the new skirts, or maybe it's the bigger things like her insane jealousy that got multiplied by one hundred or her new jet black hair. Or maybe it's all of the changes rolled up into one, who knows which ones would've happened if Tori hadn't come here and she hadn't kissed Beck in front of all of us, planting seeds of doubt in Jade's brain. She might be a totally different person.
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again
She broke up with Beck before, but she got him back. Tori even helped her. I should've helped her too. But I didn't, maybe this is my second chance. I let her walk away from Beck; she didn't play around this time though. This time it was for real. But I know it was a mistake. Every day I can see it in her eyes, we all can, and it was a mistake.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
But then again, maybe Tori didn't cause this all herself. I know her mom died but that was, like, forever ago. Is this my fault? Is it my fault that Jade can barely sit with us at lunch now because all she really wants to do is beg for Beck back? But no she can't do that, he didn't open the door. He didn't want to fight for her. Now she doesn't know who will.
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
I know she still drives to Beck's RV. I may not be a genius but I'm not mental. She drove me home one day and we ended up on his street instead.
"Jadey? Beck's not even home yet." I said, stupidly reminding her of what she already knew.
"What do you mean?" She said, sounding distant as she kept driving, farther and farther away. "I always go to your house this way."
She's a good liar, but I've known her too long. Like I knew she was lying when she told him she was 'going home and we're done.', because right after she said 10, she drove straight to my house and when I came home she was waiting for me in my room.
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
She spends a lot of time with me now. I'm not hurt because she suddenly hangs out with me because she lost Beck. I know why. Her dad never talks to her, or listens either. He's never really there, even when he is. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't get him to accept her dreams. And so she's alone all the time now. I never knew how much she needed Beck until he wasn't there for her. Because everyone needs someone, and I guess that's my job now, but she won't let me do it.
Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reasons why
"Beck!" I screamed at him. He jumped 'cause I never scream.
"Good God Cat what do you want? I don't have any bibble." He's such an idiot.
"Why don't you love Jade anymore? It's not fair that you can just stop, and she's left alone with nobody!"
"Cat no. You think I'm not affected by this? You think I like the fact that I hurt her? I am so sick of people thinking I don't care!"
"Really? Then maybe you should start acting like you actually do care! Ever thought of that? Because I'm sick of you going around acting like king of the world because you no longer have to deal with Jade and all of her problems, like this big burden has been lifted off your shoulders. But open your eyes Beck! You ruined a relationship, but that didn't solve anything!"
You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you've left behind
"Oh yeah? And since when do you know me and my problems?"
"Well I happen to know you tried to kiss Tori of all people! Wasn't that a great idea? What did you wake up and suddenly have the desire to kick Jade while she was down and prove all her jealousy and paranoia to be spot on?"
"No! Of course not I was just-"
"Just what Beck? Just trying to kiss Jade's friend? Well guess what? Tori doesn't even want you Beck! So now that she turned you down, what will you do? Go for me now? 'Cause it's not going to happen!"
"No Cat listen to me! I was trying to get over Jade and move on! I was so wrong to think I ever could though, because I love her Cat. I'll always love her. I just don't know if that's enough anymore! I don't know how I can get her back! I need her. My life is empty without her in it."
Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
"Oh."
"Yeah." He ran his hands through his hair like he always does when he's nervous. He looked at me with pleading eyes. "What should I do?"
I don't know when I became the love doctor. It was too much. I knew Jade would kill me if she knew I talked to Beck behind her back.
"Not my problem, Beck. I have enough. You know Jade better than anyone. Figure it out."
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
When I got back I was surprised to see her car in my driveway. I ran inside and straight upstairs.
"Jade?" I asked, out of breath.
"Hey." She said quietly, guarded like always. "Your mom said I should stay over while my Dad's out of town this time."
She looked so sad, it broke my heart. But she never wants to talk about it. I put on my best smile.
"Here, you can hold Mr. Longneck."
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
I couldn't sleep that night. She tried to cover it up, but I knew she was crying.
Her feelings she hides
"I thought I was mad, but now that I'm here what is there to be mad about?"…"So you're really okay?"…"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?"
I knew it was a trick at the vet's office. She wasn't mad, but she was heartbroken and devastated.
Her dreams she can't find
'Finally Falling' was just the beginning of Tori stealing Jade's spotlight. I miss it when Jade used to get the leads. She was happier then.
She's losing her mind
Since when does she think it's ok to make out with Moose? We all liked him you know! But getting back at Beck for trying to kiss Tori can only make things worse…
She's falling behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place, yeah
I feel like a terrible person just standing by as her life falls apart, but what else can I do? I'd take back all my birthday wishes if Beck and Jade would take back that night. Everything's been downhill from there, like she's falling but no one's there to catch her. We all try but there's only one person who can succeed, coincidentally the one person who doesn't even bother trying anymore.
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
She's lost inside, lost inside
Oh oh
She's lost inside, lost inside
Oh oh, oh
"Hello?" Her voice shook on the single word, weak from crying, something she'd been doing a lot of lately.
"Jade?" His heart was pounding. He couldn't believe she answered.
"What do you want, Beck?" She tried to sound threatening but his name burned like acid on her tongue.
"I miss you Jade. I love you. Forever. Please come home."
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