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A/N: New favourite episode alert! New favourite episode! I couldn't believe this episode. I literally mean this is my new favourite episode of Season 4. It's incredible! This is my take on the end of the show.

*SPOILERS*
Sex and Violence

Your name is Samuel

"So, we're good?"

Good? Are you serious Sam? Good? We're far from good? You lied! How could you? To your own brother? When you said you wouldn't! My heart's broken. Shattered with no one to pick up the pieces. Sam, I trusted you. I trusted you with every fiber of my being. Well... I used to. Lately... God, Sam!

I should be thanking the Siren! A goddamn monster, Sam, and I'm thanking it! But now I know for sure what you think of me! Pathetic. Weak! The truth. It doesn't even hurt to admit that to myself. I've been saying it for years. But Sam, it was you that kept me going. If I believed that you didn't truly believe me to be... pathetic and weak, I could keep on. But those words came out of your mouth! A better hunter... maybe. A better brother... we'll take a vote.

But where will you be when we take this vote Sam? What do you do when I'm not around? Huh? You go with Ruby? At least I know the all my suspicions were right. I've known you my entire life. You really think I couldn't see? I've studied you just as much as you studied me. I know your walk, your talk, and your very mind. I know you... knew you. Ruby thinks she's helping you, Sam. I don't even know if God can help you now. But Sam I think we're beyond that now.

I don't know how we're going to fix this Sam. Between us. For a moment, under the crystal clear power of the Siren, I felt like I wanted to... kill you. If I had of been in control... my stomach would have been in knots, my hands shaking, my eyes leaking. In all my life I never thought I'd even think about something like that. Sam, you're... not Sammy anymore. How can I trust you with my back? How could I ever trust you again?

That's of course no question. You're not Sammy anymore but you're Sam, Samuel. I can live with that until I get you back, or until the day I die... again. I lived through Hellfire for you. I'm sorry I keep moping around it. Acting like... well like the pathetic, weak man I am. I don't mean for it to be all about me. But Sam, when I think of all I sacrificed, all I went through... I came back to a brother that doesn't care?

Sam. I can't do this for much longer. I don't want to go back to Hell. But with all these lies, this deceit, it's almost like I never left. It hurts. I want out. I don't know where my breaking point is, but I am at the very end of a very short rope. Soon my gut will wrench, my head will spin, my eyes will be a waterfall, and I'll end it.

So, good Sam? No. Not even close. Not even goddamn close.

But this... this isn't for Samuel. But for Sammy...

"Yea. We're good."

End

A/N: I wrote this in the span of about 20 minutes. It just kind of came out. Blame my lack of sleep! What did you all think of this episode?