I finally found you
AN
Trying to make a multi chapter story of the 100, don't criticize if you don't like it. This is my first attempt of making this. So, be my guest to let me know what you think about it.
This story uphold in the two months absence of Clarke and Lexa, in the original timeline in t100 which is three months. I made up in this story that she's just been in the wilderness in one month. Those two months will be process. That didn't make any sense, please just read it. Thanks.x
Disclaimer
I don't own any of the characters in The 100 even if that is in the show or in the book. It belongs to the TRUE creator.
Chapter 1
One month in the wilderness is not easy for any people, even for myself who was one of the people that been sent down from the sky to the ground to know if the earth was survivable. Those people who died in that mountain are all because of me. I'm the one who trusted the commander of the grounders and what do we got, she left us, she left me. I thought she's different from the others, but I guess a person has demons inside of them.
I know that a leader will do anything just to make sure their people are safe. She had done that, she made sure her people are safe and left my people inside of that mountain to die. I thought we had the fight together when she kissed me in her tent. After all, Love is weakness. I did what I had to do. I know there are many innocent people in that mountain but their leader left me no choice, but to irradiate the mountain.
Every night in this cave where I'm living, temporarily, people that died in the mountain hunt me. People that been burnt and melted, saying I'm a murderer and no one is innocent. I'm not innocent; I've killed too many people to be an innocent person. All because of that is, I just want my friends, my people, to be safe. I guess when I'm in charge people dies.
Grounders are after me, calling me wanheda. I didn't want that title; I'm not the commander of death. I'm no one. They want me dead because if they'll kill me the power will be theirs, but I'm not letting that to happen. I deserve so much better than being hunted by people and I deserve so much better than being abandoned by the person that I've trusted.
Looking at the fire that I've created, everyday those are my thoughts. Thoughts that will be hunting me until my last breathe in this world.
Branch of a tree broke from the outside of the cave. I know someone just, again, found me. Immediately my instinct kicks in me, getting the sword I own on the ground, which I've got from the commander when once we had an alliance.
"Who's there?" Preparing to attack whoever that might be.
Footsteps are being bounded and hearable. "Don't come any closer." I warned the intruder.
The intruders shadow is in my sight. "I mean you no harm. I finally found you." Until the person who have found me is in my view. Cloak hiding her face, but I know her. Just like I know what her voice sounded like.
"What are you doing here?" Pointing my sword to the commander and all I remember is, she left me and my people in that mountain.
Lexa's hands are up indicating she means no harm towards me, but I can't just let her barge into my life, yet again. "I'm here to save you Clarke." Lexa said put her hands down slowly looking at me like she's worried.
I chuckled. "After you left me, my people in mount weather to die, yet you're here to save me?" I shook my head in disbelief.
"Clearly you didn't need my help." After she left me and that's what I got. I looked at her angrily.
"Clearly." The fact that I melted those people inside of that mountain.
"You're angry Clarke, but I know you." I let the sword drop on the ground and charge towards Lexa. "You don't know me at all." I retrieve the dagger on my right foot and push it on Lexa's throat.
"I'm sorry." She said. I can see through her eyes that she's sincere. This is the Lexa I trusted. The Lexa that is carefree, I know that the Lexa's commanding the 12 clans, and the Lexa that I know is not the same.
I dropped the dagger and turned around. "I never meant to turn you into this." A tear escaped my eye, but I don't know why. She abandoned me, yet she's here to save me and I'm being emotional to someone that broke my trust.
I wiped the tear away and I noticed that Lexa was about to get out. "Wait!" It made her turn around to look at me and I can see that she's hurt. My shoulders drop and the feelings that I'm hiding from is beginning to creep once again. "Y – you said you're here to save me?" My voice cracked and that made Lexa step forward a bit to check on me, but I stopped her.
"Yes." She seemed so vulnerable at the time, but I know her, when she's like this something is definitely wrong.
"Why is that then?" I asked her and I returned to my place earlier when I got lost in my thoughts. "You can sit too." I said, not taking away my sight in the fire and she nodded.
Lexa cleared her throat and began. "The Ice queen wants you dead Clarke." I looked at her confused.
"She wants your power. You killed our greatest enemy and everyone knows that you have the power of the commander of death." Lexa explained.
"Then why are you here? I know that you wanted to save me, but I'm sure you want me dead too." I see that she was taken aback to what I've said. Her eyes averted and looked on the floor. I'm a little harsh, but maybe she deserved it.
"I want to protect you Clarke." I never see her like this before, so helpless.
I'm confused, why she wants to protect me. "Why?"
Then her eyes lift and look at me again. "Because I regret leaving you and your people in mount weather. I know that our plan would have worked, but I didn't think. All that matters at that time is my people."
"I know that your people are important to you, but you could have trusted me. I've trusted you Lexa and that's what I got. You betrayed me, my people trusted me to being in an alliance with you. But I guess, trusting you were the most selfish decision that I've made. I even provoked my own mother!" I didn't notice that my heartbeat raced up, I just couldn't help myself but to be angry.
"You think I have an option?" Lexa stood up and walk towards me.
I looked at her and stood up facing her. "You have an option!" I spat the words angrily.
"What is that then?" She asked me. She wanted me to say it.
Sighing and I look at her in the eyes, the forest meets the ocean. "To choose between your head and your heart."
Her gaze melted and what surprised me is she held my hands. She stepped forward and I can feel her breathe on my face. We're an inch apart and I can't help but lost in her eyes. "Give me a chance, Klark kom skaikru."
I can feel my head wanted to close the gap, but I didn't let my guards down. "I don't know." I retrieved my hands and give a decent distance apart from us.
Lexa sighed, but still have that aura that she's not giving up, until I agree with her. "Come to Polis with me. Stay as long as you want. Maybe there, you and I can be together." I raised my brow and she cleared her throat. "What I meant is you and I can explore each other's life and maybe there you'll see a reason to forgive me." The hope in her eyes is evident.
I once thought about going to Polis when I left Camp Jaha, but I know that if I step a foot in there I'll be dead in a millisecond. "Will not your people want me dead if I'm there?" I asked her.
"Moving against you is moving against me. I want you to be my guest in polis." She crossed her hand behind her.
I guess, it would not kill me if I'll get to know their commander. "I can consider your offer." I saw a small smile form in Lexa's features and I returned that.
"Then that's arranged then. I'll come back here tomorrow at sunrise to escort you to Polis. So that, I can show you around Polis if you'd like." Her whole façade changed from lonesome to a grateful person.
"I would love to have that company in Polis; they said it's beautiful there." I once again occupied the space I was sitting on.
Lexa did the same, but she's sitting a little closer beside me, but it didn't bother me at all. "You'll love it Clarke." She smiled.
I looked at her and noticed the entrance of the cave behind her and it's pretty dark outside. "I will love there, I'm sure of it and Lexa?"
"What is it Clarke?" She asked and that worried face strikes again. "I think you should stay here for the night. It's a little late for someone to walk in the woods, yet the fact that she's alone, you can sleep here."
Lexa turned around and nodded as she saw the outside. "I guess Polis won't mind not having their heda for the past days." She shrugged, for the past days?
She's been in the wilderness for the past days. "How long have you been looking for me?" I asked rubbing my hands together to eradicate the coldness.
Lexa saw me did it and she immediately removed her cloak and put it on me, I stopped her. "I'm fine Lexa."
She shook her head and looked at me. "I insist." I just shrugged and let her put the cloth on me.
Lexa returned from her sit and look at the fire in front of us. "I've been in the wilderness for the last eight days, but this day is the ninth. It took me weeks to realize what I have done in that mountain." Her jaw clenched as she gripped the wood she's holding.
"I don't know what have gotten to you to look after me, but I'm glad you did." I said with the sincere gratitude that I have.
Lexa averted her eyes. "You'll know the truth when I'll finally earn your trust again Clarke." She's so dedicated to earn my trust again.
"Let's see about that." Lexa's lips twitched into a smile and that made smile a little. "And after all I could use someone's company in this cave."
She turned into my direction and quizzical look in her eyes is evident. "I'd expect you didn't even want to see me, now you're okay with my company."
I saw a little smirk formed in her features and that made my brow raised. "Well that is true; I don't want to see you." That pain in her eyes again. "But I guess that changes though. Maybe a person deserves a second chance." I shrugged.
The real smile covers her features and I can feel the happiness radiating in her, I don't even know why I can affect her that much. "Mochof Klark." I just nodded and stood up.
"I'm sorry I can't offer you any food. I still haven't gone into the trading post to trade a panther to Niylah and get my supplies." That didn't just slip my mouth.
Lexa looked at me like she wanted more answer. "Who's Niylah?" This person never stopped asking me.
"She's a friend of mine. The trading post owns by her family. I guess she's the only person that keeps me alive." I retrieved the fur in my pack and lay it on the ground. I also laid another fur for Lexa to sleep in, with a great distance between us.
"She's just a friend of yours?" She asked not taking her gaze away from the fire.
I lie down on the fur put the cloth over my body that Lexa gave to me and I patted the other one indicating that she should do the same. "Yup she's just a friend of mine." A curiosity on me strikes on. "Why do you ask though?"
I turned in her direction and she looked at me. "Nothing." She said plainly and I chuckled to that.
"Yeah sure, nothing." I said sarcastically. She finally stood up and lay on the fur.
Lexa closed her eyes and her breathing is steady. I never seen someone this so peaceful. She deserved so much better, than being forced by her teacher to do something that she don't want. Lexa once told me about her teacher being strict to her, because after all she's the commander. I just don't understand why someone would be so this harsh to someone like Lexa. Lexa is such a great leader to her people. I know that I shouldn't feel this after what she had done in mount weather, but she's just a leader who wanted her people to be safe. She had done that by sacrificing us. I don't even know if I'll do the same if their leader asked me to negotiate with the same sacrifice Lexa had agreed on. To make my people safe and just to abandon another group of people who was supposed to be in our side.
Maybe if I was in her position I'll take their offer too, but I don't betray my friends. I know It's a hard decision she made by choosing whether her people to be safe to the price of my people's safety. If she just sticks up on us a little longer, we could have made a great alliance and we both got our people back, safe. Things happened for a reason, but I don't understand what the reason is for this one.
I've been in the wilderness for the last one month and yet she's here to save me. The person I thought I would never see again. The person I thought that don't want to see because she left me after all.
I remembered when she said her last goodbye in mount weather. Lexa saying 'May we meet again' broke me into pieces, because I saw a tear that escape her eye that time. I knew she didn't have a choice after all, but choosing over her head and heart is a big trouble for a leader. A leader always chooses her people over a person they love, if that leader is so dedicated with her duties. That time she's dedicated, she's always dedicated.
This day she went looking after me that didn't show at all, but being dedicated just to find me and make sure that I'm safe. I don't know why I still held these feelings that I shouldn't have kept towards her, but if I let it go I might shattered into pieces. I don't want to be broken again, I deserve better than that. But waiting for the right person is too long, maybe that person is already there somewhere in the wilderness that I don't have the belief to see.
I was broke into my trance. "Your thoughts are overflowing in this cave, Clarke. You should take a rest; a long day will be ahead of us."
Maybe I can keep that resentment in the side and learn so much more about her. "Yes you're right. I was just lost in my thoughts." I finally close my eyes and peacefully made my body comfortable on the fur I'm sleeping on.
"Goodnight Lexa." I said and breathe in a steady pace.
"Reshop Klark. You're safe." The last words I've heard until I drifted in my sleep and I know she's true to her words. I'll be safe. Maybe the person I'm waiting is just beside me.
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