November 12, 2029...

Dear Diary....

Life is as it should be, or rather unlife hah. It seems like everything is the way it was meant to be. For once things have been so simple. We have

just moved back to Forks again, of course I felt it was a bit soon. I mean obviously people will remember us and know something is off. But

Charlie's heart is starting to fail him, Bella needed to be near him. It's been so long that I have almost forgotten what it is like to have to worry

about trivial things like human death. I suppose this will be her first time having to come to terms with immortality and the consequences of living

forever. Something I warned her about of course. I do yearn for female friendship, I do wish sometimes I could go back to the lighthearted times of

youth, and gossip and shop and perhaps even become a cheerleader? hah. But not only do I have to keep up with this facade but I know it would

be incredibly painful to have to loose each and everyone of these humans I have shared a bond. I don't want to deal with that pain, I don't think I

can handle anymore reminders of what it is I have given up. I suppose I can't begrudge her wanting to be near him, even if it means putting us at

risk a little more so than normal.

We are doing as much as possible to try to keep inconspicuous. We decided it best that we do our schooling and work related business in Port

Angeles for the most part. Renesmee and Jacob have maintained their mundane little married life on that reservation. How she manages to live like

that is beyond me. She seems happy though and regardless of my feelings on her lifestyle or the dog, I am happy for her. Carlisle is business as

usual, he is working at the hospital in Port Angeles. He loves his work and his life and things just couldn't be better between him and Esmee. She

spends her days gardening and joining in local book clubs in the area. She really is living up to the Mom image quite perfectly. Jasper is teaching at

the local community college, History of course. I had my doubts about him being able to maintain a job and keeping up the human act, not to

mention being in a small room with lots of emotional energy surging, then the smell.... But he has adapted quite well. Emmett has really taken to

his photography, he has been traveling all over with National Geographic. They are so impressed with his ability to get so close to the wildlife

without being injured hah. Not to mention he is able to seek out some of the most rare creatures never before caught on film, it makes him feel

special to be able to put his extra senses to use. His pictures truly are amazing, as is he. I am so lucky to have such an adoring, beautiful man so

committed to me. He really is my other half. As for Edward, he has become rather indulged in his music. He is working with a few record companies

as well as a few film production companies as a composer/song writer. Of course he does this under his stage name, Claudio Debsseny. He has

done several amazing soundtrack scores, written some terribly cheesy yet successful pop songs and of course he has his secret recording studio

where he makes his music just for his friends and family. Bella, well up until recently she was working on her writing. That girl always was a

bookworm, throw in my overly dramatic brother and wham you have a budding poet. Lately though, her time is spent with Charlie. Taking care of

him, trying to nurse him back to some form of health. Alice won't tell her but it's a lost cause. We thought it best to not take what little hope she

had away from her. Lastly, there is Alice and myself. We have gone into business with each other doing what we do best, making people beautiful

. Well, trying at least. Alice has become quite the designer, her dresses are exquisite. We own a little French boutique (Le Petite Gateau)

downtown. She creates some of the pieces and the rest we special order from different Parisian designers. I have been making jewelry and

different accessories and such. I know we are a bit out of our league in a town such as Port Angeles, but then again where else does one buy

their prom/homecoming/wedding clothes from? Walmart? Certainly not! She really is in her element here. As for me, part of my yearning to watch a

little girl of my own grow up gets fulfilled. I get to dress these girls preparing for their first dances, I get to see them become women. It gives me a

little piece of that life that I never got a chance to experience. It's kind of comforting.

As you can see, life seems nearly perfect. Everyone is doing what makes them happiest, we are all together and life is simple. I should be

perfectly content, right? Something is missing though, I can't put my finger on it quite yet but something is missing. There must be something

wrong with me! I think about Emmett, the perfect man. Gorgeous, Strong, Loving, Funny, Talented. I have him, he practically worships the ground I

walk on. This alone should make me feel whole, I would be lost without him truly I see this. Yet, I am yearning for something.... I just haven't quite

figured out what that is yet. Enough of this, I must get on with my predictable day....

Until next time,

xoxo Rose