Star Trek doesn' t belong to me.
This is part 4 of my idea of the end of Kirk's first five year mission. The previous parts being "Pride", "Sloth" and "Envy". As a mindful observer you have realized by now that these are three of the seven deadly sins, therefore you can anticipate 4 more parts, "Gluttony" being one of them. :-)
I'd like to thank all of my readers, especially all of you who have taken the time to review my stories. You have kept me writing.
Gluttony - It is considered one of the seven deadly sins - a misplaced desire of food or its withholding from the needy. (Wikipedia)
Gluttony
Spock was about to disobey an order from Starfleet Command. If he were human he would find a euphemism for his insubordination in an attempt to not only soothe his own conscience, but to plot a strategy for the court-martial that was certain to follow - "misunderstanding", "misinterpretation", or "misapprehension".
"I am a Vulcan," Spock said to the light of the single candle in his quarters to end his contemplation, as if this would solve all moral problems he had encountered during the ten minutes he had retreated to his quarters to decide on his next actions. He'd made a decision, the only possible decision. It was illogical to deceive himself about its nature or its consequences. And he wouldn't lie in front of the court-martial that was sure to follow, claiming ignorance on the fact that the mission he was going to command was contradictory to the order to not interfere with Meriahni affairs.
Meriahni affairs. Velal, their Romulan passenger on board, a spy, and normally an enemy, but in this particular mission an ally, had said that these "affairs" were not solely confined to Meriah Five but were also Romulan and Vulcan affairs. And since a member of the Enterprise's crew was trapped in a Meriahni prison during an uprising, it was his affair as well. As first officer it was his duty to anticipate the wishes of his captain and act accordingly. And Jim Kirk, had he been fit for command, would not have left him there. Would he?
You are doing it. You're trying to justify your decision. Why Spock? Because it is an illogical one? The Vulcan heard McCoy's amused voice in his mind, arguing. And he couldn't help but to argue back. It depends on one's moral standards, doctor. I believe in some situations loyalty and ... friendship outweigh obedience.
Certainly the doctor would have something to say to that, Spock thought. But he couldn't waste any more time with this inner dialogue. Not if same dialogue partner in real life was in mortal danger.
Spock activated the comm. "Mr. Scott, Lieutenant Uhura, Mr. Sulu and Mr. Chekov, please meet me in the conference room as soon as possible. Spock out."