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And this time as I went down the street everything seemed blurred. The streetlights were big yellow lights which slowly got darker and smaller and soon I stood there in the middle of nowhere and everything around me was dark. I couldn't see anything, but still it had something magical on it and so I went forward the street. In some strange way I loved the darkness and loneliness. It was so quiet and I didn't think about anything. I just walked along the street in the middle of the night. Rain clouds came and the last shining stars were gone as the rain started to fall down on my little hands. I continued walking through the rain and tried to forget my past and my sorrows. I have lost everything in my life, my home, my family, but worst my friend, the only one who believed in me. And I pushed him away because I wanted to forget him. How could I do this to him? Only now I see what a big mistake I've done. Would he forgive me?

As I thought about the mistakes I made in my life I thought about my life before all this happened. I remembered my family, my real family, the family who has the same DNA as I have. I was three years old as I saw them the last time.

When she was just a girl, she expected the world.

Would they recognize me? Should I go to them? They might miss me. Thousands of questions ran through my head and I was unable to answer even one of them. But one question was the most important. Was it my fault? Would everyone be better without me living? Am I the problem?

Life goes on, it gets so heavy.

I took a deep breath and pushed away my thoughts. I undressed my cloak and then I stood in the middle of the night, in the middle of nowhere and the rain fell down on my naked skin. I stood there in just a top and leggings and kind of enjoyed the rain. It was cold and soon I started to freeze, but it was like the rain washed away my fears. I leaned my head in my neck, closed my eyes and started to feel the raindrops on my face. Also some teardrops ran down my cheek as I remembered some old times.

Every tear a waterfall.

I didn't care about anything, it's like suddenly all your problems went away and you're kind of happy.

She dreamed of para-, para-, paradise.

Happiness, something I didn't feel in too long. Such bad things happened in my life and it was good to have one moment of time without people around me, without fears, without ignorance, without problems. Just me, myself and I. And it felt actually pretty good.

I know the sun must set to rise.

My eyes still closed I thought about what will come next and around me started a storm. Thunderbolts stroke down around me and I tried to imagine everything was great in my life. The only problem...the reality was a bit different...I mean; I just lost my home and my family. I had no one, no one in my life where I could go to. I also had no place where I could stay over the night. Why did I do this? Why was I so stupid and left my family? I'm not complete without them. They were a part of who I am, they have always been, they will always be. I need them and seriously I didn't have the simplest idea what I'll do now with my life. A part of me had already died as I left them.

In the night, the stormy night she closed her eyes.

I actually wrote this in Latin class but whatever.