Remains of the Dawn
I saw them together. Pailong and my dearest sister, together and obviously in love. I can't say that I haven't kept secrets from Jun. Oh, I have so many secrets.
Everyone says, "Oh, you and Horohoro would be so cute together." Yeah, in a yaoi maybe. Am I the only one that finds this sickening? Am I the only one who realizes that from the sidelines, little Tamao is watching Yoh and Anna grow closer as lovers – and feeling her very heart being wretched from her stomach? Am I the only one who thinks Lyserg is just a bit whacked? And what about Ryu?
I know that I'm only thinking this way because of Pailong and Jun, together, and holding each other like there's no one else in this house. I'm still here, sister. Or have you forgotten that I came to visit you?
I wish that the true object of my affections was here, and not on the other side of the screen that blocks my view of the real world.
Looking at my hands, I feel like I'm completely inferior. I'm not good enough for her. There's no way I can match up to her. She's pretty, and smart, and…
She loves me. Even though we're separated by a screen we can't break, a page we can't share.
But her kiss was a miracle, awakening my deepest feelings. My darkest fears. I find myself trying to confess my sins and reveal my true dreams to her.
And she reveals her life to me. I am like her boyfriend. Even though she can't have me, and I can't have her, we still think of each other.
I can't tell Jun that I saw her with Pailong. I can't tell her that it wasn't really what they were doing (making out) that bothered me, but the fact that Pailong doesn't really exist. Pailong is a zombie.
It doesn't matter, really. I know that when someone looks at you like that, you can't stop yourself from wanting to hold her to your body. I can't help but think that she was given to me for the sole purpose of me holding her, telling her that the end of the world won't come for a while. At least, the end of the world will have to wait for us.
Horohoro doesn't care that on the other side, we are always together. That is not right. There is something wrong with that child. It's all good, though. Just because I hate him doesn't mean I can't suddenly fall for him.
Hello? What do these people think, exactly? If you want to use your time wisely, make Tamao and Yoh get together. That girl's heartbreak is worse than Faust's. Such a beautiful girl can't just waste her life waiting for Anna to die so she can take Yoh.
Not that Anna dying would be a bad thing, but Yoh seems to really like her.
But my girl says that you can't hate Anna. My girl says that Anna is just like any other girl, simply in love and unsure of how to go about getting her guy.
Sometimes I wish life wasn't as cruel as it is. Jun and Pailong are together, on the same side of the screen, but when I press against the screen, I can't get out. I can't see her.
I really love her. She's not just a fan girl. She's the one girl who understands pain, who knows sorrow, who has to deal with her own demons.
She says, "Hey, come out of there. I want to see you."
I think I will see her today. I can't escape from my world, but when I'm with her, I feel truly loved.
It's good to be loved by someone other than Horohoro.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Shaman King.