I roll out of bed, literally thanks to Blossom pounding on my door. I check the alarm, June 1st, 2:57 pm. It's his birthday. I quickly put on some clothes, and clean up my room before letting Blossom in, she'd kill me if she saw this mess.''BUTTERCUP UTONIUM'' she shouts. I rush torwards the door, and unlock it to an angry Blossom. ''Buttercup, I fucking called you 3 hours ago to wake up, we need things to do today and I dont all day because you know Brick invited me to Butch's birthday dinner. ''You should fucking know by now that alarms or phone calls don't wake me up Blossom. Its as if you didnt live with me for 16 years.'' She rolled her eyes ''Whatever, get ready and wear something nice. We're going shopping, and then lunch with dad. I really dont want you to be looking like a whore today.'' ''Define, ''nice'' Bloss.'' I roll my eyes, and kick her out of my room while she rambles on about me being a smart ass. Whatever, I guess I'll dress nice for dad. I walk into my closet and sigh. What the hell can I fucking wear to look decent on this hot ass day?''

*3:40 pm*

I walk up to Bubbles car wearing shorts, white sandals and a knit top. Bubs is wearing a floral dress, and Blossom is wearing leggings and a striped tank. I go into the drivers seat, slide on my sun glases and turn around. ''Are you guys going to get in the damn car, or what?'' I asked. My sisters looked at each other and stepped in the car. I made Bubbles sit next to me because Blossom is such a fucking control freak I cant even deal anymore. I'm really hungry, ''can we eat lunch first? I'm starved''. Blossom rolls her eyes, ''fine Bc whatever you want.'' I pull into Chillis, and they seat us immediately. I sit next to Bubbles, and Blossom starts ''So Brick wants to have a suprise party ready for Butch for when we get back fro-'' ''He isn't going to like that, just saying. Just skip dinner, and take him to the party.'' I say. They both look at me as if Butch and I werent bestfriends for years, and I didnt know him better than he knew himself. ''You do realize he was my bestfriend before right. I mean I remember his damn birthday every fucking year for god sake.'' Bubbles goes to speak, but Blossom interrupts. ''We know, and we let him know every year Bc. It's not like he doesnt know who you are, okay. You arent the only victim in the situation. And you know what else? Its time to fucking move on, and let Butch be happy like hes moved on from this whole problem. Just accept the fact that the two of you will never get along again, and its all your fault alright?'' I swallow hard, and blink my eyes so the tears wont fall. I dont want to be fucking over it, he was my bestfriend. As much as I love my sistsers, they're each others bestfriends, Butch was mine. Without him I feel so lonely sometimes, cant they every fucking open their eyes and notice I will never forget or move on. They are so ignorant, and it sucks that they will never understand how I feel.''You're right'' I say while I get up from the table and start to walk away. ''What are you doing Buttercup?'' Bubbles asks. ''This Bubbles, is finally moving on. I need some time for myself, tell dad I'll call him later okay?'' I leave and head torwards Arianna's house, my roommate freshman year. She left because she got caught smoking in school. She still goes to school, she just cant live there anymore. I knock on her door, and she opens quickly. ''Bc, whats wrong?'' she asks. I shake my head, ''nothing trust me''. ''I lived with you for almost 2 years, I know you. I bet this is about Butch. It's been 3 years, and although I think its unhealthy for you two to have let go of such a good friendship, sweetie I think its time to move on. You know I love you, but theres nothing we can do to change his mind. I dont know why, but you know him better than anyone else. Once Butch makes up his mind, theres no way in hell he's going to change it. I wish I could help, but this his whole problem has been going on too long, and I would really like for you to stop moping around, and fucking smoking so much pot! Its ridiculous. I know it reminds you of the old days but cut the shit, you've always been one of my closests friends, but its like I dont even fucking know you anymore. I'm sorry to say this, but grow up Bc. You're turning 17 in two months.'' I let it all sink in, and the tears pour out my eyes hot, stinging all the way down. Arianna is the only person besides Butch that I can cry infront of. My pride just doesnt get in the way with them 2. I've always felt so happy, and myself with both of them. I wish everything would just rewind, and I could re live all of those amazing memories with Butch, Arianna and my other friends. ''I cant fucking move on. I dont understand why you, my sisters and everyone else seem to think its so fucking easy to let go of the only person who understands everything about me so easily. To let go of all the memories that are attached to him. Everything I ever do reminds me of him. Do you not realize its like losing a limb? Nothing will ever be close to replacing it ever again. As hard as you all try to make me happy, it will never work. YOU all need to grow up and see the bigger picture. There is no Buttercup Utonium without Butch Jojo, okay? You have your bestfriend, my sisters have each other. I. cannot. function. without. Butch. I really wish I could but I cant okay!'' She holds me while I cry. ''If you miss him so much, why the hell are you moping. Do something about it. I am sick and tired of you coming to my apartment when you and your sisters get into a fight about him and then hearing you complain. I want you to take a look at this okay?'' She leaves the room, and comes back with a big black book. She hands it to me, and the cover is blank. I open the book, and I see a letter. I instantly notice the handwriting as my own and begin to read.

Dear future me, what the fuck is up you babe? I hope everything I planned is going well. Butch and Arianna are knocked the fucked out right now. They are such light weights. Anyways, freshman year has been a year to definitely remember. I wish I could start again, not that I would change anything ofcourse. I'm writing the first of my letters that I'm going to start every 4 months. Basically its just to remind you of all the events from this year. Its only december and its cold as shit balls, but Im excited for Christmas and new years! Thank god dad is going to his mothers house, so me Butch and Arianna can get fucked up. This is fucking awesome. I'm also going to keep a picture of every single memory I will make along my journey of boarding school. Bye Buttercup, see you soon babes.

I laugh as I finish the letter. I flip the page, and look at the pictures that went along with the letter. Its one of me and Butch drunk as shit, with Arianna passed out. A few others of us with Boomer, Brick and my sisters. I flip through the pages, until I stop at the last page. It's the last letter I wrote.

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey bc. So Mikey is calling me, and knocking on my door but I cant fucking open cause I have Butch on my bed sleeping. Lately, we barely hang out cause Mikey doesnt like me and Butch hanging out so much. I'd never tell him this, but I dontgive a shit what he wants. Butch is my bestfriend, but anyway we have to secretly hang out unfortunately.''I know you are awake, open the door'' he shouts. I cant open now, and I refuse to wake up Butch. He probably has a hangover and I wont be able to keep him quiet enough to sneak him out. Holy shit, I dont know what to do. Butch is stiring, this isnt good. FUCK MAN. I hate having to chose between them two. Butch is my bestfriend and I love him so much, but I am inlove with Mikey. He was my first, and only and I cant leave him. He means way too much to me, and I cant chose. My life is so fucked. Bloss and Bubbles keep telling me to dump Mikey cause they think hes a douche, but I dont think so. Hes everything I EVER wanted in a boyfriend. Yet again, he is controlling and we fight almost everyday. Not that I would tell anyone though. I'm sure Arianna knows though, she fucking despises Mikey. Ever since Mikey told her to fucking leave me alone because he thinks she was in my business she doesnt even look at him. I see Arianna get up, cover Butch up and walk to the door. ''Mikey get a fucking life! I am sleeping and so is Bc, leave us a fucking lone!'' and she slams the door. What the fuck is going on? Help please..

There are a few pictures of me Butch and Arianna. Then I look at the last picture, its the last picture of me and Butch ever. I start to cry, and Arianna says ''Oh no, not the water works again. Remember how happy we all used to be? I still talk to him every now and then, and he misses you too. But you fucked up really bad Bc, I understand his pain.'' I pick up my hair, and wipe my tears. ''Well its time for me to go, I have to go buy something.'' I say. ''Again? You do the same thing every year. I know he appreciates it Bc, but dont get crazy okay?''

Blossom

''I have no idea whats gotten into her, and now ever since the problem, shes a mess. We really need to talk to him, and make him talk to her. You know her and her pride, she'd never talk to him. Its fucking ridiculous.'' I said to Bubbles. ''Yeah but did you forget Butch is Buttercups twin, neither of them will make the first move. Lets be realistic, its just not going to happen. He misses her as much as she misses him I mean have you see his laptop? It still has all of their pictures and things on there. Why the hell did you tell her he's moved on? Shes going to do something stupid, as if we need that now. You know our sister, and her compulsive ways and then somehow Butch is going to find out and they will NEVER talk again.'' I sigh, everything used to be so perfect. We would all do everything together, and now I feel as if I have divorced parents splitting my time between the two. Its all Buttercups fault, she realy needs to get her shit together..