Dear Diary,
Damon, he is so beautiful, his eyes.. are like crystals, but only better. He used to be a jackass but it was with reason. He had alot on his mind, his temptation for blood,opening the tomb to fetch katherine, his brother hating him and of course he was very lonely. The stories that Damon had told me about his life in 1864 and with his realationship with Katherine, i almost felt sorry for Damon. It seems to me that Damon was the brother that loved Katherine too much and Stefan was the brother that loved Katherine too little, which breaks my heart. I know this because Damon had spent years looking for Katherine, trying to open the tomb, and Stefan on the other hand didn't want to see the sight of Katherine ever again. Stefan thinks that Katherine had compelled him to love her, but she had claimed she didn't, who knows.
Also, it breaks my heart that Damon risked everything trying to look for katherine, and when Damon found Katherine, she said she had never loved him, and it would always be Stefan, and well he got very pissed off, and came over to my house and he grabbed both of my arms and put his soft lips onto mine, but i was in love with Stefan at that moment, so i broke free from his grip. Damon then had ran away and snapped Jeremy's neck, not knowing he had the ring that john gave to him on his finger. i was devastated, and i knew i would never talk to Damon ever again. That soon failed, that makes me kind of selfish right? but, what brought me back to him..and i knew all along it was, love.
Damon made me feel alive, more alive i have ever felt in my life. Stefan had never made me feel that way before. I was attracted to Damon and i couldnt help it. When i became a vampire, i remembered what Damon had said to me ages ago, something that was need to get off his chest. ''Cute Pj's'' Damon said, sitting near the window. ''im tired Damon'' i moaned, wanting him to go. Damon got up ''Brought you this'' holding up my vervain necklace. ''i thought that was gone?'' he shook his head, ''thank you'' i said, relieved. i tried to grab it, he pulled it away. ''please give it back'' i said, looking worried, ''i just have to say something'' Damon said calmly ''why do you have to say it with my necklace?'' i groaned. '' because what I'm about to say is the most selfish thing i have ever said in my life'' Damon muttered ''Damon don't go there'' i sighed '' i just have to say it once you just need to hear it... i love you, Elena and its because i love you, i cant be selfish with you..why you cant know this.. i don't deserve you but my brother does'' he sighed, and he moved towards me, and kissed my forehead with his gentle lips. Now that's what I call selflessness..