Ok this is going to be better then my first fanfic i was just playing around on that one it sucks lol anyways on to the story

Fionna pov

I got home and saw a note tapped to the fridge

Fi,

I ran out for today i wont be home until around 12:00 pm call me if you need anything

Love , cake

I smilled knowing what that means i ran upstairs into the washroom and locked the door grabbed my hidden razor blade from under the floor tiles i pulled off my longs socks and smilled at my white scarred canvas then i started cut after cut after cut all the way up to my tigh just under where my sock ended . i have been cutting myself for almost a year now no one knew but i was in a very abuseive relationship with flame prince everyone knew we were dating but no one knew how abusive he was every time he beat me up i would pull it of as battle scars from my adventures cutting was the only way i could escape the world i also gagged myself he told me i was fat and that i should start doing it so i did i lost 40 pounds in the month i have been doing it i don't know if thats how i lost the baby or when he gave me a messed up abortion

~flash back~

I went to the doctors for my monthly check up the abuse and rape has been going on for a while but i still didn't know i was pregnant i was sitting there on the chair when he went to get my results i didn't know what for but he said he would go get them so i waited after a couple of minuites passes he came back with a smile " fionna" he started " its a positive " " for what " i said still not knowing what for " your pregnant" he said happily a rush of fear and happiness rushed over me i smiled slightly and got up " thank you doctor but do you mind not telling anybody " he nodded and is milled " thanks doctor " and with that i left to tell my boyfriend the good news

at fps house

i knocked on the door excitedly knocked a little louder and he opend the door " HOLY CRAP CALM DOWN IM HERE DAMN " " sorry i said guiltly my excitement soon washing over me " guess what" " what" he said annoyed and mad for some reason " im pregnant " he stood still and emotionless for a couple of seconds then he slapped me and pulled me inside the house " YOU DIDNT YOU THE PILL YOU SLUT " i started to cry as he kicked me , punched me , i coverd my stomach trying to protect the baby he grabbed me by the hair and pulled me uo " I CANT BE NO FATHER" he pulled me up the stairs by the hair and when we got mot the top he picked me up and threw me down the long staircase when i got to the bottom he went downstairs and threw me out " COME BACK WHEN THE BABYS DEFFANTILY GONE SLUT" i went to the doctors and checked it was gone when he told me i was no longer pregnant it was like a little part of me died i told flameprince it was gone and he rapped me again warning me about what will happen the next time i got pregnant all styed up all night and cried wanting to die

~end of flash back~

I started to cry some how feeling that anger , and sadness i did that day only adding to my cutting making the wounds more deep and aggressive i threw the razor at the ground and started crying wrapping myself in a ball crying myself to sleep

A COUPLE HOURS LATER

( still fionna pov)

I woke up coverd in blood and dried tears i cleaned up the washroom of my blood and hid my razor i took a shower washing the dried blood of my body but the depression and sadness still remained when i was done i got dried of and put on my pjs and decied to go to bed it was almost 12 and cake would be home soon i slowly drifted of the thoughts of what my baby could have looked like and me being the perfect mom the thoughts entering me into a dreamless sleep.

Ok chapter 1 its short but i put alot of time into it them feels lol hopefully you like it

~bryanna