Sick and tired of this world
There's no more air
Trippin over myself
Goin nowhere
Waiting, Suffocating,
No direction, And I took a dive and...
On the way downline I saw you
And you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you
I've been wonderin why
It's only me
Have you always been inside
Waiting to breathe
It's alright, sunlight on my face
I wake up and yeah, I'm alive
Cause on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me from myself
And i won't forget the way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you
I was so afraid, of going under
But now, the weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no, nothing
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
Down, down, down
You're all I needed
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
You're all i needed
And I won't forget the way you loved me
All that I wanted...
All that I needed... now
On the way down
I saw you
And you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you
But I held onto you
But I held onto you
Carly had lost herself. She laid awake for the last three hours crying uncontrollably alone on her cold bathroom floor. Cried for her marriage for her children and for herself. She had so much to cry about. Sitting alone in her house, that much was clear. Listening to the song she felt like maybe she could pull herself out of the hole she was living in, reminded her she still wasn't alone. ' It was never supposed to be this way' Carly realized sadly that she'd lost a part of herself. Loving Sonny had destroyed her. She was alive and still there physically but, she had fallen a shell of the strong woman she once was. ' The last thing I ever thought I would be doing was walk away from a marriage. I risked everything for Sonny.' She smired but, her face showed the depth of emotion behind acknowledging who she used to be ' I had always been one to fight. Take no prisoners and get what I wanted. What I thought was best for me. Unless of course, I got carried away on a crazy scheme and screwed up. The end of our marriage was all Sonny. He fucked up all by himself. My mistakes were worse. I allowed Sonny to cheat, let him corrupt our vows over and over again. I enabled him to hurt me because I wouldn't say enough is enough. I blame myself for that. I messed up and that's what got Sonny and I together. Sleeping with Sonny while I was in love with Jason to this very day was my biggest mistake. More than four years later I still hate myself for it'
A/N: the song in this mini chapter is On the way down by Ryan Cabrera