Hi! I'm Amelia4Allison. This is my first fanfic so please constructive criticism! I will try to answer every review my story gets so you won't be confused. If you don't like the story at all, that's ok. Just PLEASE tell me what you don't like about it.

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Prologue

God how I miss her. I miss holding her while she slept. I miss holding her hand, gently kissing it, and then watching her beautiful blush appear upon her cheeks. I miss kissing her. Her sweet lips called to me, tormenting me with their soft texture and delectable taste.

But, no. I didn't want her to have this life. So I left her, again. i stayed her friend, reveling in the moments I hugged her, wanting it to be so much more.

No, I was with Tanya now. Finally answering her pleas. My virginity had gone to her, not the one I had wanted it to go to. No, I left again, but still it hurt just as worse as when I never saw her. Because when I saw, my arms were around another; a cold, stone body, not her warm, soft one.

And even though she smiled at our 'sweet' moments, it did not reach her eyes. She seemed to find a way at blocking my only way to her true feelings. All I could see were her beautiful brown eyes turn into a cold, hard shield. Jasper had talked with her one day, then he always kept his mind from the topic of feelings.

I had once asked him what she said. He only shook his head, thoughts silent, before he looked up at me with the saddest gaze he had ever shown.

You told her you would love her forever. You left her broken, torn, and barely alive. And then, you leave her again after coming back to her, and show her pictures everyday of you happy with someone else. She says nothing, wanting to feel happiness, sorrow, jealousy, something. But all she can feel is nothing. All she can feel is the void that she went into before, when she sees you, even without her. She's not going to try anymore. She can't take the additional pain. She's giving up. She's leaving soon, and I don't think she will say goodbye.

That was the day my heart shattered. I can still hear his thoughts echoing in my ears clearly, too clearly. Because it was all too true.

A week later, she hugged everyone as if she would never see them again. When it came to my turn, she backed away, holding up her hands. I froze in that moment, feeling pure ice fill my dead heart.

"Edward," she whispered, looking me in the eyes, I saw her lift her shield. What I saw there almost made me crumble to the ground. The depth of her sadness was something I could not fathom.

She had looked at Jasper, nodding, and then I felt it. It made me want to die. That's only a hundredth, Jasper whispered through his thoughts, sadness lacing his tone thoroughly. They had become quite close over time. He carried even more burden because of his affection towards her.

When she looked back at me, I could no longer see anything but the shield in her eyes, dulling their beauty. Thoughts around the room were silent, there was nothing to say.

Tanya was still beside me, not noticing, nor caring about the scene. Then she walked out the door, her head hanging low as her brown halo of hair, adding to her angelic beauty, fell limply, no longer shining with health.

I watched as she walked out of that door, thinking of how Jasper was right. I received no goodbye, only my name, and a glimpse of the consequences of what I had done. I had hurt her more than before when I left.

It still opens the hole in my chest to remember that when she walked out of that door, she walked out of my life.

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AmeliaAllison