HI! Wassup? I was convinced this was horrible until Wynter-Solstice told me it's not. I still think it is, but whatever. Maybe it's just because it's a somewhat different kind of writing. Idk

Anyways, here's the thing: There is Big Time Rush, which consists of James, Carlos, Kendall and Logan, and there's also the four boys from Minnesota who are Kendall, Phillip, Roberto and David (I used their middle names). As you can see, there are two Kendalls, so I used POV a lot in this story so you wouldn't mix them up.

Lyrics is from Unbreakable by Fireflight...

Music Lyrics and Idiots

-4 weeks before-

*Kendall Schmidt's POV*

'Kendall, I need to talk to you.'

I looked up as James came to stand by me, looking troubled.

'What's wrong?' I asked, immediately concerned. Some may say that I take being the leader of Big Time Rush too seriously, but they were my best friends, and I wanted to be there whenever they needed me.

James looked away, but not before I saw the pain on his face. Had someone hurt him? Had he hurt someone?

'Uh..' he started, before seeming to gain some more courage. Courage to say what?

'I've been worrying for days,' he said, 'wondering what was wrong with me. Wondering why I'm different. Because when I look at you, Kendall, I don't see a guy. I see a handsome man who tries his utmost best at everything. I see why girls are totally in love with you. When I look at Logan, I realize he's so cute with his dimples and smile. Dak, to me, is one of the hottest guys, and,' James sighed, 'everytime I see a guy shirtless I get goosebumps. It scares me Kendall, but I know I can trust you because you might understand.'

'James,' I said, utterly confused now. 'Are you trying to say that you're-'

James looked me fully in the eyes.

'I'm gay.'

*No One's POV*

Kendall raced over to the television and plopped down in front of it. Big Time Rush was going to start soon, and he was freaking out, because it was a new episode.

He turned on the television, and was relieved to see that the ending credits of iCarly was on. He waited impatiently on the edge of his seat, when Nickelodeon showed the trailer for Big Time Movie.

Kendall watched it, his heart leaping everytime he saw one person.

James Maslow.

The guy was a complete hottie, and Kendall wasn't exaggerating. He had been absolutely heads over heels in love with James ever since the band was formed two years ago. After the trailer was finished, there was an announcement that BTR was going to start a tour, called the Better With You tour.

As the names of the countries being toured were called out, Kendall wished with all his heart that they could say Minnesota, but Minnesota never came. Disappointment flooded Kendall's heart, but he pushed it away, and soothed his poor soul with some rather hilarious BTR episodes.

-Present day-

Kendall entered the school building, stifling a yawn, as he caught up with his friends walking down the hallways to their lockers. David, Phillip and Roberto- Kendall couldn't imagine life without them. The four boys were more than best friends, they were brothers.

But this morning, Kendall was ignoring them. He'd spent the whole night on Tumblr watching James, or rather, staring at James and having multiple orgasms, especially a particularly explosive one seeing James shirtless, his abdominal muscles glimmering in dim light.

He got hard again at the thought of those muscles flexing over him, and a blush spread across his cheeks. Phillip looked across at him, raising an eyebrow. Phillip and the others knew about his obsession with James and Big Time Rush, and Kendall was certain that if they saw his current... situation... they'd start asking questions.

Fortunately, a soft 'ping' from his phone saved him from dying of embarrassment and torture. He pulled out the device, and saw to his utter happiness, a tweet from the king of hotties himself: James Maslow.

jamesmaslow

Much love to Minnesota! Gonna have a great time. The guys and I will be there for a while, so come on out. We'll be happy to see y'all :) xoxo JM

Kendall stopped dead in his tracks, head whirling. James... and BTR... is coming... TO MINNESOTA?

*Kendall Schmidt POV*

'James,' I said, drawing the tall boy's attention back to me.

'Yeah?' he answered, sauntering over to my bed and plopping his petit ass on it.

'It just got off the phone with Sarah. She said that we're staying in Minnesota for a week as our break...' I trailed off as James raised an eyebrow.

'What?' I asked enquiringly.

'Break?' He frowned, clearly confused. 'What break?'

I sighed. 'It's supposedly going to be our 'vacation' after the Better With You tour. We're not doing any concerts, just maybe a few signings.'

James immediately turned pouty. 'But I like concerts,' he whined in a really annoying voice.

'James,' I said, really frustrated. I know it was unfair, but today wasn't exactly one of my best days so far. 'You're acting really gay. Stop that.'

'Shh...' he said, clasping a hand over my mouth, looking around suspiciously.

I brushed it away impatiently. 'James, there is no one around. Carlos and Logan are outside and we're alone. So please stop that.'

He frowned and got up. 'You're not even supposed to mention it.'

'I know, I know,' I interceded. 'I'm sorry, ok?'

He didn't reply, instead, he walked over to the window and stared out of it, the soft breeze ruffling his hair. Even to me, he looked appealing, and I was straight. After a long while, he looked back at me, his eyes hooded and dark.

'Is it a bad thing?' he asked, face taut and emotionless. 'Being gay. Is it going to break up the band?'

Then the pain became evident on his face, and I wanted to say 'no', that everyone would accept him, and one day he'd find his prince.

Instead I answered as truthfully as possible.

'I don't know, James. I don't know.'

*No One's POV*

Kendall walked numbly to his friends who were sitting around the lunch table. His head was spinning, and he could literally feel himself going into shock. Because after three years of wishing and hoping, his dream was finally coming through. He sat down with a tiny smile on his face, looking off into space, thinking of James.

'Kendall,' a voice tore through his mind, and he looked up, a frown now plastered across his originally dreamy expression. Phillip was looking at him worriedly, while the others chatted away.

'What's wrong?'

When Kendall didn't respond, just sat there, trying to gather his thoughts. 'Uhh...'

'Come.' Phillip got up, and Kendall shuffled after him to the corner of the room.

'What's wrong?' he repeated. 'You've had this goofy smile on your face whole day and you've been distant. Are you okay?'

Kendall laughed, bubbling with excitement. 'James is coming to Minnesota!'

Disappointment layered Phillip's face. 'That's all? Who cares?'

Kendall gave Phillip his 'death' look and the boy's eyes widened.

'Um... Yay. James is coming. Let's have a party. Woot.' He said in a monotone voice, and Kendall raised an eyebrow.

Phillip burst out laughing, and very soon Kendall was laughing too. They doubled over with this insane laughter, not sure what they were laughing at. Each other? Neither knew.

All they knew was that they were looking like idiots.

And sometimes it felt good to be idiots.

*Kendall Schmidt POV*

'So…' Sarah said as we lined up in front of her. 'I'm sure Kendall told you about your vacation in Minnesota.'

James nodded while Carlos and Logan looked at each other in surprise.

'Vacation?' Carlos asked.

'Minnesota?' Logan added.

Sarah turned to me, glowering. I raised my hands in defense.

'Hey… I didn't get a chance to tell them yet. But I told James though.'

She raised her eyebrow then sighed. 'Well you guys have-'

'A vacation' Carlos repeated, cutting her off.

'In Minnesota,' Logan finished. They looked at each other and laughed.

'Aww…' I cooed. 'Finishing each other's sentences already, are you? You two should be a couple.'

James sent me a warning look but as usual, I ignored it. Logan had the grace to smile uncomfortably, while Carlos just looked disgusted.

'Eeew Kendall… I'm not a fag.'

Almost immediately, James' demeanor changed. He muttered a quick 'excuse me' and ran/walked out the room. I mentally slapped myself for being so stupid to bring that topic up. Carlos and Logan looked at each other, confused. I got up.

'I'll be right back.' I raced after James, catching up with him as he walked down the street. I pulled him as he was walking down the street. I pulled him in to an empty alley and made him face me.

He was crying, and when he saw the sympathy on my face, he rubbed them away furiously.

'I'm so sorry, James. I didn't mean-'

'He'll hate me. They'll hate me. And Sarah and Ranel and my parents and everyone else. Eventually you'll hate me too. Maybe I'm better of killing myself. No one will ever love me Kendall. No one.'

It scared me to see James like this. I slapped James, but the boy didn't react.

'Listen to me, James. I love you. You're my best friend. I'll never hate you and Carlos and Logan are idiots. But don't even think like that. You have me standing by your side, and I promise you'll find someone who'll love you and everything would be alright.'

For a second, hope glimmered in James' eyes, but then he shut down. His face was wiped blank, and expressionless. He shook his head. 'It's impossible.'

He turned and began to walk away. I became desperate, and immediately remembered something important.

Music lyrics. James valued the words of a song more that any quote or poem. He believed it held the secrets of the singer's heart, their desire, their love, their hate.

'Forget the fear,' I said, and James stopped, not turning around, but I knew he was listening. 'Forget the fear, it's just a crutch, that tries to hold you back and turn your dreams to dust.'

Hope you liked it XD Please review!

And go check out the story LaceyDean and I wrote :D It's called Because of You!

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