Authors Note:
Hello! If you are currently reading this, that tells me that you have stumbled on my humble little one-shot. I needed to write this because I have been having writers block. I'm kind of upset that no one commented on my other story The Oath, so if you can be oh so merciful, please stop by my other story and review, If you do I would be grateful. I would love you FOREVER. Though for now, just enjoy.D Kind of OOC but whatever ;D
This is my take on how the encounter with the wolves should've went :D ENJOY!
Disclaimer: Nada D:
The rain was pouring hard and the wind was thrashing at my window as I drove speedily to the very familiar road. I've had enough loss to last me the decade and I wasn't about to lose anyone else. He had the answers I wanted and if he wouldn't come to me I would come to him. I've had enough of his lame excuses and his cold shoulders. I knew that somewhere underneath that mask of coldness my Sun was trying to break free.
Sam's gang did something to him, something I didn't like, and something that killed my Sun. I wasn't going to leave without getting him back.
When I parked into a familiar drive way I stomped my way to the door, ignoring the rain and pounded my fist on the door loudly. Billy opened the door, irritation clear on his face. When he looked at me his face softened but quickly turned into shock.
I crossed my arms and looked at him with a determined expression.
"Where is he Billy?" I asked calmly. He shifted uncomfortably in his seat but looked at me with pleading eyes.
"Bells its good to see you. He's actually sleeping right now, he hasn't gotten much sleep so maybe you can come back later and talk to him?" he asked pleadingly, truly concerned about his son.
"He won't talk to me later will he?" I asked him quietly closing my eyes in frustration and disappointment. I really wanted to talk to Jacob but Billy looked so pleading and concerned that I couldn't bring myself to argue with him. I opened my eyes and he looked apologetically.
I sighed in defeat and walked back to my truck as I heard the Billy closing the door. When I reached my car I couldn't hold my tears any longer. I put my knees up and clutched my chest in fear that my heart would break completely if I didn't. I cried harder and louder than the rain that was pounding on my cars roof and I didn't take notice of the fact that I was completely drenched. I leaned my head on the window and sobbed louder.
Why? Why is it that everyone I love leaves me? Why wasn't I good enough? Why must everyone toy with my heart and break them. The worst part was that I trusted them, trusted all of them completely, never fearing the consequences because I trusted all of them that much.
Why did I have to be so ugly? So plain? Why couldn't I be pretty enough? Why couldn't I be interesting enough for them not to leave me? I sobbed louder envying the drops of rain. I envied those raindrops because they only lived for a second enjoying the beauty of life then quickly disappearing, not staying long enough to get hurt.
I should be strong. I should just get over this quickly but I couldn't. No matter how much I tried the pain in my chest grew larger and larger everyday. Jacob had tamed the pain leaving me with a numb feeling but the numb feeling quickly left when he disappeared from my life. Just like HIM. They all left. I don't blame them I knew I wasn't special.
I screamed in anger and frustration. WHY? WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME? WHY? The pain in my heart was unbearable. Like a hole in my heart that tore it every time I tried to breath. The aching in my chest never seemed to stop and the pain of it all made me want to die.
I wouldn't kill myself though. I wouldn't give them the satisfaction. I would mock them, silently saying that I'm still alive and they, HE, didn't destroy me. Though in the inside I was broken beyond repair.
I wiped my tears furiously away from my face and looked outside the window. I was very aware of eyes on my back even if I was in my truck.
I walked outside of my truck and looked around. I growled when I saw who was looking at me. Sam and his gang. I was instantly filled with anger. They were the reason that I didn't have my Sun. They were the reason why the numbing feeling in my heart was replaced with knee dropping pain. They were the reason I lost my best friend.
I angrily walked to them again ignoring the rain that was still pouring on me. My face held pure anger and hate and they were mirroring it. I only recognized Embry and Sam. I remembered Embry being a good kid. How wrong was I.
When I reached them I roughly pushed Sam.
"What did you do? What did you do to him?" I asked angrily. He growled and I heard a 'watch it little girl' from one of the other half naked men. I glared at the guy and he glared back.
"He didn't want this!" I yelled irritated at them.
"What did he do? What did he tell you?" A very handsome man asked me growling slightly. Sam tried to tell us to calm us down. To hell with Sam he doesn't control me!
"Nothing! He tells me nothing because he scared of you!" I growled. I was responded with laughs from the other guy and the handsome one. All I could see was red. I was beyond furious. I slapped the handsome guy and he started growling and shaking.
I was scared beyond belief but somewhere in the stupid part of my brain, I knew he wouldn't hurt me.
"Paul calm down!" Sam tried to order him.
Tell him to calm down. Tell him softly and reassuringly. A voice in my head said.
"Calm down. You're scaring me." I whispered to him quietly, placing my hand on his arm. He looked at me and his shaking slowed and his breath turned even and controlled. He looked at me in shock. That was when he looked in my eyes.
I gasped. I was trapped in dark pools of chocolate that shone with love. He looked like a dying man that just saw the gates to heaven. I probably looked the same. I don't know why but I felt a strong connection towards this man. It was indescribable, I couldn't fight it, I wouldn't try. I felt like I belonged with him even thought the rational part of my brain kept screaming at me about my breakdown just a few minutes ago. I didn't care, I felt safe just looking at him.
He shocked me by pulling me into a tight hug. I stiffened but melted in his arms immediately after responding to the hug. I breathed in his scent and smiled slightly. Pine, rain and AXE. Manly scent. He pulled back and looked shocked that he hugged me. He completely released me and I felt lonely.
He smiled slightly, his eyes sparkling but as quickly as it came it disappeared and was replaced with the usual cold hard stare.
I smiled to myself clutching my chest. That was the moment that I could feel the pain in my heart lessen.
Staring at this stranger before me, made MY dead heart beat again.
I didn't know why but I kind of liked it.
And that's the end. I don't know if I want to continue this or just keep it a one shot. I really don't know. I had fun writing this. It felt good. I love Paul/Bella and I just had to write one. I will be updating The Oath very soon so watch for that. PLEASE REVIEW! REVIEWS = wooden spoons!