Just what I feel, a house, m.d. fanfic

Huddy- different song fics. All House POV.

Some are only songs, just thoughts that House would think.

Before we met I was free
I never had to worry about anyone but me

-It's the truth, since I laid my eyes on you, i've never stop loving you.

Now that boy is gone and in his place
Is a man who needs to hold you night and day

We've known each other 20 years.

A long time.

I've changed.

So long ago.

I don't deserve you.

So if I stumble, if I fall
Forgive me I'm just learning as I go alone

No matter what I've done or said to you, you always pretend it didn't happen.

I hurt you.

Why are you here'?

Excuse me.

For everything I've done.

See me through, see me through
This aching heart has come so far
To be with, see me through
With angel eyes, just look inside
At all this love I never want to lose
See me through

I promise, I'd never wanted to leave you. Look deep inside of me and you'll see the truth.

I know sometimes I let you down
But I'm still getting used to having you around
And if I ever make you cry
There's nothing I won't do to make things right
I'm not perfect and that's for sure
A little time is all I'm asking for

Stacy left me so could you, I'm afraid.

My heart has been broken.

It's taking time to heal.

Too long.

I can't change, so there's still time, for you to turn back.

I'll understand.

It's the price I've gotta pay, for hurting you.

But I'm begging you, I need you. So wait a little longer.

See me through this mask I wear
Well, I'm almost there, you know I care
I am the man you always thought you knew

You know the real me, you see who I really am, even though he's like a shadow.

Never visible.

See me through, See me through
Oh see me through
yeah yeah
oooo ooo see me through
oh we're almost there, can't you see that
I'm almost girl I'm almost there
This mask I wear
Girl, I'm almost there, I'm almost there
See me, See me through this mask I wear,
I'm almost there
ooooo girl
See me through, ooo yeah

We'll be reunited once more. Never in these years i've loved anyone but you.

You are my life, you will always be a part of me.

--------------------HUDDY_HUDDY_HUDDY_HUDDY-------------------

Can't get enough of this everyday love
Can't get enough of this everyday love

-Yes, my true love is you. Never was anybody else. You were the only one. The one that beats my heart.

Each morning the sun shines through my window
Lands on the face of a dream come true
I shuffle to the kitchen for my coffee
And catch up on the front page morning news
Then she walks up behind me and throws her arms around my neck
Just another normal thing I've come to expect

That was a long time ago, back in the days when we were in med- school as a couple.

We've changed since then.

You are the only one who i loved.

[Chorus]
It's ordinary plain and simple
Typical, this everyday love
Same ol', same ol' keeping it new
Emotional, so familiar
Nothing about it too peculiar
Oh, but I can't get enough
Of this everyday love

The past is long gone and the future is so far away, so there's only the present to make it up to us.

To make everything right.

Every afternoon I make a phone call
Listen to the voice that warms my heart
I drag myself through a few more hours
Then head on home to try and beat the dark

Your voice is something special, so unreal.

So loving.

I try to figure out a way

To make verything right

But nothing comes to mind.

Her smile will be right there when I step through that door
And it will be that way tomorrow, just like everyday before

It happens everytime i walked in the lobby of the hospital,

You'll look up and see me.

I don't stop to say hello

And so you look back down.

But i turned around to see your face

And you give me that smile

I've been waiting for.

Wouldn't change one single thing about it
No, it's run-of-the-mill, still I can't live without it

I don't know what'll do without you.

You've always been here for me.

What'll happen when you're not ?

I just won't make it.

And that is why i have to finally say it.

Yeah, of this everyday love
Can't get enough of this everyday love
Can't get enough of this everyday love
Can't get enough of this everyday love
Can't get enough

We have to uncover what've been hiding

Because i can't tell you by myself

You'll have to figure it out.

But first of all

Let me finally kiss you.

And you'll discover my darkest secret.

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

If I ever write the story of my life
Don't be surprised if you're where it begins
Girl, I'd have to dedicate every line on every page
To the memories we made, while you loved me

I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
While you loved me

I'd start with chapter one, love innocent and young
As the morning sun on a new day
Even though I know the end, Well I'd do it all again
'Cause I got a lifetime in, while you loved me

I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
While you loved me

i was born the day you kissed me And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
(I lived)
I was born the day you kissed me
(the day you kissed me baby)
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
(I lived) While you loved me

I live through you, only you. You come and go but in my heart you never leave. It would inflict me to much pain, if you let me go. So I go on my side and pretend I don't care, but the truth is that's the only thing I think about. Is you. And me. Just us.

I keep remembering all the memories that we shared, together, I think that the longer I remember them, they'll never fade away. And be in my mind eternally.

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

From time to time I have regrets
For all the things I didn't say
That were on my list
From time to time my memory slips
But you're the one thing in my life
I won't forget

I'll never be able to forget you, i've tried believe me, but when i do, the only thing that my feelings do, is grow.

[Chorus]
There'll never be a minute of the day
I won't think of you
My feelings are so strong in me
I feel it through and through
There'll never be a night that's so dark that we won't shine
Or a dream that we've lost that we can't find
You'll always be, oh the one for me
I think of you from time to time
And in between

It's like I live for you and only you. You are my reason for being here, if you weren't i'd be gone so long ago.

You'll always be, oh the one for me
I think of you from time to time
And in between
oooo yeah

Always in my mind. All the time. Never leaving my thoughts.

You'll always be, oh the one for me
From time to time
And in between yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah I do
I think of you from time to time
And in between, yeah

I just think of you

Day and night.

Whether the moon is white

Or the sun is bright

In my dreams and in my mind.

Now I've gone blind

Afraid of what you might see

Through the real me.

I wish it was easier

But nothing has been harder

You think you're the blame

But it's not the same.

I'm just lame.

It's just

I love you so.

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"Yes I Do"

Do I cry, in the night?
Do I long to hold you tight?
And do I wake, wanting you?
Yes I do
Do I recall, everyday,
How you took my breath away?
Do I remember loving you?
Yes I do

Memories are a power thing, they never what us to forget things like those.

[Chorus:]
Yes I do dream of all we had together
Yes it's true we lost it all forever
And do I pray anyway?
Yes I do

Becuase dreams come true.

I don't live in the past
Wanting love that wouldn't last
I don't ache, like I used to
Yes I do

Just wish that i could go back, and change everything, so nothing will be so black

Yes I do
Do I pray?
Yes I do dream of all we had together

Yes I do

And Yes I do

And i'll i can do is marry you.

Now.

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

I guess it's cause and effect
Your heart and mine
The way that we connect
Keeps blowing my mind
There you go again, it never ends
What you do to me

[Chorus]
That I have seen the light of day
Love is finally going my way
Is it too good to be true
Give me one more kiss, one more touch
Baby, I just can't get enough of you
This time, too good is true

All of a sudden
I'm not who I used to be
I had my heart locked
But you held the key
And you find a way, everyday
To show me even more

Some people say we're too good to be true
But they don't get to be loved by you

Oh this time, too good is true
Yes it is, yeah

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

I have always been a little shy
I've always been the quiet type till now
And I never let my feelings show
I never let anybody know
Just how much I was so deep in love
But now that you're in my arms

[Chorus]
I'm gonna stand on a rooftop, climb up a mountaintop
Baby, scream and shout
I wanna sing it on the radio, show it on a video
Baby, leave no doubt
I want the whole world to know just what I'm all about
I love to love you out loud

You keep bringing out the free in me
What you do to my heart just makes me melt
And I don't think I can resist
But I've never been one to kiss and tell
A love this true can't be subdued
So I'm gonna let out a yell

Baby, I want the whole world to see
Just how good your love looks on me

Baby, I love to love you out loud
Yeah, I love to love you out loud

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

"You"

Every road that I've been down
The only truth that I have found
There's only one thing I can't live without
You

I was searching for something I thought I would never find
Losing my mind
In and out of bad love, I thought I was born to lose
Then came you
I thought I knew what the real thing was
But nothing shakes me like your love does
I've been hypnotized
Now I realize

Every time I get lost in a temperamental mood
You still stay cool
Just when I think that this life's about to drive me insane
You take the reins
Every time I feel I'm drifting off course
You're my compass, you're my one true north
In a mixed up world
You make sense to me girl

Yeah, every road girl
Leads me to you
And baby, that's all I need to know

Every road that I've been down in my life
Every time I feel I'm taking off
Every road that I've been down in my life
Every road girl, leads me to you
Yes it did, yes it did
Every road girl
Every road leads me to you

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

"One Good Love"

(house and CUddy's child POV)

One good love
Erases all the bitter tears on an empty dance hall
All those lonely nights when she never called
It just don't seem so tragic after all
With one good love

One good love
And daddy's hands were strong and fair
And a momma understands because she's been there
And all mistakes were just because they cared so much
With one good love

I would never wish for better parents than i have now. I owe them everything i know. I never want to go.

[Chorus]
One good love
You bless all my memories
You soften the fall of my tears
And in my arms you're more than enough

You and mom fight, but i know through it all. You'll always make the right call.

You always say to me, i'm the best things that's happen to you, but they're an exeption for everything. You are meant to be, so you truly are the best thing that's happen to yourselves.

You're one good love

Hey you're one good love
Yeah, you're one good love

One good love
And born again means more than pass the plate and bow your head
Yes, you bury what needs burying, you raise it from the dead
The very best, you heal the brokeness, give grace to everyone
With one good love

Yeah, oh, one good love
Hey, hey, one good love
Yeah, I'll give you one good love
Oh, give me one good love now, love yeah
ooooooo yeah
Lord, I feel born again, yeah
You got to give me one good love now
One good love

"It's Not Just Me"

Tell me you've had trouble sleeping
That you toss and turn from side to side
That it's my face you've been seeing
In your dreams at night

Tell me that you wake up crying
And you're not sure exactly why
Tell me that something is missing
In your life, in your life baby

[Chorus]
Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you've waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it's not just me

I could have sworn I saw you smile at me
Standing in the poring rain
At a loss for words and running out of time
I said this crazy thing (crazy thing), I said

Hold me now and tell me that you do believe
In a soul, a soul mate
And tell me, and tell me, tell me

Don't bother, i already know. You love me so.

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

"Waiting All My Life"

Everybody needs it
Everybody wants it
Everybody's searching for someone
Been down a thousand highways
I never thought would end
Baby, I've been

Waiting all my life to find you
Always been one step behind you
Your love babe
I've been waiting all my life

I was tired of waiting
Every night was praying
Everyday would be the day I'd find you
I grew so impatient, how long would it take
To know you were out there somewhere
Somewhere waiting, wondering just like me

I've been waiting all my life to love you
All that time I was dreaming of you
Your love babe
I've been waiting all my life

And did I lose faith, did I lose heart
Maybe I did, but I never lost my way
To where you are-I've been

Your love I've been waiting
Your love I've been waiting all my life
All my life, all my life

My life must be over, because now i finally have you.

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

"Some Say"

There's that star, the one they said we'd never reach
And just close your eyes
There's the missing moon, there's the Milky Way
Heaven's straight ahead, we'll be there today
Rainbows right and left, sunshine everywhere
If it couldn't be baby, how did we get there

[Chorus]
Some say we'll never get it off the ground
Some say we'll never make it out of town
That someday we'll end up a world apart
And some say we're a couple of crazy kids
And some say that's exactly what they did
And I say you got to go with your heart
And baby, look where we are

There's that home, the one they said we'd never share
And just close your eyes
There's the picket fence, there's our mailbox,
Puppy on the porch and roses up the walk
Shinny minivan, kids in every seat
Someday we'll look back and say it wasn't just a dream

Because now it's true. We are together. I wouldn't want to go back. Even if i had the power to.

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

"Love Another Day"

It's 3 AM and you're still wide awake
Wondering how much more your broken heart can take
All he left you with was shattered dreams
I know it's hard to see right now, it's not as bad as it seems

You'll live to love another day
Happiness is on it's way
Hold on
It won't be long
I know the pain you're living in
Sometimes you've got to lose to win
It's okay
Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

I know you say you've lost your faith in love
And it's not written in the stars above
I wouldn't tell you anything but the truth
I've been where you are
And I'm living proof

What's here right now didn't come to stay
The sun is gonna rise again and the clouds will roll away
Believe me when I say

You'll live to love another day
Happiness is on it's way
Hold on, hold on
I know the pain you're living in
Sometimes you've got to lose to win
It's okay
Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

I'm coming to you. It's like i'm gonna save you. Just please don't let go, until I have, because otherwise i'll lose you.

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

I'm not going to hide it any longer. I'm ready to tell the world.

I'm not hidding anymore.

Don't worry, this is what i really want.

Just be with you.

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

I should be out in that driveway stopping you
Tears should be rolling down my cheek
And I don't know why I'm not falling apart
Like I usually do
And how the thought of losing you's not killing me
I feel bad
That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad

I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about just throwing love away
Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking
But I cant lie
All I want to do is turn the page
I feel Bad

That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad

That I don't feel bitter, alone
I just feel its time, its time to move on
I just gotta move on and on and on and on

Yeah
Baby it's just I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad
No, I don't feel bad

Because you always come back. Because you'll be on the right track.

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

You waved your hand and it was done
So let it be and there it was
A mountain, so high, it broke through, the sky
A canyon, so deep, it'll bring a man to his knees

[Chorus]
I've seen what you can do
I've seen you make miracles and hopeless dreams come true
You've made the heavens and the stars
Everything, come on how hard
Could it be, To make her love me?

I've said some things I shouldn't have
Tried everything to win her back
I'm human, I messed up, Is she gone?, Are we done?
Forgiveness, another chance, that's all I want, it's in your hands

[chorus]
I've seen what you can do
I've seen you make miracles and hopeless dreams come true
You've made the heavens and the stars
Everything, come on how hard
Could it be, To make her love me?

Well I do. I just want to be forgiven. And open her protected heart.

---------HUDDy_HUDDY_HUDDY--------------

"Words I Couldn't Say"

In a book- in a box- in the closet
In a line- in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch late one june
In a breath inside a whisper beneath the mooon

There it was at the tip of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tounge
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away

What do I do now that you're gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

Theres a rain that will never stop fallin
There a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldnt pass my lips
So I held back and now we've come to this
And it too late now

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say
.

From the moment that we met
My world was turned around
Upside down
To some degree I still regret
My memory for keeping you around
Girl I thought that you were mine
But my broken hearts been shattered
One too many times
And I don't want to see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here,
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given and oh how you can take
There's no use in you looking
There's nothing left for you to break
Baby please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces
Someone let you down again
So you turn to me
Your convenient friend
Oh but I know what you're doing
And what you hope to find
I've seen it a thousand times
Oh the fire we had before
Are now just bitter ashes
Left scattered on the floor

I love you…

It's just as simple as that.

These songs are all from Rascal Flatts.