Me and Roman Reigns used to be best friends. I'm not sure what you would call us now but it's definitely more than best friends.

We were always close, he was my rock, the person who was there for me time and time again who kept me strong and made me laugh. He was the most important person to me. We were best friends for about a year and a half now but now things are different.

It was about 2 months ago and my boyfriend of 1 year broke up with me because he couldn't handle the schedule of dating a wwe performer..he also couldn't keep it in his pants while I was gone. I was heartbroken, this was the guy I wanted to spend the rest of my life with and he betrayed me so badly. That night I was a mess, crying, throwing things drinking, destroying my hotel room it was horrible. Roman found out and came to see me. He stayed with me all night holding me and comforting me.

Something changed though. When he held me. It gave me butterflies, it made me feel safe, i never wanted him to let go. I thought it was just me but it wasn't. Ever since then things were different between us. Our hugs lasted longer, we stayed together in the same hotel room, we traveled together, when we were hanging with couples one time I made a joke that I felt like a loner and he held my hand, we looked at each other differently and got way more protective over each other. I'm not sure how all of it changed with one simple thing but it did.

The problem was...he had a fiance and a child.

I wasn't the type to break up a happy home, or any home for that matter. I tried to stay away from him. I really did. But I couldn't. Being away from him was like being half full, you weren't fully happy or yourself because half of you was missing.

I walked into the arena with my best friend Nikki Bella that night and dropped my stuff off in the locker room.

"Wanna go grab some food from catering before the show?" I asked her

"No, I'm actually going to go see John I'll catch up with you later" she hugged me before she left and I set off to catering.

I saw Seth, Dean and Cesaro sitting down so I grabbed some food and went to sit with them.

"Hey Rox" Dean said

"Hey Dean!" I said with a smile. Dean was another of my best friends he met me in a really hard time in my life before I got to WWE and helped me through it.

"Where's the big man? I thought he was traveling with you?" Seth questioned

"No.. I came with Nikki today, I thought he was going to be with you guys."

Dean just shrugged and started eating. A few minutes later the seat next to me got pulled out and Roman joined us.

"Hey Ro!" I said while side hugging him

"Hey sweetie" He said while hugging me back tighter. He was wearing my favorite cologne and for a second I forgot about everything around us.

"Pretty long hug guys" Dean smirked

Roman pulled away while clearing his throat.

"So we all driving to the next city together?" Seth asked

"Naw, I'm going to be with Zeb and Jack tonight" Cesaro said while biting his apple

"So us four?" Seth asked looking at Dean, Roman and me

I nodded my head and felt Roman squeeze a lil above my knee and smiled.

"Hey Rox can I talk to you for a second?" Dean asked me and stood up. I got up and followed him into a empty hall way.

"What's up Dean?" I looked at him curious.

"What are you doing?"

"Talking to you...?" I asked more than stated

"With Roman"

"Nothing"

"It doesn't seem like nothing. The touches, the extra long hugs, the look on your face when he shows up.. he's engaged Rox."

"I know that Dean. Nothing is going on with us."

"Cut the bull shit"

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me"

"Dean..nothing is going on he's just my best friend"

"I'm your best friend and we don't do that"

"You're both my best friends I just have different relationships with you okay? I know he is engaged and I wouldn't do anything to mess with that, I'm just cuddly you know that"

He looked at me then ran his hand through his hair. "I know that's not it. You can't hide stuff from me but I'll drop it...for now"

"Thanks.. I have to go get ready for tonight I'll see you later" I hugged him and walked back to the divas locker room to get ready for Raw tonight.

After Raw I met up with Seth, Dean and Roman met a few fans and drove 4 hours to the next city, it was about 4 am when we finally checked into our hotel.

I was walking to my hotel room that I was sharing with Roman and while Roman was unlocking the door I looked at Dean and he was giving me a look sort of like warning me to be careful. I loved Dean but he really needed to mind his own business.

I followed Roman into the hotel room and put my bags on the bed closer to the window.

"You always go for that one" he chuckled

"Huh?"

"The bed by the window. You always go for that one"

"I hate the one by the door"

"I figured you just liked the window. Why do you hate the door one?" Roman asked while sitting down on his bed taking his shoes off.

"Reminds me of things that used to happen" I shrugged

"Like what?" he stopped moving just staring at me

"Just things"

"You know you can tell me anything right?"

"I know Ro. I just don't like talking about it. It's in the past after all" I smiled.

"Alright I understand that" Roman said while lying back on his bed.

I walked into the bathroom and changed into shorts and a tank top for bed and came back out. I looked at Roman who seemed to already be sleeping.

"Ro? You're not going to change into some pjs?"

He just groaned and rolled over.

"Fine mr. grumpy pants" i said while turning off the light to the room I was walking to my bed when Roman grabbed my hand.

"What Ro?"

"Lay with me" He said with his eyes closed.

"No"

"Why not?" he opened his eyes staring at me.

"I don't like sleeping close to the door you know that"

"Afraid of monsters or something?" he laughed while still holding my hand.

"Something like that" i said while looking down.

"Hey look at me.. I don't know what the problem with the door is but it's not like I'd let anything come in here and hurt you Rox. Just lay with me"

I looked back up to the door and started having flashbacks of what used to happen in my room. All the horrible disgusting things. All the things I fought so hard to get away from.

Suddenly I felt a hand on my face and looked up to see Roman standing infront of me staring down into my eyes.

"Are you okay Hun?" he asked while running his thumb over my cheek.

"Yeah..i'm okay"

"We can lay in your bed okay? I'll still lay between you and the door" he lightly pushed me to start walking to my bed to lay down.

He lifted the covers and I crawled in and laid in fetal position, Roman crawled in behind me and put his arm around my waist and I relaxed a lil bit. He put his head on my shoulder and whispered in my ear "I'd never let anything hurt you okay? you're safe"

And for the first time I actually believed it.

Roman fell asleep right away while I lay there letting my mind drift. It kept drifting back to what Dean said about me and Roman. "This isn't crossing the line" I thought.

But honestly I think I knew it was. I mean if I was with Roman and had a child with him to find out he was sharing a bed with another woman I'd be furious. But I couldn't find the power in myself to push him away instead I scooted closer to him and finally fell asleep smiling.